Never walk away, always go to the end

I learnt a lot from my relationship with my husband. Heaps of people around us not agree about our relationship. As we have huge age different. But what are we looking in relationship? I am looking for hapiness, a man who going to lead me in to success by motivate me, support me, encourage me to go ahead, also a man who always protect me and spoiled me, treat me like a princess. I got all of these from him. He always support me and keep my mind positive. It was not easy to finish my year 12, as hundreds of students bullied me. I was up set, withdrawn my self from the society, i just wanted to stay at home, i didn't want to go to school, i was scared, embarassed, worry, every negative things was in my head. My dad was not support me at all, he was not agree with my relationship, my mom just told me to be patient. Then i woke up next morning, i went to the chapel, i had a private meeting with the principal about what i have to do ( i have close relationship with principal ) my husband was in aussie and i was overseas. Students coordinator was not really support me, teachers was gossiping about me. So yes, my husband told me 'keep going and don't ever let them to put you down, show them that you not scared, you not affected by what they did ' even my heart was crying, i kept go to school and smiling and pretending that nothing going on. What i learnt from that experience that no one can stop me unless i stop by my self. On my way to reach my goal in aussie, also not smooth at all. With a bit of bum, but i enjoy it. It makes me stronger. It is just like climbing the mountain, before you climb the mountain you need map, climbing gear, probably guide, a food and water, tent, torch, any other gear to take you to the highest part of that mountain. I prepared those things (my mental, educations, good relations with people who already in this industry) so now i just have to go ahead and keep climbing. If i am tired, i could have a break in the middle, then continue again. It is amazing to enjoy every moment in life, never say that you are unlucky. Always say how lucky you are, always remember beautifull memories which you spent with families and friends. There are always people who hate you, try to stop you, try to put you down. But remember, you are the boss of your self not them. Probably one day you become their boss if you could get higher level of education and higher work position. Always be nice to everyone, even they hurt you, or you have better education and work position, because you just never know. It is better to put your self on safety than put your self on danger. If you keep nice, more people will love you, support you, keep you away from nasty peope or traps. If you being nasty in purpose, more people will hate you, once they hate you, you never know what some sort of weapons or traps they going to do to you.

Greek yoghurt and oats

I could become a scientist or beautician, if you know how good i am in making beauty products made by natural ingredients from the fridge and cup board in the kitchen. So after a while, i getting sick with beauty products from the shop. Well i try to reduce the amount of beauty products from the shops as they are full of chemical, i mean i am looking for organic stuff for my young skin. I try to look after my skin, as health is part of my investment. So why i not save the money and use whatever i have in the kitchen for beauty treatment? As you know that the price of beauty products from the shops they not so cheap. So i could save the pennies for my finance investment. This home made face mask really easy to make, cheap, also could reduce the wrinkles as it really moisture my skin. Usually after i use face mask from the shop, i should spray special water (water imported from France specially made for skin) or use some face moisturiser. As i can feel that my skin so tight. So yeah, i done this experiment on my skin and i can see the result. This things also can be use for all over the body, as a face mask or scrub. Whatever you want, this is very beneficial to the skin. After done this treatment, you don't need any moisturiser or spray special water. So it's pretty good to be use at night (before sleep) so you don't have to use any night cream at all. I would love to share my beauty receipe to you :

Material :

3 spoon of plain greek yoghurt or any yoghurt you could get cheaply or free

1 handful of oats (any cheap oats)

Method :

1. Put the oats in blender or any food processing, probably you could use mortar and pestle to make it become powder.

2. Put that powdery oats to the yoghurt. Stir them well (use spoon, fork, or any cutlery)

3. Leave them for 15 minutes.

How to use :

1. Clean the face with warm water or wipe the face with warm towel.

2. Tide back all hair, as this mask going to be sticky.

3. Apply this mask use finger or mask brush.

4. Leave it till dry.

5. Once it is dry, clean the face with warm water or wipe it with wet warm towel, untill no mask left. Then wash the face with cold water.

Tips : use warm water to open the pores and clean the pores, always use cold water at the end to close the pores.

You can use this things as many as you want. I used to put honey, but obviously i hate when honey stick on my skin. Also don't forget to drink enough water, and healthy lifestyle. Since i do this things, i not use any face moisturiser unless when i am going out during the day, always put sunscreen on and no powder or foundation at all. Let your skin to breath and keep them free and healthy.

Devonshire tea without scone please

Once upon a time, there was a Polish man just landed from Itali in Australia. He went with his friends to the garden show, they ordered devonshire tea. On their mind, devonshire tea is just a cup of tea. But the tea girl not just came with tea, she also came with scone filled with cream and jam. Then he said to the tea girl 'we not order this cake, this must be wrong order' tea girl was confused. Polish man kept saying 'we only order devonshire tea' oh well, it was so memorable for my husband. He just told me this story few weeks ago. First time i went for devonshire tea, i also confused why they gave us scone. My husband told me that it's part of the package. Devonshire tea means tea with scone, cream and jam. I think devonshire tea only popular in Australia. In europe that was not popular in that time, but possibly that idea of tea with scone came from England as many people in Australia came from England. I just realized how good that idea of tea with scone, it so nice and enjoyable. While we can have a cuppa, eat sweet snacks and have a chat in the same time. Back in my country, we also love to have cuppa (of course sweet one without milk) and a bit of cake or savoury snack even eat rice with cuppa. Do you love devonshire tea? When first time did you have it? I would love to hear your stories ❤️❤️

Graduation Day

So i graduated today. We had a party, yes they gave us a lot of pizza. Everyone also bring their own plate. This is not a big graduate like uni. But quiet an archivement for me to finish this things. We had a lot of pictures taken, we been together for 6 months. I will miss the place, the class, class mate, also our fabulous trainer. Oh well, i will have a meeting with the trainer on Friday. So i just have to finish my placement book, case study and more hours on placememt to give me more confidence in the future. Few students already got a job from their placement place, and some still doing placement and I am still don't know what to do. My class mate told me to looking for work straight away, not to waste my time. But again, i am scared to involve in job straight away if i not sure what to do. Well i know what to do, but i could do mistake if i do things unsupervised. Anyone could make mistake, even doctor still can make mistake or malpractice. But today so memorable for me. We were wearing graduation hat things. It was funny. I brought thai curry from the shop, an other indian class mate brought basmati rice cook with spices ( it was sooo yummy ), she also brought spring rolls, an other aussie class mate brought spinach and fetta quiche, an other brought few liters of soft drinks, an other brought apple crumble and custard, an other brought rolled chocolate cake with cream, also don't forget heaps of pizza from the training provider. So i was pretty full, my tummy filled with indian rice, spring rolls, pizza, coke, lemonade, quiche, apple crumble, also choc cake with heaps of creme. We had a lot of chat and stories to tell and share. Tomorrow i should check the their page because they will post our pics over there and hopefully i look all right.

Graduation Day

So i graduated today. We had a party, yes they gave us a lot of pizza. Everyone also bring their own plate. This is not a big graduate like uni. But quiet an archivement for me to finish this things. We had a lot of pictures taken, we been together for 6 months. I will miss the place, the class, class mate, also our fabulous trainer. Oh well, i will have a meeting with the trainer on Friday. So i just have to finish my placement book, case study and more hours on placememt to give me more confidence in the future. Few students already got a job from their placement place, and some still doing placement and I am still don't know what to do. My class mate told me to looking for work straight away, not to waste my time. But again, i am scared to involve in job straight away if i not sure what to do. Well i know what to do, but i could do mistake if i do things unsupervised. Anyone could make mistake, even doctor still can make mistake or malpractice. But today so memorable for me. We were wearing graduation hat things. It was funny. I brought thai curry from the shop, an other indian class mate brought basmati rice cook with spices ( it was sooo yummy ), she also brought spring rolls, an other aussie class mate brought spinach and fetta quiche, an other brought few liters of soft drinks, an other brought apple crumble and custard, an other brought rolled chocolate cake with cream, also don't forget heaps of pizza from the training provider. So i was pretty full, my tummy filled with indian rice, spring rolls, pizza, coke, lemonade, quiche, apple crumble, also choc cake with heaps of creme. We had a lot of chat and stories to tell and share. Tomorrow i should check the their page because they will post our pics over there and hopefully i look all right.

How my parents tought me

I used to study at private catholic school since kindergarten up to year 12 in the same school. So i always surrounded by same friends, same enviroment, same people, same standard. Now it is really affect me, i hate to start new things in new enviroment, with new people, with different policy and procedures. Then my parents always told me to be number one, when i was at elementary school i didn't have passion to be number one, i could not careless. But when i started high school, it was year 7. I had a compassion to be number one, i was study hard, woke up at 3 or 4 am to preparing the test. Now, i love study. I prefer to study than working. I feel more satisfied when i get higher level of education than get better money. I feel i am on the better class when i get higher level of education. Luckly i got a good husband with good money, how lucky i am. I don't have to be worry about money, i can follow my dreams and do my study. I am quiet dissapointed than i am almost 22 y.o and i am not a bachelor or post graduate. I feel like i am looser, useless, unvaluable, etc. so my goal is when i turn 30, i should become somethin important ( i mean get an important job ) i know that people will look at me like an idiot. Of course they will look at me like an idiot, because i just migrated to Australia around 2.5 years ago, my english still not perfect, and i finished my year 12 in my country. I believe if we have courage and compassion to learn, we will reach our education goal. It is not the matter of lucky or unlucky, it's the matter of study hard. Study and practice make it perfect. Some young Australian, they have a chance to study with help from goverment funds, but why not all of them become a bachelor, postgradute, etc? Some of them, not even reach year 12. So if people look at me like an idiot with a big dream, they should think again.

Deciding where to go

On my way to success, i have to walk passing intersection. Deciding where i should turn, left or right. It is a hard decision as it is going to affect my life either now or later. So i have to be mindful to decide which way i want to go.  So the choices are go ahead with my trainer, become a visitor at my previous placement place as i really love the residents, or looking for job in my area. It is not easy, i am really worried and anxious. Some people said 'don't waste your time, you should apply for job asap', my trainer said 'you can work at my place' my placement place not said anything. Oh well, obviously my previous placement place got heaps of PCA, my trainer place just too far from home, and i still not confidence to looking for job in my area. So what should i do? Any advice? I am on intersection, i should pick which way i want to go. I don't want to ask any job from my previous placement place as it is not a nice feeling for me and management if i really showing that i want a job, because i want to keep visiting residents everyweek. While in an other hand, i need professional experience in aged care industry as i want to go ahead with my goal to get the highest qualifications in aged care industry, in the same time i want to develop my network so in the future i will have more power to make a big difference in elderly life. So what I suppose to do? I will not stop visiting my second nana and pop at my previous placement place, they are my family now. I been develop some bonds with them. I don't want to start develop some bonds again with other residents at an other aged care. So i am really struggling in pick which way. I think better i wait untill i finish my study around this week. Then i can decide.

They touch my heart, just like first love

I would say that my first time to went to aged care, helping them with dressing, shower, feeding, walking together, have a chat with them, those things are irreplacable, i love them, they touch my heart. on Friday, i went to an other aged care to do an other training, i don't have any strong feeling of love at all to the place and residents at that other aged care. My heart still at my first aged care where i started my placement. A lot of memories, a lot of history which i will never forget, a lot of laugh and chat. Oh God, i miss them. If you ever know the feeling of first love, it is like that. Second love, third love, fourth love, etc not as memorable as first love. I really hope to see them again, to have a chat again, to have a laugh again, have a kiss and hug again, have a tears again, hold their hands again, sit next to them again. I had bad memory with the staff and managment, as they not really support me at all. I was agitated, i was confused, i was struggling to learn. But i love the residents. It is the feeling which i never forget, the feeling of love, feeling of something which make sad but at the same time i feel warm. I don't know how to explain it, but it is something which touching my heart. When resident had a cry, i try to make her calm down, remind her about her bless, how lucky she is to live in that aged care, surounded by people who care about her. I miss that place, i want to be back as a visitor.

I went to see the dentist

My tooth was chipped around 2 weeks ago. It happen when i was cleaning my teeth use tooth pick then suddenly half of one of my tooth came off. I was up set and cry all night, thought that i would lose my tooth. I am too young to lose my tooth. Anyway, i went to see the dentist yesterday. After dissapointed with my previous dentist, i moved to an other dentist. My previous dentist is public dentist (bulk billing) but i paid full price because i don't have concession and my husband not under pension from centre link. So yeah, good lesson for me to not to go to bulk billing dentist. So i went to private dentist yesterday, they got 6 dentist, it is more like dentist group. Where i can pick which dentist i want, because it was my first time to be there, so i told the reception that i don't have any preferation and just pick the good one for me. They put me with good dentist. I forgot the name of the dentist, she looks like from china, but i know that she finished her study at Adelaide University in 2009. So she pretty new, but she is very gentle. She did injection which affect my lower lip, my tounge and around that tooth. I could not eat for 2-3 hours because of my tounge so weak, i could not swallow food and talk. My husband was happy because i was not very talkative for 2-3 hours yesterday. Then after that i got a toothache on that spot where she did the job, then now i don't have any toothache in the morning when i woke up. So i am very happy with her, she did such a great job. She thought my infection already went to the nerves, she gave me option to do treatment which will cost me a fortune, so she tried to do filling to my chipped tooth, now i don't have any problem at all. Finger cross, hopefully that tooth will be fine. I am not going to spend $1200 for one chipped tooth. So yeah, i spent $250 yesterday, she did X-Ray, check and filling for that money. I am going to come back in the next few weeks to do an other filling. One of my tooth got a hole in that, that hole since last year. My previous dentist did the filling but the filling came off. What a waste of money. So i am going to see my new dentist again in the next few weeks to do the job on my teeth again. So everything just change, before i was scared to see chinese dentist, you know why? When i think about acupunture, i thought that i will get acupunture if i see any chinese dentist or chinese doctor. Oh God, i am scared of needle, i don't want any teeth acupunture.

I love public shower and public toilet

I love summer, you know why? It means i can go to the beach and have shower at public shower or do wee wee or open my bowel at public toilet. I love to have a swim at the beach then have a long shower at public shower. Of course i use thongs when i go to the toilet or having shower. I don't have to be worry about water, taking advantage of public facility. I love having shower, back in my country i always having long shower. But in here, water too expensive. I have to be quick and i can not enjoy my shower. I wish there are many public shower open for public for all season with cold and hot water system. Sometimes i think, why i not having shower at truckie place? There are many truckie place along the road on my way to north east Victoria where my farm over there. But i feel unsafe to have shower at truckie place when it almost mid night. My husband does not like to have shower at public place even i give him shampoo and soap, he prefers to have shower at home. Well, i never been at male toilet. But women toilet just so nice, odourless, and clean. That's why i am very happy to have shower at public toilet.

What are they looking in life?

I am really confused when elderly worried about money. They should worry about their health, their friends gone, where they will go once they pass away. But again, they always worry about family sell their house, family sell their stuff, they always worry about money. Even the carers told to resident that i get into this industry because i want money. Let me tell you that i just 21 y.o. I got husband who support me, i got house, i got holiday house, i got some investments which giving me passive income, half of my husband passive income go to me monthly. Money which come to me everymonth is enough for me. I am not buying expensive stuff even i can afford that. I can not be bothred about shopping luxury, going to expensive place, i been there and i know that all of those just waste of money and temporary happiness. I already found my true happiness without wasting money. I already found something which can fill my empty life. I already found the way how to make fullfilled life. I want fullfilled life, not money. I do voluntereer at opp shop, i got cheap stuff from opp shop. Good stuff with couple of dollar. Of course i not buying much because i don't need so much stuff and i want other people have a chance to buy good stuff. I am happy to do voluntary job at opp shop as i found many friends, i feel helping other people with love, and no work pressure at all. I get into aged care industry because i want to helping old people. Sharing my life with them. I have a bad english and that's fine, i just 2.5 years in here, i still have time to learn. I am not going to blame my self because i been here for 2.5 years then my english still bad. Many of them have dementia, i enjoy have a sit next to them, watching ants, watching the sky, have a laugh. While carer not prepared to sit next to them and enjoying the time with them. Carers always rushing, even when it is time to go home, they always going home straight away, they don't want to spare half hour or one hour to listen to resident, accompany with resident. They knew that some residents lonely, some residents have dementia and really confused. Anyway, people have their own bussiness, their own dream. My dream is to be a sunshine in old people life.

I love you and your dementia

When come to aged care industry, stop thinking to make money out of elderly with dementia. It is the most disgusting things to come to aged care industry only for money. You should come to aged care industry because you care, you love them and you want to look after them to make their life more pleasant and improve their quality of life. I can not understand why people who do not have caring personality work at aged care. The answer must be becase of money. Oh well, money is the most nasty things. Not to show off, that i am young, healty, have a lot of time, my husband support me finnancially. I would like to spend my time with people who old, lonely, sick, and poor. Their smile and happy face make me feel rich. I can not buy those feelings with money. Their appreciation really made my day. Sometimes their behaviour a bit challenging for me but i really enjoy it. They are just sooo cute like a child when they are angry even sometimes make me cry. Their behaviour sometimes make me up set, but most of the time they make me laugh. I just love them, i do not understand why i love them. I can not describe those feeling. It is something which touch my heart. I enjoy sit next to them, even i do not understand what they were talking about. Our gesture that we enjoy each other is the most important thing. As long as they are happy, i am happy. I just want to be close to them, no matter who they are, what are they talking about, what is they life story. The feeling, something which can not explain verbally is the most important things. I hate when carer judgje them based on their dementia like whatever go wrong with their behaviour is their dementia fault.

Rahasia kereta ekonomi

Wanita yang tak kunjung menikah karena menunggu prince charming hingga usia kepala 3 bahkan kepala 4 atau kepala 5 dst, bagaikan wanita yang ketinggalan kereta. Masa menunggu jodoh sudah lewat, masa menunggu kereta sudah habis. Mereka terlambat, kereta sudah berlalu namun mereka masih menunggu. Siapa tahu ada prince charming (kereta bisnis atau firts class) datang menjemput. Namun ternyata hanya pria kelas biasa (kelas ekonomi) yang lalu lalang siap menjemput namun wanita ini selalu menolak. Mungkin saja kereta kelas ekonomi ini membawa wanita ini ke tempat tujuan dengan selamat, melewati tempat yang indah dengan pemandangan yang memanjakan mata. Mungkin saja kereta bisnis atau first class tidak membawa nya ke tempat tujuan dengan selamat dan tidak melewati pemandangan yang indah. Namun kebanyakan dari mereka takut, cemas, khawatir tentang kemana mereka akan dibawa oleh pria biasa. Hingga akhir nya mereka tak kunjung menikah karena memunggu prince charming yang tak kunjung datang dan menolak kesempatan dari prince yang tak charming. Hidup memang penuh kejutan.

Ketika Mister ke jatuh cinta

Sebelum menggenal saya, tentu Ed sudah mengenal wanita lain. Beberapa diantara nya beruntung karena dapat perjalanan ke Melbourne secara gratis. Menurut saya, Ed itu loyal, karena hampir semua wanita itu dapat kado dan uang dari Ed walaupun cinta mereka pupus di tenggah jalan. Sebelum menggenal saya,  Hubungan Ed dengan wanita biasa nya hanya berjalan tak lebih dari setahun. Semua misteri masa lalu Ed pun terkuak setelah kami menikah lebih dari 2 tahun. Rupa nya saat pertama kali Ed mengenal saya, pada saat itu dia sedang menjalin asmara dengan wanita lain yang pada saat itu mereka hampir menikah. Karena si wanita tsb sudah datang dari hotel ke hotel cari informasi per kiraan budget untuk wedding mereka. Tapi entah kenapa hati Ed ini merasa tak yakin untuk menikahi wanita tsb. Padahal wanita tsb sudah menjalin asmara jauh sebelum Ed mengenal saya, bahkan wanita tsb sudah mengunjungi Ed di melbourne dan mengunjungi rumah Ed, Ed membayar semua ongkos pesawat dan travel selama dia di melbourne. Karena pada saat itu mereka hampir menikah, dan mereka hampir mengajukan visa tunangan. Tapi karena hati Ed masih bimbang, Ed selalu menunda visa tunangan tsb hingga akhir nya secara tak sengaja saya dan Ed bertemu. Sejak pertemuan tak sengaja itu Ed selalu aktiv menghubungi saya bahkan ada perasaan rindu yang kuat hingga akhir nya sekitar 3-4 bulan setelah pertemua tak sengaja itu, tiba2 Ed pesan tiket pesawat dan bertekat bertemu saya lagi. Dan saya baru tau bahwa saat Ed sangat aktiv menghubungi, mengejar dan mencoba meraih cinta saya, pada saat itu wanita tsb tak tahu bahwa Ed jatuh hati pada saya. Wanita tsb merasa bahwa hubungan mereka hampir ke pelaminan. Selama kedatangan Ed di kota saya, wanita itu berfikir bahwa Ed sedang di Poland. Ed berbohong kepada wanita itu, Ed takut melukai hati wanita itu. Padahal saat itu, Ed sedang di kota saya berusaha mengejar cinta. Lalu sekembali nya Ed ke Melbourne, hubungan mereka menjadi dingin. Lalu wanita tsb mulai curiga, hingga akhir nya Ed menjelaskan bahwa ada kebimbangan di hati nya untuk menikahi dia. Betapa hancur hati wanita itu dan dia sangat marah habis2an. Bagaimana tak hancur? Bayangan menikahi bule, tinggal di negara bule, apalagi Ed sudah berjanji untuk memberikan nafkah kepada keluarga wanita tsb jika mereka menikah. Tapi semua nya tinggal mimpi. Wanita tsb memaksa untuk bertemu Ed di kunjungan berikut nya saat Ed ke Indonesia. Di kunjungan berikut nya saat Ed mengunjungi saya lagi selama 10-14 hari, di hari terakhir Ed menemui wanita tsb (saya baru tau kalo mereka bertemu, dulu saya tak tau). Itu merupakan perpisahan mereka, terakhir kali nya mereka bertatap muka. Hingga kembali nya Ed ke Melbourne (esok hari nya) wanita tsb mengirim pesan tentang kekecewaan nya pada Ed. lalu Ed menjelaskan kepada wanita tsb bahwa Ed jatuh hati pada saya, ada keyakinan yang sangat kuat di hati Ed untuk melabuhkan cinta nya pada saya. Sejak pertemuan tak sengaja itu, kehidupan Ed menjadi fokus pada diri saya. Hingga kami menikah dan saya disini bersama nya.

Disaat uang menjadi pilihan ke dua

Beberapa hari terakhir, saya mulai beraktivitas di aged care. Hampir setiap hari setelah saya pulang ke rumah, saya selalu sedih. Saya gak tau kenapa sedih, bawaan nya sedih aja. Sampe terkadang keluar air mata. Mereka yang tinggal disana seakan di buang dari keluarga karena tua, lemah, dan sakit. Keluarga tidak mau di ganggu oleh mereka yang cerewet, sakit2an, buang air besar dan kecil di celana, mereka jijik, dulu mereka bekerja keras mati2an untuk keluarga, tidak jijik membersihkan kotoran dan pipis anak dan cucu nya saat bayi, memberikan cinta dan waktu untuk keluarga, namun disaat mereka sudah lemah karena usia, anak dan cucu nya membuang mereka ke panti jompo tanpa seorang pun datang menjenguk. Hanya kepada kami mereka bercerita, menari bersama, bernyanyi bersama, berjalan di taman menikmati indah nya bunga. Saya sadari bahwa uang bukan segala nya, uang bukan yang mereka cari. Yang mereka cari adalah seseorang yang mau memberikan waktu nya untuk mendengarkan cerita dan keluh kesah mereka, tertawa bersama dan menjalani sisa hidup nya bersama. Mereka yang tinggal disana bukanlah orang miskin, biaya untuk tinggal disana tidaklah murah, untuk masuk di tempat itu harus membayar 500.000 AUD (5 milliar rupiah) dan biaya perawatan harian sekitar 50 AUD - 100 AUD. Namun mereka tidak bahagia di tempat itu. Mereka bagaikan burung yang kesepian di sangkar emas. Di tempat yang mewah dan besar namun mereka tidak mendapatkan cinta. Bersyukur saat kita masih sehat, kita bisa memberikan waktu untuk mereka yang sudah tua. Mereka tidak ingin apapun dari kita kecuali telinga untuk mendengarkan cerita mereka dan tertawa bersama mereka, kita tidak pernah tau kapan kita meninggal, saya memilih menghabiskan hidup untuk melayani mereka karena secara materi saya sudah lebih dari cukup. Saya tidak butuh materi, yang saya inginkan adalah kepuasan hidup. Kepuasan hidup adalah saat melayani mereka. Salah satu resident mengalami dementia yang sangat parah dan angressive, semua staff tidak suka resident tsb. Tapi entah kenapa resident tsb selalu tertawa bersama saya, dan selalu bilang 'you are pretty' berulang ulang. Kemarin pagi saya ganti in baju, dia sangat tenang dan selalu tertawa. Sedangkan dengan staff lain dia sangat aggressive, terutama di pagi hari. 2 hari yang lalu, di menanggis ke saya saat sedang sarapan, dia selalu sarapan di kamar nya, pas saya melewati kamar nya, dia memanggil saya lalu dia menanggis. Saya tidak tau kenapa, dan staff lain bilang bahwa itu pertama kali nya liat dia nanggis. Lalu di malam hari nya dia tidur sangat nyenyak (biasa nya dia berjalan di koridor dari jam 4 sore sampai 3-4 pagi) namun kemarin malam dia tidur sejak 8 malam sampai 7 pagi. Dan tertawa di pagi hari bersama saya, saya yakin walaupun dia terkena dementia, dia tau siapa yang tulus dan siapa yang tidak tulus dalam melayani dia. Bahkan saat saya kasih handuk dengan air hangat, dia malah memanggil saya lalu membersihkan wajah saya sambil bilang 'you are pretty', lalu karena itu makan waktu lama dan saya harus assist resident lain, akhir nya saya bersihin wajah dia dan dia tetap tertawa. Memang sih sebagian staff hanya fokus pada uang, tidak tulus melayani. Mereka datang tanpa senyum ceria, dan memperlakukan resident seperti hewan, berbicara dengan suara keras karena pendengaran resident sudah berkurang. Berbeda dengan saya, saya memilih mendekatkan ke telinga mereka lalu berbicara dengan lembut dan pelan. Ah cinta dan ketulusan memang harga yang sangat mahal, tidak bisa di beli dengan uang. Di tempat 5 milliar pun sulit ditemukan cinta.

Love them

Saya senang sekali berbagi, sesibuk apapun, saya berusaha membalas email yang masuk. Sekalipun jaringan internet di rumah lambat karena rumah saya bukan di lokasi datar. Tapi saya selalu penasaran apa yang dipikirkan pembaca saya. Saya memang sangat tertarik pada permasalahan di sekitar saya. Ketertarikan ini timbul saat saya melakukan penelitian kehidupan terpencil (isolated area). Sebuah daerah yang masyarakat nya sangat jauh berbeda dengan masyarakat pada umum nya. Sangat menyenangkan mengetahui permasalahan sosial di lingkungan kita. Mengetahui pola pikir orang lain. Prostitusi, cewek matre, cewek cabe, orang2 yang penasaran terhadap kehidupan orang lain, bule hunter, dan masalah lain nya. Saya sangat suka akan hal itu. Bagi saya, membenci mereka tidak akan menyelesaikan masalah. Menyebar keburukan mereka hanya akan mempermalukan mereka, lalu apa yang saya dapat? Selain image tidak menghargai nama baik orang lain dan menyebar kebencian. Saya sangat mencintai mereka dan saya melakukan penelitian melalui email dengan mereka. Saya pun berfikir, kenapa? Ada apa dengan mereka? Apa yang harus saya lakukan? Ini hal yang sangat menarik untuk di ketahui. Membuka pikiran saya tentang apa yang sebenarnya terjadi di masyarakat kita tanpa harus terlibat langsung dalam situasi tsb. Saya di besarkan di keluarga sederhana namun selalu cukup, orang tua saya gemar berbagi. Sejak kecil saya sering di ajak ke panti asuhan, saya pun sering berpikir 'kenapa mereka disana? Orang tua mereka tidak mampu? Orang tua mereka tidak mencintai mereka? Bagaimana dengan cita2 mereka? Bagaimana jika mereka dewasa? Apakah ada harapan mereka mewujudkan cita2?'. Sejujurnya saya rasa, jika tidak sanggup memiliki anak diluar nikah, maka jangan membuat anak di semak belukar penuh ular di luar nikah. Saya suka dengan mereka yang terbuka. Saya mengerti banyak sekali wanita yang cemas, khawatir saat menjalin hubungan dengan pria asing. Bahkan sebelum menikah atau pindah ke negara pria tersebut, biasa nya wanita memperhitungkan 'berapa' harta pria tsb. Menurut saya hal ini wajar, karena mereka mendambakan kehidupan yang naik, mereka tidak puas dengan kehidupan saat ini. Jika ada yang bilang hal ini gak wajar, apa kamu mau menikah dan pindah ke negara orang tanpa tau pasti bagaimana kehidupan kamu disana? Perasaan cemas yang berakhir 'ngitung' harta cowok tsb dulu biar lebih yakin, menurut saya wajar saja. Jika mereka membeberkan penghasilan cowok tsb, ya wajar saja. Apa kamu mau nikah sama penggaguran? Membeberkan penghasilan bukan berarti mau pamer, mungkin saja mereka hanya mau tau apakah calon nya tersebut berada di kondisi 'kurang','cukup' atau 'mapan'. Masalah aneh yang saya temukan, kenapa yang nyinyirin para wanita matre, wanita cabai, bule hunter, wanita kepo, dsb kebanyakan adalah mereka yang berada di garis 'cukup' atau  garis 'mapan'. Merasa tersaingi jika ada wanita lain yang ingin 'cukup' atau 'mapan' ? Ah entahlah, saya sih berpikiran terbuka saja. Menurut saya semua orang bisa di posisi 'cukup' atau 'mapan'. Orang di posisi 'cukup' dan 'mapan' pun bisa turun posisi jadi 'kurang'.

Orang barat tentang Indonesia

Pas gue lagi jalan menuju halte bis, ketemu tetangga jalan sama anjing nya. Seperti biasa, kalo ketemu orang di jalan gue senyum. Lalu si bapak tanya 'where u from?' Gue jawab 'indonesia' lalu si bapak tiba2 bilang 'sulamat pagi, i was in Malaysia and Singapore, beautiful people in Indonesia' gue pun hanya senyum. Lalu si bapak bilang lagi 'Jakarta Bandung Jakarta Bandung heavy traffic' (padahal gue gak nanya loh) mungkin dia travel dari Jakarta ke Bandung naik mobil atau bis dan kena macet haha.. Tapi bapak nya bilang 'beautiful people' orang Indonesia memang terkenal dengan keramahan nya, sama orang tidak kenal pun senyum. Sifat gotong royong, keakraban memang sangat kental di Indonesia. Berbeda dengan disini, masyarakat cenderung Individualisme. Semoga keramahan Indonesia selalu ada, karena itu adalah ciri khas bangsa kita. I ❤️ Indonesia.... (Mungkin karena terlalu baik dan ramah, akhir nya Indonesia di jajah beberapa negara, tapi aneh nya masih bisa ramah) tapi gue bangga karena keramahan bangsa kita terkenal sampe ke luar negeri.. Happy Friday 😻 jangan lupa senyum dan ramah 🙏🏻

Cowok Bule VS Cowok Lokal

Halah bule dan lokal sama2 manusia di bumi, tapi latar belakang mereka sangatlah berbeda. Tapi enak nya jalan sama bule yaitu :

1. Open Mind

Orang barat punya pikiran terbuka dan bebas. Pergi ke pantai pake bikini gak bakal di omongin. Coba di Indonesia, kalo kata Ed 'langsung masuk penjara kali' karena ada peraturan anti porno aksi, anti pornografi. Padahal emang dasar otak laki2 nya aja yang kotor. Mau ditutup dari ujung kaki sampe ujung kepala juga kalo dasar laki2 otak kotor tetep aja kotor.

2. Menghargai/ Respect

Memposisikan gue sebagai wanita sederajat dengan pria. Ed maksa gue buat punya driving licence dan mobil sendiri. Gue harus jadi wanita mandiri dan Ed memaksa gue buat dapat pendidikan setinggi mungkin, gue harus seperti dia. Sedangkan cowok Indonesia (kebanyakan) gak ngebolehin istri nya nyetir dan punya mobil sendiri. Terus cowok indonesia seperti nya memasukan perempuan di kelas nomer 2. Dimana perempuan hanya boleh di rumah ngurus anak dan jadi pabrik anak. Gak boleh berkarir. Laki2 indonesia merasa tersaingi jika wanita lebih sukses. Emang nya perempuan gak boleh sukses? Emang nya perempuan lebih rendah dari laki2? Kita semua ini sama2 sederajat.

3. Pria barat lebih mandiri

Pria barat gak segan2 bantuin pekerjaan rumah tangga, entah masak, jemur baju, nyapu ngepel, etc. kalo cowok Indonesia? Malu dan gengsi doang di gede in. Gak mau melakukan pekerjaan rumah tangga karena gengsi. Walaupun tuh cowok pengganguran tetep aja gengsi. Kalo pengganguran, uruslah rumah dan istri bekerja. Istri pulang udah dimasakin, rumah udah bersih, anak2 udah mandi, atau apalah. Bukan istri pulang kerja capek2 rumah masih berantakan, gak ada makanan, anak belum mandi. Ed gak pernah tuh teriak2 minta sarapan, apalagi bangunin gue pagi2 demi ngurusin dia. Bakal gue tabok dia kalo bangunin gue pagi2 demi ngurusin dia, emang nya gue babysitter dia? Malem di susu in, pagi2 di mandi in, abis itu sarapan di suap in. Malu ama uban !

4. He spoilt me !

Cowok barat akan sangat bertekuk lutut sama wanita yang dicintai nya. Apapun dilakukan, gak perlu dukun atau air doa mamah. Ed takut kehilangan gue, gak ada yang bisa menggantikan gue. Kalo cowok Indonesia kebanyakan belagu, pura2 gak butuh. Awal nya ngejar2, giliran udah di dapat malah di tinggalin. Maka nya gue hilang kepercayaan sama cowok Indo hahaha rata2 ya begitu

5. Mertua dan ipar

Mertua dan ipar di negara barat lebih terbuka dan lebih baik. Gak banyak cingcong. Apalagi ikut campur urusan pribadi antara gue dan Ed. yah kadang ikut campur (ngomongin gue di belakang) tapi gak sampe nyamperin gue buat lempar terong atau cabe in gue. Sedangkan mertua dan ipar di Indonesia, beuhh denger anak curhat berantem sama suami/istri nya, anak langsung disuruh pulang, disuruh usir istri nya, atau apalah.

6. Jujur dan setia

Cowok barat lebih apa ada nya. Ed sih begitu, gak main2 di belakang. Kalo cowok Indonesia menurut gue lebih ke mata keranjang, liat cewek seksi dikit langsung tegang. Naluri binatang ! Gak tau apa kalo cewek tersebut punya penyakit kelamin menular atau tidak, pikiran nya udah jauh kemana2 huehue..

Menurut gue cowok barat dan keluarga nya lebih menghargai gue, ketimbang cowok Indonesia dan keluarga nya yang merendahkan dan menghina gue. Untuk cowok Indo, bukalah pikiran dan harhai orang lain. Jika wanita lebih sukses jangan iri, jika kamu lebih sukses hargai wanita yang melahirkan anak2 mu.

Resep kolak

Kangen masakan Indonesia yang manis2? Apalagi pas cuaca sejuk dan hujan. Kolak panas sangatlah cocok untuk menghangatkan tubuh. I love kolak dan ibuk selalu membuat kolak di bulan puasa. Mumpung belum bulan puasa, mau belajar bikin kolak dulu. Nanti pas bulan puasa bisa jualan kolak di depan masjid atau mushola, itung2 nambahin penghasilan, apalagi biaya hidup di aussie itu mahal. Ternyata kolak itu gampang ! Pertama bikin langsung berhasil dan laris manis.

Bahan :

ubi merah, pisang, air, gula jawa, santan

Cara membuat :

1. Kupas ubi dan potong kotak2, kupas pisang dan potong kotak. 

2. Masukan ubi, pisang, air, gula jawa, santan ke panci. Saat air mendidih, kecilkan api. 

3. Cek ubi, jika ubi sudah matang. Matikan api. 

4. Kolak siap di hidangkan. 

Jika ada boleh tambahkan daun pandan. Ubi bisa di ganti dengan singkong, ubi ungu, pumpkin, sesuai kreasi. Kolak bisa di tambahkan kolang kaling supaya lebih bewarna.

Aku, dia dan visa

Lagi galau hahaha.. Ngurus dokument permanent resident yang membuat saya hampir menyerah. Untung ada suami yang memiliki jiwa pejuang. Dia memang pejuang, pas dia tinggal di Poland (negara komunis) dan dia berjuang nabung 3 tahun demi beli permen dan coklat di jerman barat. Beli begituan aja pake acara nabung 3 tahun dan ke jerman segala, demi permen loh itu. Apalagi dalam hal demi istri, apapun dia lakukan. Ke inget pas istri nya ngambek mau crispy creme, dia rela nyetir muter2 jauh2 demi beliin krispy creme di 7eleven, udah gitu istri nya cuma beli 2 biji donat doang dan langsung mau pulang. Ckckck parah banget tuh istri nya. Ed dengan suka rela nelponin mantan temen kerja ku bahkan mantan manajer pun mau di telpon juga sama dia, gak segan2 marriage celebrant yang entah masih di bumi atau udah di surga pun mau telpon juga. Bapak marriage celebrant yang menikahkan kita emang udah tua, terakhir kita ketemu 2 tahun lalu, sejak itu g pernah kontak lagi. Tiba2 Ed mau kontak dia buat bantuin visa gue, kan kesan nya garing gimana gitu yaa.. Gak kontak2an tiba2 sok kenal gitu minta bantuan pula. Gara2 liat istri ny diem di pojokan wkwk.. Tapi akhir nya mantan temen kerja gue ditelpon Ed dan untung nya temen kerja gue mau bantuin huehue.. Ed nelpon dia dari kantor (Sssttt Ed korupsi pulsa kantor) lalu tadi malem kita ke supermarket beli kado dan whisky buat dia dan Ed bungkus di kantor (korupsi kertas bungkus punya kantor) ah Ed mah apapun di korupsi, sampe spidol, staples, pulpen, amplop, kertas print, tinta printer, tip X, paper clips, stabilo, pulsa, semua nya di korupsi wkwkwk.. Kalo bisa bangku, meja, juga di comot bawa pulang. Tahun ini dia korupsi ipad, dia dapet ipad baru, harus nya ipad yang lama di balikin, tapi dia gak balikin ipad lama, dan dia tetep pake ipad lama di kantor dan ipad baru di bawa pulang di kasih ke istri nya. Padahal istri udah punya ipad. Gara2 Ed suruh set up ipad yang baru, akhir nya gue buka kemasan ipad nya dan gue set up, unjung2 nya dikasih ke gue. Nyesel gue buka bungkusan ipad, kalo bilang dari awal kalo tuh ipad buat gue, gak bakal gue buka bungkusan nya. Biar harga nya gak turun, karena mau gue jual aja ipad tsb, lalu uang nya dipake buat beli bikini, sendal jepit, sikat gigi listrik, atau pemanas pantat buat ngecilin lemak di pantat gitu. Ah sudahlah, kembali ke topik awal. Akhir nya hari ini gue kasih formulir statuary declarations tsb ke mantan temen kerja. Semoga dia segera balikin karena semua dokument mau gue kirim minggu depan. Minggu ini police check dari Federal Police bakal sampe ke rumah gue. Yah semua dokument udah hampir siap sih kira2 70% lah. Tinggal statuary declarations aja, ini nih yang bikin gue diem di pojokan dan nangis2 'i want to back home, i want to back home' macam anak TK hari pertama masuk sekolah. Tapi akhir nya semua nya hampir beres dan saya bisa menyelesaikan aksi goyang dumang.