Birthday Ed

Apa yang terjadi di hari ulang tahun Ed? Sehari sebelum nya saya bikin chiffon cake dan entah kenapa kok jadi nya bantet? Niat nya mau di hias pake cream, tapi udah keburu males duluan. Saya udah beli cream nya dan masih di kulkas belum di pake. Bolu ny udah hampir habis. Hari itu saya dan Ed kerja, mau masak juga males karena sama2 capek. Mau ngasih kado juga binggung karena barang nya udah banyak. Jadi saya cuma kasih mentah nya aja buat dia, bebas mau beli apa terserah dia. Kemudian kita ke Thai resto deket rumah, gak deket juga sih beda suburb. Sekitar 30 menit naik mobil. Kita ke Sorrento. Lokasi Thai resto nya terpencil tapi rasa nya juara. Awal nya saya mikir mau ke pub di sekitar Mornington, tapi kok bawaan nya males ke arah sana. Mau cari resto sekitar Rosebud juga kok kayak nya gak ada yg istimewa. Jadilah kita ke Sorrento. Karena saya pikir, kalo gak ada resto asia yg lain, mungkin kita makan di chopstix sorrento aja. Eh saya googling dan nemu Thai resto. Kita makan enteree, 2 mains, dan dessert. Pokok nya puas banget lah, saya nyesel banget kekenyangan jadi gak bisa habisin pad thai seafood nya. Kemudian saya kasih ucapan selamat, dan harapan dia cuma semoga tahun depan bisa pensiun dini hehe.. Ed juga pingin nya tahun depan setelah pensiun bisa travelling keliling dunia dan program bayi tabung. Jadi saya mikir, kalo program bayi tabung tahun depan terus jalan2 keluar negeri nya bawa bayi kan repot juga ya. Mulai deh dari sekarang cari pesawat yang paling enak buat berpergian bareng infants. Padahal bikin nya juga belom tapi repot ny udah duluan. Ed juga agak sedih karena dia makin tua wkwkwk.. Kayak nya tua itu pasti ya, dan semua orang pasti tua.. Tapi dia jadi berpikir kalo dia meninggal bagaimana karena saya masih muda wkwkwk. Gak ikhlas dia kalo saya nikah lagi. Padahal saya gak mau nikah lagi, cukup sekali menikah dan setelah itu mau bebas sendiri. Tapi dia jadi gak sabar buat pensiun dan punya anak karena udah semakin tua wkwk.. Jadi kesimpulan nya ultah Ed di rayain sederhana wkwk..

hidup tak terduga, jalani saja dengan ikhlas

kadang sesuatu luar biasa datang ke hidup saya tanpa di duga, begitupun sebalik nya, sesuatu yang di duga akan datang justru tak datang dan bikin kecewa. maka nya jangan banyak berharap wkwkwk... jadi awal nya saya mau pindah ke main company tempat saya kerja karena saat ini saya kerja di anak perusahaan nya. sudah di tahap interview, meeting dengan atasan, dll. namun akhir nya saya bertahan di anak perusahaan nya. lucu kan? itulah hidup, tak di duga dan tak disangka. sudah haru bahagia lalu gagal dan kecewa. mereka gak batalin atau menolak saya sebenenarnya. disisi lain, saya memang kurang suka dengan clients yang mereka kasih karena rata2 paraplegic dari TAC clients. saya pingin nya focus di aged care, tapi berhubung belum dapet client yang saya mau, jadi sementara ini saya kerja begini dulu aja. saya pun masih berusaha melamar kerja kemana mana, tetiba hari ini dapet telepon. gak mau berharap banyaklah yah, tapi seperti nya ini perusahaan yang nanganin lansia untuk companion. nah ini nih yang saya cari, jalan2 ke mall, ngopi, shopping, jalan2 bareng client dan enak nya di gaji. jadi saya masih harus nunggu email mereka, tadi sih cuma phone interview aja, interview face to face nya hari kamis minggu depan, jadi kita lihat aja gimana. saya kerjain yang ada di depan mata, pokok nya tawaran kerja pun saya ambil aja, tidak saya tolak kecuali ada urusan lain. di telpon sih di janjiin nya kerja untuk lansia yang tinggal di komplek lansia atau apartement khusus lansia untuk accompany mereka dan membangun relasi dengan mereka. jadi lihat nanti aja, karena saya suka banget sama lansia apalagi mereka yang dementia. saya kurang suka TAC clients karena rata2 mereka masih muda dan tiba2 kecelakaan lalu jadi cacat seumur hidup jadi nya mental mereka bener2 tergangu dan ganguan mental ini kadang di tumpahin ke carer. saya ngerti sih mereka gak bahagia karena tiba2 jadi cacat, tapi di satu sisi, saya gak bisa berbuat apa2. jadi saya lihat aja bagaimana nanti, karena main company masih nunggu international police check saya tapi ini udah 3 minggu an, dan saya berharap mereka membatalkan lamaran saya dan perusahaan yang nelpon saya tadi ini, saya berharap mereka akan menerima saya. tapi enathlah, biarkan waktu yang menjawab....

Sombong nya istri WNA

Seperti nya orang sombong gak istri wna aja, istri wni yang gak mapan pun kadang sombong. Tapi seperti ny sombong tidak nya seseorang bukan berdasarkan suami nya, ras/suku nya tapi berdasarkan orang nya. Saya mau bahas istri wna yg sombong dan ujung2 nya nge bully orang lain. Bukan saya sih yg di bully tapi orang lain. Agak risih juga kalo liat orang nge bully di grup kawin campur. Yang seharus nya berisi informasi saling membantu sesama pelaku kawin campur, tapi kok ujung ny malah saling bully, saling hina, dan menyombongkan diri masing2. Tindakan istri wna membully calon istri wna atau sesama istri wna ini bukan hanya sekali atau dua kali tetapi lebih sering. Tapi yang suka nge bully ini kalo saya check facebook nya sih hidup nya biasa aja (kebanyakan loh ya). Apalagi jika ada sesuatu tentang duit, pasti deh postingan itu ramai sekali. Entah kirim duit, terima duit, dll. Tapi seru juga sih kalo di baca tentang kirim duit ke indonesia, mereka pakai aneh2. Kalau saya sih gak mau repot, dan kirim duit nya juga setahun sekali jadi nya langsung aja dari rekening saya ke rekening ibu di indo. Pernah sih mencoba hemat (coba pakai yang murah), tapi kok malah repot dan bikin saya binggung. Kalo Ed dulu selalu pakai western union yang cepet nyampe nya. Tapi istri wna ini pakai nya macam2 dan memang saya lihat ongkos nya lebih murah, tapi ribet nya juga gak ketinggalan. Istri wna ini juga banyak yang bangga sekali menikahi wna (kebanyakan sih yang begini, baru nikah sama wna) bukan pasangan tua seperti saya dan Ed yang romantis nya udah hilang di telan bumi. Pas saya tanya suami nya wn mana (maklum saya orang indonesia dan saya kepo karena dia sombong sekali) dan dia pun dengan bangga bilang suami nya dari us, lalu temen nya dari aussie, bla bla bla. Yaaa gitu deh, suami saya mah dari mana atuh, dari planet lain yang gak dikenal di bumi, banyak loh yang menghina negara Ed karena itu negara berkembang dan ujung2 merendahkan saya. Sebenernya Ed tuh gak jelas negara nya mana, lahir di Poland, kerja di Turki dan Itali, jajan permen di Jerman Barat, akhir nya pindah kemari. Gak semua orang poland itu susah kan ya?? Sama hal nya Indonesia negara berkembang, gak semua orang Indonesia itu susah kan ya?? Tapi ya begitulah orang kita, suami saya orang poland tapi tinggal di aussie dan saya rasa biasa saja. Beda dengan yang suami nya dari amrik, sekalipun gak tinggal amrik tapi sombong nya luar biasa. Judul nya suami dia dari amrik. Saya agak gimanaaaa gitu sama orang seperti itu. Banyak juga sih orang Indonesia disini yang kalo ngomong itu tinggi sekali, melebihi tinggi badan nya. Baru 1-2 tahun disini pun ngomong nya udah politik, ekonomi, apalah saya gak ngerti. Saya emang gak tertarik sama politik disini. Saya tertarik membangun karir dan meraih pendidikan. Bahkan saya pernah makan di resto Indonesia dan ada grup Indonesia makan disitu juga dan mereka ngomongin pajak dengan suara keras. Seperti nya orang lokal gak sebegitu nya deh, orang lokal mengeluh tentang tinggi nya pajak. Kadang yang baru datang justru melebihi orang lokal nya. Kebiasaan orang Indonesia kalau makan seperti boss itu pun tetap terjadi di resto Indonesia disini. Arti nya setelah makan gak beberes bantuin pelayan nya. Minimal abisin makanan nya dan piring/mangkuk nya di tumpuk dan jangan banyak nyampah tissue di masukin ke mangkok yang masih ada sisa kuah makanan, kan keliatan jijik. Berbeda jika ke restaurant fast food, harus bersihin meja nya sendiri.  Saya lebih suka konsep bersihin bekas makanan nya sendiri setelah selesai makan, karena jika saya sebagai pelayan,saya merasa di hargai jika tamu meninggalkan meja dalam keadaan rapi (piring/mangkuk di tumpuk), tidak banyak sisa makanan, dan tidak banyak sampah. tapi itulah orang kita, terbiasa di manja dan dioerlakukan seperti boss akhir nya ya begitu wkwkwk..

Akhir nya punya mobil sendiri

Hari Rabu minggu kemarin, akhir nya gue lolos tes mengemudi. Agak dag dig juga, karena itu test pertama dan gak yakin bakal lolos pas pertama. Karena kebanyakan pada ngulang tes nya. Gue berusaha nyetir dengan baik dan benar di depan tester nya. Akhir nya gue langsung lolos hari itu juga. Kemudian Ed langsung beli mobil buat gue. Awal nya mau mobil ina itu (banyak lah mau nya) akhir nya pilihan nya jatuh pada Honda Jazz putih susu. Awal nya kan mau mini cooper, VW jetta, toyota yaris, atau honda accord. Tapi setelah pikir ini itu, akhir nya di beliin nya Honda Jazz. Hari Rabu lulus ujian, hari Itu juga Ed bayar mobil nya, hari Kamis mobil siap, tapi karena lain hal, akhir nya mobil nya di jemput hari Jumat. Ed beli mobil seperti beli apaan tau, denger gue lulus langsung nelpon dealer mobil dan langsung di bayar lunas hari itu juga, awal nya kan pikir2 mau ambil kredit gitu, tapi ya puji Tuhan uang nya cukup jadi gak kredit. Registrasi di vicroads, nama dll, di urus dealer. Sebelum jemput mobil udah nelpon asuransi dulu, pas mobil keluar dari dealer langsung masuk asuransi. Asuransi di bayar Ed yang comprehensive buat setahun, dan juga road assistant termasuk towing kalo mobil nya mogok. Ed bener2 cemas lebay gimanaa gitu. Padahal kan gue bisa jadi tukang bengkel darurat kalo terpaksa huehue.. Jadi aja sejak hari Jumat nih kaki gatel, pengen jalan2 mulu. Hari Sabtu di pake ke gereja. Ya gitulah bolak balik ke supermarket mulu, kalo g supermarket ya ke bunnings nyari yg gak ada. Rasa nya lega udah ada mobil jadi kalo apa2 bisa pergi sendiri. Mobil ini lebih gampang daripada mobil Ed. soal nya mobil ini kecil, mobil Ed kan besar. Dia pakai ford falcon. Body nya panjang. Tapi enak nya mobil Ed itu 6 cylinder jadi kalo masuk freeway bisa langsung gas full dan langsung cepet. kalo mobil ini kan 4 cylinder, jadi nya kalo masuk freeway pas di gas full pun rasa nya kayak naik sepeda.

I got partime job and I am happy !

What is the most important? Enjoying the job or counting how much you earn? I perfer enjoying the job. I don't like pressure or doing things i don't like. I don't really care anout how much money i got. I could earn better money but I do this job because i really love it. Doing this job is like doing hobby. Sometimes I felt tired and can't wait to go home then the next day I am really happy to back again. This is just partime job. I still got sick leave, annual leave, insurance, super, etc. but this job is hourly rate. I got wages not salary. Even this job is permanent job. I don't really care if they laugh at me because of my job. I laugh at them because they are too busy counting the money, it signs that they feel insecure finnancially, then they worry about money. Why they feel insecure? Maybe because they don't have a job, only their husband working, not enough money in their account, not enough money to impressed other people, etc. so laugh at me just to make them feel better. I am glad if they feel better after laugh at me. I don't have to be worry about what they worry about. Because for me, money coming and going, today i am wealthy and tomorrow i could be bankrupt. The most important is I been enjoying my life. If next day i am suffer of illness, i knew how does it feel about enjoying life as healthy people. Because once I get sick, money just nothing.

Bolu buat Ed

Dari awal emang niat nya kalo udah punya mobil sendiri mau sering2 belanja ke safeway. Jadilah sejak kemarin ke safeway mulu. Hari ini ke safeway lagi beli daging buat masak semur. Kemudian beli cake mix. Kebetulan lagi diskon, cuma $2. Jadi aja dengan $2 menjadi cake seloyang. Di cake mix nya ada icing, jadilah icing nya saya bikin kreativ. Semoga Ed doyan hahaha.. Ini bikin nya cuma telor, susu, mentega, cake mix lalu di aduk2 dan panggang. Gak pake takeran pula karena gak punya takeran.

Inilah hasil nya, karena agak gimanaaaa gituu jadi nya saya nama in 'Horrible Choco Cake' mungkin lebih bagus di nama in 'Disasters choco love cake for horrible husband' menurut kalian bagus nya dinamain apa? Awful? Disaster? horrible? Tipsy baker? dan sekarang lagi nunggu orang nya pulang karena dia dari luar kota dan dia gak tau kalo saya bikin cake begini.

Waktu berjalan begitu cepat !

Rasa nya baru kemarin saya bersusah payah kesini, baru kemarin saya masih berjalan kaki ke sekolah, dan sibuk mempersiapkan ujian. Dan sekarang semua nya sudah berubah total, mereka yang dulu masih berseragam sekolah kini sudah tumbuh dewasa, sebagian sudah bekerja, sebagian masih study, bahkan sebagian sudah menikah. Tak heran banyak orang yang bahagia kala menunggu reunian, mengenang masa itu, masa di mana sibuk belajar sambil sesekali bermain cinta. Mengenang masa itu dimana saya memulai cinta pertama, menabur senyum bahagia karena cinta pertama, dan akhir nya berlabuh di hati pria eropa yang tiba2 saja datang di hidup ini tanpa rencana namun membawa perubahan sangat besar di hidup saya. Itulah hidup, tak terasa usia saya akan menjadi 22 tahun. Ingat awal kami bertemu, saya pun belum memiliki KTP saat itu. Dibawa ke negara nya di usia 19 dan ternyata kami bertahan, entah sampai kapan kami bertahan tapi sejauh ini kami masih bahagia untuk bersama. Dalam 5 tahun ke depan, pasti ada banyak undangan pernikahan dari teman sekolah dan mereka bukan lagi pelajar, mereka akan menjadi istri dan ibu. Saya sedih, mengapa hidup secepat ini. Inilah hidup, yang terpenting menikmati setiap perubahan.

Memutuskan pindah ke negara lain

Pindah ke negara lain itu bukan urusan mudah, ada banyak dokuments dan syarat yang harus di penuhi, dan semua nya butuh dana. Setelah dokuments, syarat dan dana terpenuhi, berikut nya adalah memantapkan hati ! Ini hal yang rumit, karena bukan hati kamu aja yang harus di mantapkan tapi juga hati orang tua. Tapi tenang aja, gue udah pernah di situasi ini kok ! Pergi meninggalkan keluarga di usia 19 th, bukan untuk study atau berlibur, tapi untuk menikah menikah, pindah nya pun bukan ke kota lain atau kabupaten lain, pindah nya ke negara lain, melintasi samudra, dan beberapa jam di pesawat. Perjalanan panjang ini udah gue lewatin dan ternyata ada pelangi setelah hujan. Perasaan cemas, khawatir, binggung, tak yakin, dan lain nya tentang masa depan pasti ada, curiga dan khawatir tentang suami masa depan pasti juga ada, perasaan takut bikin malu keluarga kalo akhir nya harus pulang karena gagal membina rumah tangga juga ada. Tapi yang menjadi fokus gue saat itu, gue cinta sama Ed, semua perjuangan panjang Ed demi membawa gue kemari, dan semua keseriusan cinta Ed. itu yang mengalahkan segala nya dan akhir nya gue disini. Gue agak kasihan sama Ed, dia udah berkorban mati2an demi gue disini, bukan hanya materi tapi juga support secara emosional. Mengorbankan waktu, tenaga dan emosi demi gue, apa iya gue setega itu memutuskan dia hanya karena kekhawatiran gue. Kecemasan ortu gue terbayar saat Ed ngundang ortu gue buat liburan dan tinggal di rumah kita. Setelah itu ortu gue sangat berubah total. Pertama ibu gue lalu ibu gue mempengaruhi bapak gue dan akhir nya kedua nya bahagia atas keputusan gue buat menetap disini. Setelah gue pindah kesini, banyak lika liku yang gue dan Ed hadapin, kita beda budaya, beda bahasa, beda kepercayaan (Ed gak punya agama dan gue beragama), beda makanan, dan cuaca disini berbeda dengan cuaca di Indo. Otomatis perasaan kangen rumah itu ada, kangen masakan ibu, kangen suasana rumah, dll. Pernah terpikir untuk kembali ke Indo karena gue putus harapan untuk belajar bahasa sini, tapi akhir nya dengan dukungan dari Ed, akhirnya gue berhasil belajar bahasa inggris sendiri lewat tv, koran dan radio. Hingga akhir nya sekarang gue selesai study dan kerja. Itu udah gue lewatin, bertengkar, adu mulut dengan Ed, dan beda kebiasaan, dll itu udah tinggal kenangan. Gue dan Ed sekarang lebih tolerant satu sama lain. Menerima orang yang berbeda untuk tinggal serumah itu gak mudah, butuh proses, ada pertengkaran batin dan fisik, namun di akhir always acceptance. Ini merupakan bagian dari proses perubahan di kehidupan.

Our new family member !

So yesterday we got new family member, his name is sammy. I called it Sammy. He is very hard worker, he loves vacumming around my house, going under the bed, and go back to his home if he feels tired, i love him so much. Yesterday he cleaned  the whole house, then this morning he started work again even i still on the bed. So when i woke up, the floors will be clean. I am glad to have him here. This was part if my dream to stop cleaning the house and let someone or robot to clean the house. Yesterday Ed bought me a robotic vacum cleaner. So this lazy wife can lying on the bed and sammy clean the house. Sammy hates cords, so make sure all cords not laying on the floors especially if it is thin cords because it could make him stuck. He could walk from carpet to hard floors, in my living room i have carpet and hard floors, and sammy could go up to the carpet then go down to the hard floors by him self. So having sammy at home not just clean your house, it also save your time and energy, especially for busy couple like me an my husband. I work for almost 50 hours/week and my husband work for almost 45 hours/week. What we want when come back home is to sit, relax, and enjoy quality time. Not cleaning the house or being stressed because house dirty. I don't have to be worry about recharge him because he will back to his home (where he do recharging) by him self once the job done and he feel tired. He could run without stopping for over an hour, it took him 2-3 hours to fully recharge. He does not need a bag to collect dirt, he got dirt container. When it's full, me or my husband could easily empty that without any drama. So next is we need flying sammy to clean all the horizontal surface (tables, chairs, etc) around the house. We look forward to see it Samsung !

Count your bless and be grateful!

People looked at me and get jelous, just because i am young, living in civilised country, got respected job, got houses, husband, lot of money, etc. they are old, still got mortgage to pay, still have to work hard, not enough money and they just not happy with them self. The truth is, they been in my age, they were enjoying their young age with friends, etc, and i am losing that chance, i can't having fun at the club, traveling with girlfriends, have giggles with family and friends and i not worry about it because this is my choice to be here and work hard. Those people already half of the century or over and they still alive and healthy, and still have a chance to enjoying this beautiful world. And i am just 21 (going to be 22 in July) and i don't know whether i will still healthy and alive to live for half of century. I don't even know whether i will be wealthy or poor when i get into their age. As i said before, money coming and going, life is up and down. Even i try to preserve money, but anything can happen. Anything can happen to my life, i could get hit by car when i walking, or trees fall on me, or whatever who drive me to become disabled or die. So what's better things i can do to make my life more pleasant except be grateful for what i got and enjoy what's today, forgive about yesterday, and let tomorrow be as it is. Even i try so hard to make tomorrow a better day, but if i can't just can't. Not going to be stressful about that, it will pass anyway and become a history. When i getting old, i could be living under the bridge, feeling cold in winter, husband will pass away, i will be lonely, living by my self, etc. so be grateful that you been living for that long and your day almost finish. Because i don't know how long i have to fight for life, my journey could be long way or short way which means that my life not long as you are. So what's better than be grateful of what you have, count your age as a bless !

Bekerja karena pilihan

Sayah gemasss sekali kalo denger 'orang kaya mah gak usah kerja' apakah kerja itu karena miskin? Tuh banyak pengganguran gak kerja, di gaji pemerintah. Penghasilan saya seminggu sama dengan penghasilan mereka sebulan. Sayah kerja karena saya suka kerja. Apalagi kalo liat wanita2 indo yg nikah dengan pria barat, awal ny kerja, gara2 nikah sama org barat langsung resign. Banyak juga sih yg gara2 nikah sama orang lokal langsung resign juga. Yah hidup itu pilihan dan masing2 orang punya jalan nya sendiri. Kalo saya pribadi sih sekaya apapun suami saya, saya harus kerja, harus mandiri, punya harga diri di mata keluarga suami, di mata suami, dan di keluarga saya. Sama2 cari nafkah, urus rumah sama2. Banyak loh wanita2 indo yg saya kenal disini hanya mengharapkan uang dari suami. Diem2 ngumpulin sisa uang belanja demi dikirim ke keluarga di indo. Menurut saya hal ini nggak banget ! Bukan hanya orang indo aja sih yg begini, orang philipina juga banyak yg seperti orang kita. Saya masih bisa memaklumi jika wanita tidak bekerja karena ada bayi. Tapi kalo anak udah 2 atau 3 tahun ke atas dan bilang gak kerja karena ada anak, duhh kasihan anak nya di jadikan alasan. Lagian kerja kan gak harus terpisah dari anak dan keluar rumah. Bisa juga kerja online di rumah bersama anak. Nah hari ini kita ada argument dengan Ed karena saya terlalu sibuk kerja. Dan pilihan saya buat Ed yaitu cari wanita lain yang siap duduk manja di rumah, nurut kata suami, mengandalkan uang dari suami,atau bertahan dengan saya, wanita yang sibuk kerja, tidak nurut kata suami, tidak nuntut apapun dari dia. Bisa dibilang kalo saya itu susah di atur dan punya ambisi untuk maju. Dan Ed pun akhir ny mikir dan memilih bertahan dengan saya. Kadang binggung juga sih sama wanita2 tidak bekerja dan merasa aman karena suami kerja. Gak kebayang jika suami nya meninggal atau selingkuh bagaimana nasib dia dan anak nya nanti. Disisi lain, saya membiasakan Ed untuk hidup mandiri jika suatu saat saya gak ada. Ed terbiasa buat jemur baju, masak, nyuci piring, bersihin kaca, belanja bulanan, etc. jadi sebenarnya Ed bisa hidup tanpa saya dan saya bisa hidup tanpa Ed. tapi kita bersama karena pilihan bukan karena  paksaan.

I am sick of them !

I do love this blog, as i can tell whatever in my heart and brain without someone distrub me. So now i am really frustrated about people around me. I am on process to study at uni. My options, either nursing and midwifery or faculty of medicine. I want to get there, not because i want prestige or make good money. I want to get there because i want to have good skill so i can be useful to other people. Too many smart people but their goal just prestige and money, all about them self. And i am really sick of this. I want people who are physically or mentally sick to get good treatment from good doctor or nurse who do the job because of the goodness of their heart. Too many people have high qualifications but not so many of them have a good heart. Bless them ! Anyway, my husband not really supportive about my study at uni. First he knews that it takes time, and he already planned to retire by the end of 2017. He doesn't want me to be busy with study and working, he wants me to give all attention to him. I am too young to just spending time with husband, i still have long life ahead of me. So he try to be nasty by try to shut me down. He already complaining about me busy working. I knew that i don't need to work,  he got enough money for me untill i die, we got houses, farm, etc. but again ! What i want is fullfilled life, not fullfilled pocket with heaps of money. Because money coming and going. But good skills with good heart will stay forever with me. He will laugh if I say about good heart. For him, i don't have a good heart. Whatever i did for him just not enough. So he said that i won't study at uni because i got broken english. I got broken english but i got spirit to study hard. What's the point of born in english speaking country and english speaking family, but don't have spirit for study? Prefer to have drugs and alcohol, instead of study. I not asking much from him, i just want him to not judge about my ability to study just because of my english not perfect. God bless him ! Living in foreign country, where i have to fight by my self, family and friends wasn't really supportive at all before i moved here. They were laughing at me when i told them that i want to move to here once i finished year 12. But you know what? I moved here before i graduated ! A soon as i knew that i already passed all exams, I straight away came here. So i made it and now i laugh at them LOL. Now just an other stage that i want to go ahead with a bit of bumps from husband and people around me. But will see what happen next ! 

Stop bullshitting !

I acknowledge that the job which i am doing (a carer), everyone could become a carer if they are caring about other people. You don't have to be extremely smart or have high intellectual. That's also not really important job, that's not about someone could die to live without carer because their family or friends who care about them and have enough time to look after them could became their carer. But carer could take a very important role in someone life, mainly for those who being forgotten by their families, they need warm feeling of care and love, that's when carer take important role in someone else life, when carer developed some emotional bonds with their client (without crossing the boundaries). In my opinion, why some carers feel like they are VIP, when i said that carers more like baby sitting but the different is we look after adult or elderly, then they feel offended, then try to attack me with what ever knowledge they got from their experience as a carer, which sometimes just over the top. In my opinion, why i have to do job which suppouse to be done by nurse or doctor? Just because they are longer than me in this industry so they could taking nurse or doctor roles? It's pretty silly what they did, it also cross the boundaries, don't get me wrong, i am not going to say that carers don't have enough knowledge to decided what to do to the health issues of the client, but that's not carer job ! We learn only about personal needs, we just study for 6 months. I don't know in detail or specific things about body, how medications could work, how medications could affect someone, what going to happen next, etc. i not touch clients wounds, even it just replacing the dressing, etc. I would ask them to call nurse or i call nurse. Never taking risk of someone else life. Yesterday i work for an elderly woman who just came back from hospital and became paraplegic, she got pressure wound, and yesterday the dressing a bit came off. Some carer could just leave it, but i ask her to call nurse. I knew that i could just leave it, she won't realise anyway. But if i just leave it, i am worry that she could get infection. With a bit if drama yesterday, as she and her husband got really anxious, up set, and worried what going to happen, as i ask them to call nurse, so it was not smooth yesterday. Even i knew that i could make it smooth by not telling them anything about that. Oh, other who feel that they have enough experience then could probably decided to replace the dressing by them self, then i don't know what going to happen next. If you are carer and you feel VIP, that's fine but please remember that you get paid for your caring skill, don't pretend to be a nurse or doctor, unless you done your study.

Paid to be healthy and paid to sit and watch

I work in few places with different role. Overnight i work as a personal carer it's 8 hours work and my job just watching my client a sleep, check his urine bag, catheter, his body temperature, feed him with breakfast, and observe him if anything change or strange. so it's not a work out work, mainly just sitting in his room and watch tv (at the same time, watching him) and ridiculously i got paid for that. Then i finish that work at 7 am in the morning, then 8.30 am to 2 pm i work at the golf course, that's my work out time. When i will running around, be quick for the guess, be witty with the things i am doing, lifting and pushing stuff, and running from one place to an other place, at the same time i got paid. That's why i don't want to drop any job because they keep me alive and healthy. I have a sleep at 3 pm till 6 or 7 pm at home, woke up for dinner then sleep again till 10 pm, then go to work by 10.30 pm. I reall enjoy working, it keep me busy and i feel useful as well.

Superfoods

Health is part of my investment. Due to work commitment, sometimes i work for 12 hours/day, over night, also physical work. I don't want to refuse work from my employer as i want to show my strong work commitment, even they knew that i got strong commitment. I try to eat a lot of fruit and vegies but i feel that's not enough. So i decided to have some vitamins or superfoods. I used to have spirulina capsules or colostrum capsules when i was in my country, but since i moved to here, i just could not be bothered to have any vitamins. I got few bottles of vitamins, but i always busy and forgot to have them untill they are expired. I also got few alergics or bad reactions to few vitamins. So i decided to not have any of them. I always vomit everytime i took calcium magnesium in capsules, i also got alergic reaction if my body got too much protein. So i have to watch out what kind of food or diet i take, cause it could my skin itcy and burn. For the last few months, i feel really weak, powerless, shaking during working, so my workmate told me to eat a lot of spinach to get a lot of iron to make me stronger. But with my hectic life, i don't even have time to eat breakfast, or do cooking all time. So i think, the best way for me is if i could take superfoods in capsules. Last Friday, we went to the chemist and i decided to bought spirulina. Great source of iron, protein, beta carotene, also a bit of calcium. I don't want to mix up these things with other superfoods. At the moment, i just taking spirulina. Once this one finish, i am going to change to other vitamins, then back again to spirulina then change again. I also control my diet (how much protein i take) now because i am taking this things.

Easy peasy stir fry vermicelli

In my opinion vermicelli more healthy than noodle. So last night i cook 15 minutes ready stir fry vermicelli.

Material :

Vermicelli

Sliced chicken fillet (or tofu)

Few eggs

chopped cabbage (any vegies)

2 tbs of fish sauce

A bit of salt and peper

1 tbs of sweet soy sauce

2 tbs of oil

Steps :

1. Soaked vermicelli in water and while waiting, we could prepare other ingredients

2. Cut chicken fillet (cubed or slice), chopped cabbage or any vegies. Wash all together.

3. Put 2 tbs of oil to the pan or wok or pot. Heat the oil, put the eggs.

4. Wait untill the eggs half cooked, then smashed the eggs like scrambled, put vegies and chicken then stir. Wait untill all cooked. Then put fish sauce, sweet soy sauce, salt and peper. Mix/ stir all together.

5. Drain vermicelli from the water, mix together with chicken and vegies, cook and stir together untill all cooked.

6. Dinner ready !

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Even if i am sick, i will try to avoid pills. I hate pills, i am really concerns about looking after my health. I try to feed my self and my husband with fresh food ( we avoid marinated meat from shop, and frozen stuff). Hubby loves pizza, marinated meat, frozen veggies, etc. i feel scared when i think about what is inside those stuff. I try to change his lifestyle. I work in disability and aged care industry. So many people got terminal illness. Which in my stupid opinion (i call it stupid opinion because my husband never listen to my opinion, also you don't need higher degree to understand this), that must be something wrong with their lifestyle, food, also environment. I don't think that illness just suddenly came from the sky just because bad luck (my husband believed in this). You know why the whole family could get same illness from time to time? In my opinion that must be because they got same food, same lifestyle, same environment. Who going to reject food ready on the table or food ready to eat cooked or prepared by mum? Who going to woke up early and have a run or excercise by them self? Unless mum or dad have a run in the morning and kids have run with them. Who going to decided that their environment not good for their health then decided to move to new place? No one, unless mum or dad decided, if mum or dad not decided to move, they have to live like that for over 15 years, untill they understand or realise and able to support them self to live independently. My husband's ex wife got terminal illness, so it's a bit sensitive to talk about this with him, as he believes that his ex wife was looking after her health very well but she just got it because bad luck and untill now, they still love to go to pizza shop, go to kfc or maccas. So yeah, don't blame me if i say that it must be something wrong with what you put to your body. But again, people who have terminal illness, mainly they don't want to fight against their illness, they just let it go and happen, Full stop ! They like 'oh well i got it, i don't care what i put to my body now, i will die anyway, it won't heal, it's too late to back to healthy lifestyle, etc' like my workmate they always having cigarettes and always saying like ' too late to stop, no point to have healthy food' at the end they say 'we will die anyway'. I look after my health not because i want to live forever. I just want to be healthy and die in smooth way without being sick for many years, without having life limitations for many years, etc. i just want to be independent and healthy untill almost the very end of my life. One of my dream is to die when i sleep. Just suddenly die, not because i sick, but because i have to die.

Trip to Sydney

We travel to Sydney by train (day trip, around 12 hours), they got toilet and cafe onboard, we bought lunch from the cafe. We arrived at late evening, almost night. I am really surprised how busy they are. We were walking from the station to the hotel. It's not so far, we stay on the side of Darling Harbour, so it's good. So close to attractions, restaurants, shops, etc.

Above : view from our window. It looks like a game in SimCity LOL. The busiest city in Australia.

On the first day, we just walked around darling harbour, having dinner at Thai Restaurant, oh yes, we were so spoiled over there, we ate seafood tom yum, seafood pad thai, also sticky rice with coconut milk and durian. Then we went back to our hotel and relax at our room. Woke up the next day, went for breakfast at our hotel, they got $15/pp for buffet  breakfast (chicken sausage, hash browns, beacon, boiled eggs, scrambled egg, pancakes, rice porridge, oats porridge, mixed fruits, mixed muffins, juices, coffee, tea, etc). After that we walked to Opera House and Harbour Bridge, as usual as a tourist, we always get lost! First i felt a bit strange why not so many people, the road so quiet, only building made out of big rock around. Finally we arrived at Sydney Opera. So many tourists, we didn't watch any opera, we just went there to see the building, end up with sitting on the step, following what other tourists doing. Then we went to see Royal Botanical Garden. I love it! With so many sculptures and fountains. It's really interesting those sculptures. Their palm garden just feel like back to my country, i felt like i am in tropical place, i saw banana trees too with pink bananas.

Pink bananas, just wonder how does it tastes. smell like banana but taste like flowers, or smell like sweet flowers and taste like banana. We also went to their fernery, so tranquil to sit and relax over there. Then we walked to see Harbour Bridge, i was about to climb but hubby got phobia of height. And to climb that bridge, the price a bit pricey (aroud $250-$270) i can not remember exactly, I understand that those things are for insurance, company, tour guide, and safety equipment. So we just walked along the bridge. Then we went back to our hotel, having lunch at japanese restaurant, bought some sushi and ala carte. Slept till next day, we couldn't even be bothered to eat dinner. Next day we went to westfield shopping centre. Which i just realized how close our hotel to the big shopping centre, having breakfast at Japanese restaurant then had a walk to see big fountain near Cathedral, had a sit, watching people coming and going, then walked again to botanical garden to see Mrs Macquaire's chair. Walked back to the hotel, had a sleep. Woke up in the morning, had breakfast at Chinese restaurant, had some pork buns, fried prawn wonton and wonton soup. Then we went to observatory deck then i had sky walk, it's just walking on the glass, on the top of highest building in Sydney, i could see many things around the building during sky walk, i could see airport, Royal botanical garden, opera house, anzac bridge, harbour bridge, blue mountain, botany bay, etc from that building. I got few pictures that i was jumping on the glass LOL.

I got a job !

So yeah, one week after i graduated. Straight away got a job. I am pretty happy. What a great start. I was promoting my self as a fresh graduate. I applied in many aged care and hacc agency. Then suddenly, yesterday morning i got a call for interview and the agency gave me a job. So last night i started working. The rates also better than aged care. What's better than do what i love, in the same time i got money.  The whole plan just changed. We suppoused to go to the farm this Thursday, but we decided to delay it untill tonight. At the moment i don't have a car, so hubby going to help me with travel untill next month. I am going to buy a car next month, then i can drive wherever i want. I was a bit worried before because i thought it will be difficult to get the job in this industry. I was thinking if i don't get the job asap, people will put questions mark on me. Such as why you been graduated from long time but you not working, did you do fatal mistake, etc. even yesterday, when they interviewed me, they were asking where i did my placement, etc. so i had to tell that my placement place full staff at the moment but i keep coming to have a chat with residents, etc. so well done, i got a job and experience, later on it will be easier for me to looking for work at an other place once i got experience. I am a bit nervous, as i don't have a lot of experience, but i still learning new things, keep coming to aged care where i did my placement and have a discussion with staff over there if i am a bit confused with my job at hacc. I got a job for public holidays, so it's great. Today and tomorrow as well before i go to Sydney, then after i back from Sydney, i will have meeting with new client, agency going to put me with new client. That job going to be over night, that's not a sleep night ! That's active night where i have to look after him while he is a sleep, monitoring his respiration system, sleep pattern, movement, also medications in the early morning. I need something to keep my eyes and brain on ! Some soft drink? Lolies? I don't like coffee. I need some sugar to keep me active. Tonight, after i finish work at 9 pm, we will go to the farm (yes 4 hours drive). We will arrive at 1 am, then wake up on Saturday morning, pack up the stuff at the shed, leaving the farm at 2 or 3 pm, arrive at Melbourne at 6 or 7 pm then i go to work again. Back home, pack up for trip to Sydney then wake up at 5 am on Sunday morning, go to southern cross station, then train leave Melbourne at 7 or 8 am. So hopefully i will be fine. Have a great easter everyone !

Planning to go to sydney

So we are going to Sydney for couple of days next week. I just bought the ticket few days ago. We will go there by train (XPT) from southern cross station melbourne and go straight to Sydney centre. It will be challenging for us, i am pretty sure our knee going to be stiff. They got cafe, toilet, and any other things for us in the train. So hopefully, we can have a walk in the train. Then i also booked accomodation few days ago, we are going to stay at hotel on side of Sydney Harbour. I really hope to have a nice view from our room. This trip just happen suddenly. We were talking about this trip before, but hubby always busy working. So when i had free time infront of my computer, i did research about this things and i found discounted train ticket and accomodation. I booked them (i didn't pay straight away) then when hubby came back home, we had discussions. Hubby agreed with the date and trip. So he paid the ticket to the post office and paid the accomodation by credit card. During our trip there, the weather going to be wet. So i will prepare some rain coat, umbrella, waterproof shoes or thongs, also some jumpers. Booking the train ticket was so easy without any dramas, i went to XPT website, then i booked the ticket. I booked the hotel from booking.com it was fantastic, we got 45% discount at 4.5 star hotel on the side of sydney harbour. So really looking forward for romantic gateway with hubby. Accomodation sent us some guide/things to do in Sydney, about what's on in Sydney, place to eat in Sydney (we have an option from cheap and tasty up to expensive one) I am not really interested to see opera house. I want to see some occasionals event which happen in Sydney. Hubby really excited about this trip as this trip going to be his first interstate trip by train. He always travel by plane to an other state. We hope to see beautiful view from the train, any kangaroos jumping, highcountry view, etc. so for the trip, we will depart on Sunday morning, arrive at Sydney on Suday night. Then we will be leaving Sydney on Wednesday night, arrive at Melbourne on Thursday morning. So yeah, i remember few years back, at the end of March Ed went to my country for special visit, he stayed at my home town, and that night was memorable for us, i can not tell in here because a lot of private stuff involved. I am pretty sure, this shortbreak trip going to refresh, renew, our marriage life. So schooo holiday start next week, and we going to taking advantage of that holiday. Hope i can write soon about the trip.