Count your bless and be grateful!

People looked at me and get jelous, just because i am young, living in civilised country, got respected job, got houses, husband, lot of money, etc. they are old, still got mortgage to pay, still have to work hard, not enough money and they just not happy with them self. The truth is, they been in my age, they were enjoying their young age with friends, etc, and i am losing that chance, i can't having fun at the club, traveling with girlfriends, have giggles with family and friends and i not worry about it because this is my choice to be here and work hard. Those people already half of the century or over and they still alive and healthy, and still have a chance to enjoying this beautiful world. And i am just 21 (going to be 22 in July) and i don't know whether i will still healthy and alive to live for half of century. I don't even know whether i will be wealthy or poor when i get into their age. As i said before, money coming and going, life is up and down. Even i try to preserve money, but anything can happen. Anything can happen to my life, i could get hit by car when i walking, or trees fall on me, or whatever who drive me to become disabled or die. So what's better things i can do to make my life more pleasant except be grateful for what i got and enjoy what's today, forgive about yesterday, and let tomorrow be as it is. Even i try so hard to make tomorrow a better day, but if i can't just can't. Not going to be stressful about that, it will pass anyway and become a history. When i getting old, i could be living under the bridge, feeling cold in winter, husband will pass away, i will be lonely, living by my self, etc. so be grateful that you been living for that long and your day almost finish. Because i don't know how long i have to fight for life, my journey could be long way or short way which means that my life not long as you are. So what's better than be grateful of what you have, count your age as a bless !

Bekerja karena pilihan

Sayah gemasss sekali kalo denger 'orang kaya mah gak usah kerja' apakah kerja itu karena miskin? Tuh banyak pengganguran gak kerja, di gaji pemerintah. Penghasilan saya seminggu sama dengan penghasilan mereka sebulan. Sayah kerja karena saya suka kerja. Apalagi kalo liat wanita2 indo yg nikah dengan pria barat, awal ny kerja, gara2 nikah sama org barat langsung resign. Banyak juga sih yg gara2 nikah sama orang lokal langsung resign juga. Yah hidup itu pilihan dan masing2 orang punya jalan nya sendiri. Kalo saya pribadi sih sekaya apapun suami saya, saya harus kerja, harus mandiri, punya harga diri di mata keluarga suami, di mata suami, dan di keluarga saya. Sama2 cari nafkah, urus rumah sama2. Banyak loh wanita2 indo yg saya kenal disini hanya mengharapkan uang dari suami. Diem2 ngumpulin sisa uang belanja demi dikirim ke keluarga di indo. Menurut saya hal ini nggak banget ! Bukan hanya orang indo aja sih yg begini, orang philipina juga banyak yg seperti orang kita. Saya masih bisa memaklumi jika wanita tidak bekerja karena ada bayi. Tapi kalo anak udah 2 atau 3 tahun ke atas dan bilang gak kerja karena ada anak, duhh kasihan anak nya di jadikan alasan. Lagian kerja kan gak harus terpisah dari anak dan keluar rumah. Bisa juga kerja online di rumah bersama anak. Nah hari ini kita ada argument dengan Ed karena saya terlalu sibuk kerja. Dan pilihan saya buat Ed yaitu cari wanita lain yang siap duduk manja di rumah, nurut kata suami, mengandalkan uang dari suami,atau bertahan dengan saya, wanita yang sibuk kerja, tidak nurut kata suami, tidak nuntut apapun dari dia. Bisa dibilang kalo saya itu susah di atur dan punya ambisi untuk maju. Dan Ed pun akhir ny mikir dan memilih bertahan dengan saya. Kadang binggung juga sih sama wanita2 tidak bekerja dan merasa aman karena suami kerja. Gak kebayang jika suami nya meninggal atau selingkuh bagaimana nasib dia dan anak nya nanti. Disisi lain, saya membiasakan Ed untuk hidup mandiri jika suatu saat saya gak ada. Ed terbiasa buat jemur baju, masak, nyuci piring, bersihin kaca, belanja bulanan, etc. jadi sebenarnya Ed bisa hidup tanpa saya dan saya bisa hidup tanpa Ed. tapi kita bersama karena pilihan bukan karena  paksaan.

I am sick of them !

I do love this blog, as i can tell whatever in my heart and brain without someone distrub me. So now i am really frustrated about people around me. I am on process to study at uni. My options, either nursing and midwifery or faculty of medicine. I want to get there, not because i want prestige or make good money. I want to get there because i want to have good skill so i can be useful to other people. Too many smart people but their goal just prestige and money, all about them self. And i am really sick of this. I want people who are physically or mentally sick to get good treatment from good doctor or nurse who do the job because of the goodness of their heart. Too many people have high qualifications but not so many of them have a good heart. Bless them ! Anyway, my husband not really supportive about my study at uni. First he knews that it takes time, and he already planned to retire by the end of 2017. He doesn't want me to be busy with study and working, he wants me to give all attention to him. I am too young to just spending time with husband, i still have long life ahead of me. So he try to be nasty by try to shut me down. He already complaining about me busy working. I knew that i don't need to work,  he got enough money for me untill i die, we got houses, farm, etc. but again ! What i want is fullfilled life, not fullfilled pocket with heaps of money. Because money coming and going. But good skills with good heart will stay forever with me. He will laugh if I say about good heart. For him, i don't have a good heart. Whatever i did for him just not enough. So he said that i won't study at uni because i got broken english. I got broken english but i got spirit to study hard. What's the point of born in english speaking country and english speaking family, but don't have spirit for study? Prefer to have drugs and alcohol, instead of study. I not asking much from him, i just want him to not judge about my ability to study just because of my english not perfect. God bless him ! Living in foreign country, where i have to fight by my self, family and friends wasn't really supportive at all before i moved here. They were laughing at me when i told them that i want to move to here once i finished year 12. But you know what? I moved here before i graduated ! A soon as i knew that i already passed all exams, I straight away came here. So i made it and now i laugh at them LOL. Now just an other stage that i want to go ahead with a bit of bumps from husband and people around me. But will see what happen next ! 

Stop bullshitting !

I acknowledge that the job which i am doing (a carer), everyone could become a carer if they are caring about other people. You don't have to be extremely smart or have high intellectual. That's also not really important job, that's not about someone could die to live without carer because their family or friends who care about them and have enough time to look after them could became their carer. But carer could take a very important role in someone life, mainly for those who being forgotten by their families, they need warm feeling of care and love, that's when carer take important role in someone else life, when carer developed some emotional bonds with their client (without crossing the boundaries). In my opinion, why some carers feel like they are VIP, when i said that carers more like baby sitting but the different is we look after adult or elderly, then they feel offended, then try to attack me with what ever knowledge they got from their experience as a carer, which sometimes just over the top. In my opinion, why i have to do job which suppouse to be done by nurse or doctor? Just because they are longer than me in this industry so they could taking nurse or doctor roles? It's pretty silly what they did, it also cross the boundaries, don't get me wrong, i am not going to say that carers don't have enough knowledge to decided what to do to the health issues of the client, but that's not carer job ! We learn only about personal needs, we just study for 6 months. I don't know in detail or specific things about body, how medications could work, how medications could affect someone, what going to happen next, etc. i not touch clients wounds, even it just replacing the dressing, etc. I would ask them to call nurse or i call nurse. Never taking risk of someone else life. Yesterday i work for an elderly woman who just came back from hospital and became paraplegic, she got pressure wound, and yesterday the dressing a bit came off. Some carer could just leave it, but i ask her to call nurse. I knew that i could just leave it, she won't realise anyway. But if i just leave it, i am worry that she could get infection. With a bit if drama yesterday, as she and her husband got really anxious, up set, and worried what going to happen, as i ask them to call nurse, so it was not smooth yesterday. Even i knew that i could make it smooth by not telling them anything about that. Oh, other who feel that they have enough experience then could probably decided to replace the dressing by them self, then i don't know what going to happen next. If you are carer and you feel VIP, that's fine but please remember that you get paid for your caring skill, don't pretend to be a nurse or doctor, unless you done your study.

Paid to be healthy and paid to sit and watch

I work in few places with different role. Overnight i work as a personal carer it's 8 hours work and my job just watching my client a sleep, check his urine bag, catheter, his body temperature, feed him with breakfast, and observe him if anything change or strange. so it's not a work out work, mainly just sitting in his room and watch tv (at the same time, watching him) and ridiculously i got paid for that. Then i finish that work at 7 am in the morning, then 8.30 am to 2 pm i work at the golf course, that's my work out time. When i will running around, be quick for the guess, be witty with the things i am doing, lifting and pushing stuff, and running from one place to an other place, at the same time i got paid. That's why i don't want to drop any job because they keep me alive and healthy. I have a sleep at 3 pm till 6 or 7 pm at home, woke up for dinner then sleep again till 10 pm, then go to work by 10.30 pm. I reall enjoy working, it keep me busy and i feel useful as well.

Superfoods

Health is part of my investment. Due to work commitment, sometimes i work for 12 hours/day, over night, also physical work. I don't want to refuse work from my employer as i want to show my strong work commitment, even they knew that i got strong commitment. I try to eat a lot of fruit and vegies but i feel that's not enough. So i decided to have some vitamins or superfoods. I used to have spirulina capsules or colostrum capsules when i was in my country, but since i moved to here, i just could not be bothered to have any vitamins. I got few bottles of vitamins, but i always busy and forgot to have them untill they are expired. I also got few alergics or bad reactions to few vitamins. So i decided to not have any of them. I always vomit everytime i took calcium magnesium in capsules, i also got alergic reaction if my body got too much protein. So i have to watch out what kind of food or diet i take, cause it could my skin itcy and burn. For the last few months, i feel really weak, powerless, shaking during working, so my workmate told me to eat a lot of spinach to get a lot of iron to make me stronger. But with my hectic life, i don't even have time to eat breakfast, or do cooking all time. So i think, the best way for me is if i could take superfoods in capsules. Last Friday, we went to the chemist and i decided to bought spirulina. Great source of iron, protein, beta carotene, also a bit of calcium. I don't want to mix up these things with other superfoods. At the moment, i just taking spirulina. Once this one finish, i am going to change to other vitamins, then back again to spirulina then change again. I also control my diet (how much protein i take) now because i am taking this things.

Easy peasy stir fry vermicelli

In my opinion vermicelli more healthy than noodle. So last night i cook 15 minutes ready stir fry vermicelli.

Material :

Vermicelli

Sliced chicken fillet (or tofu)

Few eggs

chopped cabbage (any vegies)

2 tbs of fish sauce

A bit of salt and peper

1 tbs of sweet soy sauce

2 tbs of oil

Steps :

1. Soaked vermicelli in water and while waiting, we could prepare other ingredients

2. Cut chicken fillet (cubed or slice), chopped cabbage or any vegies. Wash all together.

3. Put 2 tbs of oil to the pan or wok or pot. Heat the oil, put the eggs.

4. Wait untill the eggs half cooked, then smashed the eggs like scrambled, put vegies and chicken then stir. Wait untill all cooked. Then put fish sauce, sweet soy sauce, salt and peper. Mix/ stir all together.

5. Drain vermicelli from the water, mix together with chicken and vegies, cook and stir together untill all cooked.

6. Dinner ready !

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Even if i am sick, i will try to avoid pills. I hate pills, i am really concerns about looking after my health. I try to feed my self and my husband with fresh food ( we avoid marinated meat from shop, and frozen stuff). Hubby loves pizza, marinated meat, frozen veggies, etc. i feel scared when i think about what is inside those stuff. I try to change his lifestyle. I work in disability and aged care industry. So many people got terminal illness. Which in my stupid opinion (i call it stupid opinion because my husband never listen to my opinion, also you don't need higher degree to understand this), that must be something wrong with their lifestyle, food, also environment. I don't think that illness just suddenly came from the sky just because bad luck (my husband believed in this). You know why the whole family could get same illness from time to time? In my opinion that must be because they got same food, same lifestyle, same environment. Who going to reject food ready on the table or food ready to eat cooked or prepared by mum? Who going to woke up early and have a run or excercise by them self? Unless mum or dad have a run in the morning and kids have run with them. Who going to decided that their environment not good for their health then decided to move to new place? No one, unless mum or dad decided, if mum or dad not decided to move, they have to live like that for over 15 years, untill they understand or realise and able to support them self to live independently. My husband's ex wife got terminal illness, so it's a bit sensitive to talk about this with him, as he believes that his ex wife was looking after her health very well but she just got it because bad luck and untill now, they still love to go to pizza shop, go to kfc or maccas. So yeah, don't blame me if i say that it must be something wrong with what you put to your body. But again, people who have terminal illness, mainly they don't want to fight against their illness, they just let it go and happen, Full stop ! They like 'oh well i got it, i don't care what i put to my body now, i will die anyway, it won't heal, it's too late to back to healthy lifestyle, etc' like my workmate they always having cigarettes and always saying like ' too late to stop, no point to have healthy food' at the end they say 'we will die anyway'. I look after my health not because i want to live forever. I just want to be healthy and die in smooth way without being sick for many years, without having life limitations for many years, etc. i just want to be independent and healthy untill almost the very end of my life. One of my dream is to die when i sleep. Just suddenly die, not because i sick, but because i have to die.

Trip to Sydney

We travel to Sydney by train (day trip, around 12 hours), they got toilet and cafe onboard, we bought lunch from the cafe. We arrived at late evening, almost night. I am really surprised how busy they are. We were walking from the station to the hotel. It's not so far, we stay on the side of Darling Harbour, so it's good. So close to attractions, restaurants, shops, etc.

Above : view from our window. It looks like a game in SimCity LOL. The busiest city in Australia.

On the first day, we just walked around darling harbour, having dinner at Thai Restaurant, oh yes, we were so spoiled over there, we ate seafood tom yum, seafood pad thai, also sticky rice with coconut milk and durian. Then we went back to our hotel and relax at our room. Woke up the next day, went for breakfast at our hotel, they got $15/pp for buffet  breakfast (chicken sausage, hash browns, beacon, boiled eggs, scrambled egg, pancakes, rice porridge, oats porridge, mixed fruits, mixed muffins, juices, coffee, tea, etc). After that we walked to Opera House and Harbour Bridge, as usual as a tourist, we always get lost! First i felt a bit strange why not so many people, the road so quiet, only building made out of big rock around. Finally we arrived at Sydney Opera. So many tourists, we didn't watch any opera, we just went there to see the building, end up with sitting on the step, following what other tourists doing. Then we went to see Royal Botanical Garden. I love it! With so many sculptures and fountains. It's really interesting those sculptures. Their palm garden just feel like back to my country, i felt like i am in tropical place, i saw banana trees too with pink bananas.

Pink bananas, just wonder how does it tastes. smell like banana but taste like flowers, or smell like sweet flowers and taste like banana. We also went to their fernery, so tranquil to sit and relax over there. Then we walked to see Harbour Bridge, i was about to climb but hubby got phobia of height. And to climb that bridge, the price a bit pricey (aroud $250-$270) i can not remember exactly, I understand that those things are for insurance, company, tour guide, and safety equipment. So we just walked along the bridge. Then we went back to our hotel, having lunch at japanese restaurant, bought some sushi and ala carte. Slept till next day, we couldn't even be bothered to eat dinner. Next day we went to westfield shopping centre. Which i just realized how close our hotel to the big shopping centre, having breakfast at Japanese restaurant then had a walk to see big fountain near Cathedral, had a sit, watching people coming and going, then walked again to botanical garden to see Mrs Macquaire's chair. Walked back to the hotel, had a sleep. Woke up in the morning, had breakfast at Chinese restaurant, had some pork buns, fried prawn wonton and wonton soup. Then we went to observatory deck then i had sky walk, it's just walking on the glass, on the top of highest building in Sydney, i could see many things around the building during sky walk, i could see airport, Royal botanical garden, opera house, anzac bridge, harbour bridge, blue mountain, botany bay, etc from that building. I got few pictures that i was jumping on the glass LOL.