life too short, shuck it up and move on

Life always changing everyday. There always new things in life everyday. People coming and going, all of them give us a lessons. Some lessons are tough and some are easy. But at the end, all lessons make us street wise. The more people coming and going, the more street wise we are. Sometimes it makes us teary but at the end it makes us proud of us self that we have passed the hard lessons. Never regret or sorry, be gratefull and move on, look forward for the next lessons. Moved to an other country, married with foreign man is not easy, alot of struggle but at the end it makes me stronger. I was hired by a company who did not pay my wages as they should, I did the best job I can, then I left as I find better company. Too late for them to regrets how they were treated me, I did not come back, I found an other job. I was in relationships with not a nice man, I treated him the best I can and left him as I found better man, too late for him to bagging me to come back as I already moved on and found a better man. I raised in the family who treat me like I am number second, I moved to an other country and keep the distance with them, too late for them to get me back and treat me better as my life now better than their life. I employing people to work with me, I paid them as they wish, they are free to arrange the start time and finish time, but they ripped me off. I found an other worker, and eliminate dishonest worker. Some people not realised how hurtful what they did untill we did something to them. Same on us, we also have to think on what we do, how we react to the situations. We have a choice on what some sort of footprints we want to leave at someone else memory.

how change season affects my life

So I have been here for almost 4 years now. I am still struggling to keep my life balance each time the season change. I knew that some people who live in tropical country they want to feel the feeling of living in 4 season country. But I prefer 2 season country (dry and wet) in tropical country. I will list it here,
1. Sleep pattern change
I wake up each day based on the sunrise and weather temperature. During warmer day, I wake up very early, before 6 am then go to work as usual time, back home at 4 or 5 pm then I sleep untill 9 pm. Then I struggle to sleep at night. Sometimes I can not go to sleep untill 3 or 4 am in summer because during hot day I always get exhausted after 5 pm that's why I go to sleep after 5 pm if possible. It is really different during winter, I always go to sleep near 11 pm and wake up after 6 am, never go to sleep in the evening.
2. Mood change
During hot day, all I want just go to the beach, go shopping, have fun. I have no interest to go to work. I spent heaps of money during hot day. During cold day, I am happy to go to work, I have no interest in beach or shopping. I got a bit gloomy during cold day.
3. Clothes change, skin change
my skin looks better during cold day. I do not have any issue with skin during cold days because I always wrapped all over me during cold days so my skin well protected. During hot day, I have to wear shorts or thin long pants, summer tops which are really thin. The I got sweaty that cause my skin feel sticky and itchy. So my skin at the moment really bad, they got red burn, itchy, got bitten by insects as well because I wore shorts.
4. Energy
I have lots of energy in the morning during warm day, I got lots of energy in the afternoon or evening during cold days. I got tired in the afternoon or evening during warm days, I got tired at night and early morning during cold days.
5. The feeling of jetlag
Different weather really give me the feeling of jetlag. Change my sleep pattern and mood. I do not know how local people get in to this. Because during winter, at 9 am sometimes still dark and the sun gone before 4 pm. During summer, at 6 am already bright and sometimes untill past 9 pm sun has not gone. My body is really bad with this, not cooperate really well.

This year, I feel a bit down, not as excited as I used to. I just feel like again I come across this season, not much different. Time flying so fast, last summer was not long ago, now it is summer again. The biggest things that makes me really sad is that I am getting old, I wish I could stay 21 forever.

things I hate or do not like too much

I love almost everything in life. Even on the hard day in life I try to keep positive and loving life. But there are few things that I really can not stand and make me up set a lot. Here we go :
1. Coffee
I drink coffee sometimes if people forced me to do so. But I am not a coffee addict, I hate the taste of coffe. I don't know how to enjoy coffee. Drinking coffee for me is like drinking very bad herbal medicine.
2. Crowds
I hate crowds so much. I hate most when I can not move or walk freely because of the crowds. I feel really unsafe when I am in the middle of the crowds. I like exclusivity,  I not mean to be arrogant, but I really hate when people touch me either by accident or not. I also like concentration when do something. I don't like shopping when the shops busy. I like to visit quiet shops even usually they are more expensive. I like it because at quiet shop I can really think about things I want to buy, about positive and negative about things that I want to buy. I also enjoy privacy, I just want to be free to do things that for some people are weird but for me it is normal.
3. Loud voice
I can not help my self to hate people who talking or screaming loudly. Either they are happy, angry, or full of emotions, I just hate it so much. I would be shaking if people screaming loudly near me, my heart beat going very fast and I got really frighten.
4. Winter cloths
I am a simple person, I like summer cloths to go out. I only wear undies (sorry to say) with t-shirt at home. I don't like layers of layers of clothes.
5. Untidy hair
I like my hair to be tidy and looks nice. I wash my hair every second day. I try to keep my hair away from the face. I don't like when my hair down during eating. So most of the time I always tie my hair back. I also hate hair knots so I always brush my hair before tie it back.
6. Noise outside the house
everytime I heard someone walking on the deck, and knocking at the door. I got really frighten, I don't like people visit me as well, especially unknown visitors. I always thinking about robbery everytime I heard something moving on the deck, most of the it is possum walking there.
7. Dirty place
I like to stay at home, as I am sure my house is clean. I always clean the foors twice a day, vacuuming and mopping because I like to walk on bare foot. I got few slippers but I hate putting on and off slippers. I also do not like dirty and untidy kitchen, oily kitchen. So I always clean my kitchen and never leave dirty dishes for few hours.

Summer activities in Mornington Peninsula

If you live in Melbourne or just a holiday, you should visit mornington peninsula during summer time. This is the reason me and hubby decided to live and work in Mornington Peninsula. Here the list I would like to give you.
1. Beach
We have two beaches, back beach (ocean) and front beach (bay). It is safest to have a swim at front beach and it is the best to have a surf at back beach. So many beach to choose along from Mornington to Portsea. Shower facility also available at few beaches. Toilet available at most of the beach.
2. Fishing
We have Mornington pier, Dromana pier, Rosebud pier, and Rye pier. You could do fishing without boat. All you need just bring your fishing rod to the pier and do your fishing. Many fishing shops down here, you can buy baits and fishing licence at petrol station. It is also nuce to just have a walk at pier, sit at the end of pier watching sunset and people fishing.
3. Visit winery and brewery
We have so many winery and brewery down here. Get your wine from Mornington Peninsula winery. Red hill is the best place for this. Have a wine tasting from winery to winery. They also do lunch or dinner with a view. Have a visit and find out !
4. Farm gate
So many farms down here, Red hill, Arthurs Seat, Main Ridge, etc. The best place to get freshly pick up fruits. They got strawberry, blueberry,  cherry, etc that you can buy straight from the farmers or you pick up your self.
5. State Park
We few state park, you can get in and have a bush walk. Bring your own food and drink but not to leave any rubbish. At few points they have chairs so you can have a rest. No cars or motor bike can get thru. Only walking or bicycle. It is the best place to enjoy local flora and fauna. All flora and fauna are protected.  Not the place to pick up some plants, leaves, timber, or birds.
6. Markets
We have heaps of markets down here. Most of them only open on weekends. Saturday and Sunday. Some not so many market open during weekday. Mostly they are selling local produce of fruit and vegies, wine tasting, food made in local or made on the spot.
7. Chair lift
located at Arthurs Seat. Best to see good view along Mornington Peninsula. It is start from Arthurs Seat then finish near Dromana.
8. Peninsula hot springs
Natural hot springs in Mornington Peninsula. Located at tootgarok. Away from the town, on your way there you will passing golf course, winery, and farms. Go there and find out !
9 We also have heaps of shops, restaurants, accommodations, gaminh entertainment, etc. Too many to mentions.

dilema pernikahan dengan WNA

Pernikahan kami sudah melewati 3 tahun. Tahun pernikahan yang bisa dibilang masih singkat. Perbedaan usia antara kami yang terpaut jauh, sangat mempengaruhi perbedaan psikologis kami. Ed lebih melihat ke bagaimana menikmati sisa hidup nya dengan harta yang ada. Sementara saya diusia yang jauh lebih muda masih bersemangat bekerja, meraih pendidikan setinggi mungkin, mengejar harta lebih dan lebih lagi. Ed tak sabar memiliki keturunan sementara saya pingin nya diundur aja dulu deh. Kita udah mulai konsultasi bayi tabung. Urusan keturunan itu kan urusan yang kuasa, sebagai manusia kita hanya berusaha. 3 minggu lagi kita meeting dengan dokter, Ed semangat sementara saya banyak memikirkan urusan pekerjaan. Walau kata Ed saya gak usah mikirin sejauh itu tapi kalo ingat perjuangan saya dari awal sampe bisa begini itu gak mudah. Saya tidak ingin mengakhiri karir saya karena ada nya anak. Ed pingin nya saya dirumah dengan anak. Usulan anak di titipkan di ortu sampai usia 3 atau 5 tahun jelas di tolak Ed. Karena dia hanya mau anak di rawat berdua. Gak boleh di pegang baby sitter, ortu atau titip di child care. Saya dikasih duit bulanan buat keperluan pribadi. Ed pingin nya pindah menetap di holiday house kita di desa kalo udah ada anak. Rumah yang saat ini di tempatin mau di kontrakin. Sementara saya lebih suka tinggal di rumah saat ini. Karena deket ke tempat kerja saya dan banyak pekerjaan di sekeliling sini. Inilah dilema antara saya dan dia.

my plan to visit hometown in 2017

I am so excited to tell everyone that I am going to Jakarta in 2017. This plan had been delayed for over a year. I was planning to visit hometown this year in winter but again, due to my busy activity between work, study and business I had to delay this plan again. All flights and hotels has been booked. We will travel from Melbourne to Labuan Bajo (transit in Denpasar) we will be there for a week just to calm our mind before visit family in Jakarta for 3 days. Why only 3 days? We acknowledge that our family relationships situation is not really good. For courtesy reason, we will visit family on the first day of our arrival in Jakarta then the second day we will visit places that we have not been visit (Betawi village aka kampong betawi, night culinary, etc) on the last day I will spend time with old friends so they have been inform of my arrival in June next year. They are so excited as I am. We will spend our quality time in bali for 2 weeks, we will stay in Ubud for a week which means I will do art shopping and culinary, then a week in Nusa dua in this place we will do bussiness travel little bit that we are planning to look for some accommodation bussiness (hotels or resort or villas) as both of us will go for retirement in 2-3 years. Not full time retirement, we just want to spend more time together managing our bussiness. Then we will stay 3 nights in Jimbaran, we are planning to have a rest at Jimbaran, spend more time in hotel room, cuddle up with hubby because we been busy for most of the time and we acting like we are single.

realita keluarga

Ini nieh yang menjadi masalah gue. Duh keinget perjuangan gue kemari aja siapa yang dukung? Malah di jejelin pikiran negative. Kok sekarang malah ngemis2 komunikasi yang ujung2 nya pijem duit. Dulu gue di usir, mereka merasa berkuasa punya rumah dan gue di anggep numpang. Sekarang liat gue begini malah mereka kepanasan sendiri. Inilah realita keluarga, bahwa duit dan kekuarga itu dua hal yang berbeda. Kakak gue maksa minjem duit buat beli motor, di pikir gue bank. Kalo mau beli motor minjem aja sama bank. Gak gue tanggepin dan ujung2 tadi pagi dia ngomel2 gak jelas. Bilang gue ngak ngormatin ortu lah, duit banyak tapi gak nge bantuin ortu, dll. Perjalanan gue kesini itu panjang, pas gue mau kesini tepat setelah lulus SMA, gue minta laptop ama ibu gue dan doi gak mau ngasih. Sedangkan kakak gue di kasih laptop, uang bulanan, uang kuliah, biaya kost. Gue cuma minta laptop dan gak dikasih. Sakit gak? Lebih sakit lagi pas gue udah disini, punya rumah, tabungan, pekerjaan, hidup berkecukupan tiba2 mereka ganggu gue lagi. Mereka dateng lagi kehidup gue, dalam rangka minjem duit. Dulu gue di injek2, di usir, di rendahin, di sumpahin biar gak sukses, di sumpahin biar dapet suami yang kejam. Akhir ny semua balikke mereka, mereka justru kebingungan mencukupi kebutuhan. Kok sekarang ujung2 mereka merasa gue harus balas budi karena mereka udah ngerawat gue dari bayi. Giliran gue bilang "anak gak pernah minta untuk di lahirkan justru kalian yang menginginkan anak maka anak itu lahir, banyak orang tua di luar sana merindukan kehadiran anak, kalian di beri kepercayaan Tuhan untuk merawat anak malah kalian sia sia kan dan saat anak sudah besar, kalian merasa berhak meminta uang pada anak" lalu mereka langsung diem. Begitupun tentang urusan perkuliahan gue. Bapak gue merasa kurang keras ke gue sampe akhir nya gue gak kuliah. Urusan sukses atau nggak itu nggak ada hubungan nya sama kuliah. Sukses atau nggak itu tergantung orang nya. Kalo cuma kuliah, dapet gelar, dapet ijazah kuliah online juga bisa. Bukan nya gue sombong atau gimana, gue udah ada rumah tiga biji, tabungan saham, tabungan hari tua, 2 pekerjaan. Apa itu kurang sukses? Kalo gue bego mana mungkin gue bisa begini. Biarpun gue gak kuliah, gue gak bego2 amat kali. Sedangkan bapak gue sarjana sosial politik lulusan UGM malah begitu, maap ye dia ngidupin istri aja gak becus. Rumah cuma satu biji itupun gak di bener2in. Apalagi kakak gue sarjana hukum, boro2 kerja di tempat yang prestige atau apa gitu, paling gak ada hubungan nya ama hukum, ini mah kagak. Pekerjaan dia gak ada hubungan nya samsek ama hukum, mau beli motor aja pake ngemis2 mau ngutang ke gue. Gue bukan nya nyebar aib atau gimana, mereka juga gak ngakuin suami gue kok. Gue disini bahagia, gak nyusahin siapa2. Kenapa disaat gue bahagia justru mereka begini. Sedangksn sebelum gue begini mereka bahagia diatas penderitaan gue. Itulah keluarga. Only looks good in the picture.

kesibukaan saat ini

Gue udah jarang nge blog karena gue gak tau apa yang mau di post. Hape gue juga rusak, jadi harus kembali ke samsung. Ngetik di samsung note itu susah karena huruf2 nya kecil2. Dan gue gak punya app blogger di samsung. Ditambah gue mulai kerja dari jam 7 pagi dan selesai jam 10 malem. Gue cuma libur hari minggu tiap 2 minggu sekali. Gue kerja 13 hari per dua minggu. Tiap libur gue kudu nge check perkebunan gue yang jarak nya 300 km dari Melbourne. Jadi aja ni blog makin gak ke urus. Berhubung hari ini gue libur sakit. Sebenernya udah sakit dari hari rabu minggu kemarin tapi karena gue undur2 ke dokter ny jadi baru di diagnosa kemaren. Sakit infeksi kantung kemih. Dokter kasih gue antibiotik, sekarang dari ujung rambut ampe kaki pada gatel. Seperti nya gue alergi sama antibiotik ini. Gue emang gak suka antibiotik, gue gak suka obat2 kimia buatan pabrik. Udah sekitar 15 tahun gak minum antibiotik. Jadi ya gitu, gue jadi lemes, ngantuk dan gatel2. Tadi pagi nrlpon tempat kerja kalo gue gak bisa dateng. Fiuhhh... jadi gue libur hari ini, besok masuk cuma buat meeting. Hari kamis masuk buat corporate meeting. Hari jumat cuma masuk 2 jam. Gak tau dah minggu depan gimana. Oh iya, yang pengen nanya2 gitu kirim email ke gue dong succchhh33@gmail.com thanks

Our new family, Elvis The Bunny

We just got a bunny from pet shop. I got him to help me with my work, as pet therapy for people with dementia. We call him Elvis The Bunny because he is so sexy like Elvis Parsley. He is ten weeks old. Elvis sleep in guess bedroom. He loves apple and pelets. He also loves standing and jumping around, so curious about things outside his house. He got little castle for him to hide. That castle is like a royal treatment for him. The care plan for him is, water change everyday, bedding (shredded pine wood) change everyweek, pellets fill only when it needs, fresh apple slices everyday. He was not do any poo on the first day he stay at his new place. But today he started do heaps of poo all over his house. Obviously he is a cheeky bunny.

Elvis and his house

I am turning twenty two

I wish I could stay seventeen forever. But time just flying, I was late eighteen when I came here and married with my husband. So Today is my birthday, no big celebration. I am not type of person who like big celebration for birthday. Ed arrived home in the afternoon from central VIC, He took me to Lygon Street. We had dinner at Singaporean Restaurant (Killiney Kopitiam). I love this place, my money go further over there. We had pipis in singapore chilli sauce, Barramundi in Chilli, Steamed Rice, Iced Bandung and pancake durian. I only ate pipis and fall a slept. Ed finished the whole fish, he loves that fish. I woke up for durian pancake. I just can not help my self to not to sleep after the busy week. We also had a walk along lygon street, it is like little Itali with plenty of Italian restaurant along the road. Near Melbourne University and Melbourne Museum. We had a walk to Melbourne Museum to watch movie at IMAX cinema near the museum but end up with I bought pop corn, played car racing with coins, and played pin ball with coins three times. After that, we decided not to watch anything at cinema and had a walk to brunetti coffee shop without buying anything. Just walking around the coffee shop then got out. Had dinner, back to carpark and looking for toilet. Use the lift to go up stairs to looking for toilet, got out from the lift then I can see our car which we parked on the ground floor. The car park just so unique, not flat. We don't really need lift to go to the toilet. We just need to keep walking passing our car then we can see toilet. Anyway We had a good time, good food. Then back home and played with our bunny (Elvis).

Pipis in singapore chilli sauce

Baramundi in Chilli

Pancake durian

Different way people enjoying their tea

Living in Australia, really open my mind about how each country have their own culture and own way to do things. But going from people to people house as social worker, it is really interesting to see different way people enjoying their tea. In my country (Indonesia) we mainly drink green tea or jasmine tea with hot water and sugar. But different in here. So here we go,

1. White tea

If people asking white tea or black tea, this means with milk (white) or no milk (black)

2. Sugar or no sugar

Look! People in my country love sweets. We put sugar almost in everything. But in here, we must ask the person either she or he wants with sugar or not and how many spoon.

3. Black tea with marmalade

It taste like tea with a hint of marmalade. Very nice and refreshing.

4. What some sort of tea?

We are in here got so many choices of tea, personally I love twinings earl grey. Oh yes! Have this tea during cold weather, sit on the bed, cover my body with blanket, watching the rain from my window, and drinking hot twinings earl grey, so relaxing and calming my mind. Twinings quiet popular in here, and we got heaps of choices, tea with fruit infused (berry, tropical fruit, etc), herbal infusion (ginger, mint, orange and lemongrass, etc), English breakfast, earl grey, camomile (I hate this tea, as it leave sweet taste on my tounge after I drink it). Second tea I love is lipton black tea. Ed doesn't like this as this tea is really ordinary and cheap, but I enjoy it with milk and two teaspoon of sugar then dunked scotch finger, have chit chat with work colleague.

5. Time for tea

Yes, it can be morning tea around 9-11 am. Some people drink coffee instead of real tea. Morning tea usually, served with sweet treats (biscuits or cakes). Afternoon tea 2-4 pm and tea at night usually before bed around 9-10 pm. Some people drink tea with their breakfast then having morning tea again. It really depends on their culture and where they grew up. But most of people in here having morning tea. At the church, some times they serving morning tea after mass in the morning. At work, people will having break for morning tea and chit chats.

21st century and mobile phone

My work colleague doesn't have mobile phone at all. She drives good car, doing paper work on the computer at work but she going everywhere without mobile phone. It is really interesting for me, in this 21st century still someone like her. Ten years ago, I didn't have a phone at all. I started use mobile phone in regular basis around five or seven years ago. She never has even one. People can only contact her through landline. I can not even think, what is she going to do if her car broken down, lost somewhere while driving in new place, or how she can get emergency call if something happen to her family. But it is really different with young generation, they use mobile phone too much and more like a victim of mobile phone. I use a lot of things on my phone, mainly gps as I am travelling heaps to clients house, receiving call, calling someone else when I have to, receiving emails from work and sending emails to work, internet banking, online shopping, etc. I haven't played any games since last year. Just not interested and too busy with real life. I think it's good to live without phone for few days, going away somewhere to isolated area. But back in real life, we need mobile phone. I got heaps of news from work through text, they text me about vacancy shift if I am interested to get more shift, staff meeting, training, etc. I also spend a lot of time on the road, the only way people contacting me only through my mobile phone or email.

Keluarga Ed

Ed berasal dari keluarga yang tinggal di desa, tapi sejak perceraian kedua orang tua, dia memilih ikut bapak ny menetap di kota karena bapak nya kerja sebagai plumber atau ahli pipa. Sedangkan adik nya menetap di desa bersama ibu nya. Ed sering main ke desa, ngunjungin adik nya. Main di ladang gandum, nenek ny suka bikin butter sendiri dari susu sapi yang dia perah sendiri. Terus butter nya di makan pake roti atau buat bikin roti di oven kayu bakar. Setelah lulus sekolah, Ed kuliah buat jadi ahli linguistik, sementara adik ny belajar menjadi pendeta di Israel, dan adik ny yang satu nya lagi belajar jadi ahli mekanik. Ed saat ini master in linguistik, adik ny dulu nya kerja di Vatikan buat Paus oleh sebab itu Ed pernah ngunjungin Paus secara empat mata pas Paus lagi liburan, kemudian dia keluar dari Vatikan dan kerja sebagai pemimpin wartawan sebuah majalah kemudian sekarang dia jadi pembicara di seminar2, adik nya Ed yang satu ny lagi bisnis bengkel mobil. Ayah nya Ed udah meninggal karena kanker sekitar 10-15 tahun yang lalu. Ed juga punya saudara perempuan yang tinggal di Melbourne.

Terserah pada Dia

Rencana Tuhan selalu Indah pada waktu Nya. Saya udah kerja secara permanent di aged care terbesar di VIC. Tapi saya juga lagi proses pindah kerja ke pemerintah. Disatu sisi saya seneng, tapi disisi lain saya khawatir, cemas kalo gagal. Tapi balik lagi, biarkan Tuhan yang bekerja. Saya hanya bisa hope for the best and prepare for the worst. Di pemerintah gaji lebih besar dan pekerjaan lebih ringan, tetapi ah sudahlah, kadang yang di harapkan justru tidak datang, sementara yang tidak diharapkan malah hadir. Sementara ini, saya kerja Kamis-Minggu di aged care secara permanent. Pihak shire/council bilang nya sih kalo saya mau kerja permanent di shire/council, saya harus melepas pekerjaan aged care. Kalo saya gak mau lepas aged care, pihak council hanya bisa kasih kerja casual. Sooooo terserah gimana nanti. Saya yakin, rencana Tuhan lah yang terindah, sebagai manusia hanya bisa menjalani peran dan alur kehidupan tanpa melawan atau berusaha merubah rencana Tuhan. Nanti update berikut ny saya tambahkan.

Update : Hari Selasa minggu ini saya di jadwalkan ke physio untuk check capability. Pihak pemerintah booking saya ke physio, saya tinggal dateng. Buat yang binggung sebenernya saya kerja dimana, saya kerja di tiga tempat. Dua di bidang pekerja sosial dan satu di bidang perhotelan. Pekerja sosial di bayar oleh pemerintah atau goverment, tapi setiap orang punya hak untuk memilih entah mau pekerja sosial yang di supply dari perusahaan pribadi atau langsung dari pemerintah. Saat ini saya kerja buat private company, dan juga saya kerja di facility yang di kelola oleh gereja anglican.

Update : so I am on the last stage, Interviewed and health checked been done, they just need to check my referee. I gave them three referees, no problem with two of them but have problem with one of my referee, that is my course place. I put my teacher as my referee but she was not responding. Let's say that she is busy as an excuse but unfortunately we found an other way, I asked my student coordinator to become my referee then she agreed. I asked the shire to call the course place and talk to student coordinator. So shire said next monday I am going for induction. Finger crossed, we just never know what is next challenge. Hope for the best and prepared for the worst.

Updated and closing : Saya udah resmi kerja di shire, selama dua hari ini saya kerja kantor mereka di hastings, besok kerja di lapangan. Puji Tuhan 😊 saya satu satu nya orang asia, yang lain nya orang barat semua hihi.. Agak asing sendiri, awal nya kurang percaya diri karena mereka rata2 usia 40 th keatas, postur tubuh mereka sangat postur barat sementara saya masih 22 th dan postur saya kecil seperti orang asia pada umum nya. Saya kurang percaya diri karena saya paling muda, paling kecil, dan orang asia sendiri, rasa nya seperti nyasar di lingkungan yang berbeda 😊

Hidup ini menyakitkan di akhir usia

Perasaan sedih dan haru di tempat kerja. Melihat mereka yang sangat bahagia saat di kunjungi oleh keluarga nya. Kejadian yang jarang sekali terjadi di kehidupan mereka sejak mereka tinggal di aged care. Mereka tidak mengerti apa yang terjadi, mengapa mereka ada disana, mengapa keluarga nya tidak ada di dekat nya. Menjalani hari demi hari, segala penderitaan dan kesedihan di akhir usia. Masa masa sulit menjelang nafas terakhir. Kami lah para perawat yang menjadi saksi proses akhir kehidupan banyak orang, saat sang pencipta mencabut nyawa mereka, perlahan lahan otak mereka mulai mengirim pesan kepada organ lain untuk mulai berhenti bekerja. Lalu hempasan nafas terakhir menjadi titik akhir kehidupan mereka dan keluarga menjemput jenazah mereka. Kami lah yang kebanyakan mengengam tangan mereka disaat nyawa hampir tiada, disaat yang sama mereka meremas tangan ini, sebagai bukti akan kerinduan pada cinta dan kasih sayang.  Hidup ini menyakitkan bukan? Tak jarang mereka menangis dalam sepi, bertanya mengapa mereka disana, mereka ingin pulang, mereka rindu rumah. Namun bukan rumah sebuah tempat yang mereka rindukan, tak lain ialah perasaan suasana rumah di hati dengan kehangatan keluarga di sekitar dan pelukan cinta oleh orang tersayang. Ternyata rumah bukan hanya sebuah benda atau bangunan, rumah adalah suasana kehangatan keluarga dengan orang tercinta di sekeliling. Bekerja sebagai social worker, yang bekerja dekat dengan mereka tua, miskin kasih sayang dan sakit, sebuah pekerjaan yang mengajarkan banyak tentang hidup. Ah saya sangat bahagia bisa menjadi seperti ini. Melihat senyuman tulus dari mereka yang lupa cara berbicara, hanya senyuman sebagai komunikasi antara aku dan dia. Ternyata komunikasi tidak hanya melalui ucapan atau perkataan melainkan melalui mata dan tatapan juga senyuman.

Vertical Garden (kebun berdiri)

http://www.countryliving.com/gardening/garden-ideas/how-to/g1274/how-to-plant-a-vertical-garden/? This is my inspiration magazine. Please check this out if you have time. Saya lagi mencari inspirasi biar balkon rumah ada suasana hijau nya tapi sama Ed gak di bolehin naro pot tanaman di balkon karena takut kayu ny rusak. Jadi munculah ide bikin vertical garden. Di gantung di tembok atau di pager balkon. Biar musim semi bisa nanem tomat punnet, salad dan herbs. Tapi sebenernya masih mikir mikir, bagus ny di tanem apaan. Mau taneman yang g usah di tanem tiap tahun. Mungkin strawberry cocok di tanem vertical garden. Masih nyari nyari juga tentang vertical garden bags ny yang bagus. Karena saya baca yang dari china kurang bagus. Kata nya sih yang bagus itu produksi dari wolly bag tapi mahal banget yah buat vertical garden. Di rumah yang satu ny saya ada tangga kayu tua tidak terpakai dan jar. Jadi pingin buat pajangan di dalem rumah. Tangga kayu nya sebagai tempat untuk taro jar yang ada tanaman nya (jar ny sebagai pot). Dan di taro di sudut rumah. Cocok ny buat taneman yang gak butuh banyak air (cactus atau aloe vera). Jadi pajangan hijau di rumah. Tapi kalo pakai vertical garden bag itu sudah pasti karena butuh untuk di balkon. Nanti mau coba cari di bunnings. Mungkin bisa bikin perkebunan strawberry dengan lahan sempit dengan vertical garden. Tapi kelemahan nya, kita harus sering siram tanaman ny dan kasih pupuk.

kehidupan

Bekerja sebagai pekerja sosial itu unik, ketemu orang orang dengan pengalaman hidup yang berbeda beda. kemarin saya berkesempatan untuk accompany seseorang yang hidup dalam situasi sulit, dia menderita depressi berat. dia tinggal di caravan park, dia tinggal di caravan secara permanent. saya cukup panik di awal, karena pintu caravan terbuka, putung rokok dimana mana, piring dan gelas kotot di mana mana. kamar tidur terbuka. saya masuk ke kamar tidur dia dan dia tidur di bungkus selimut karena sangat dingin. bagaimana tidak dingin jika pintu terus di buka sementara disini musim dingin. Saya menawarkan jika dia mau ke shopping centre biar saya antar tetapi ternyata dia bilang 'unwell' saya langsung telpon manager saya. ternyata dia bilang unwell karena dia lagi depressi saat itu. jadi dia tidur sejak kemarin sore sampai tengah hari. saya accompany dia selama 2 jam. saya membuatkan dia sarapan dan teh hangat. kemudian dia keluar kamar dan cerita ke saya tentang hidup dia. Dahulu dia bekerja sebagai police officer dan juga pemilik bisnis truk. bisnis kecil dengan 15 orang karyawan. dia memiliki istri yang sudah meninggal 21 tahun yang lalu. dia punya satu anak dari pernikahan nya dengan wanita itu. lalu kenapa seorang mantan polisi dan pebisnis hidup seperti itu? ini sebuah pertanyaan besar di benak saya. tapi saya hanya diam. dia kehilangan satu kaki nya, dia memakai kaki palsu untuk berjalan. rupa nya dia mengalami kecelakan parah 22 tahun yang lalu. selama 12 bulan dia di rumah sakit, setelah dia keluar dari rumah sakit kemudian istri nya meninggal karena kanker payudara. Istri nya tidak pernah bercerita kalau dia sakit kanker payudara. mereka berdua sama sama sibuk bekerja dan tidak ada waktu untuk bercerita kepada satu sama lain. namun setelah kematian istri nya, dia masih menjalankan bisnis truck nya. 10 tahun setelah kematian istri nya, dia bertemu wanita yang kemudian menjadi pacar nya. setelah 7 bulan menjalin asmara dengan wanita ini, dia terkena bipolar disorder. kemudian dia memutuskan wanita ini menjadi power of attorney nya. setelah beberapa bulan dia di rumah sakit karena bipolar disorder, wanita tersebut menjual semua asset cowok ini. rumah, mobil, barang barang dan uang di rekening di ambil oleh wanita tsb kurang lebih sekitar $750000 (7.5 milliar rupiah). hal inilah yang membuat dia hidup seperti ini sekarang. Dia tidak memiliki apapun lagi, hanya caravan yang dia sewa di caravan park setiap bulan nya. Tanpa saudara atau teman. hidup nya bergantung dari kebaikan hati pemerintah. dia dapet makanan gratis tiap minggu nya dari pemerintah termasuk social worker seperti saya yang di gaji oleh pemerintah. Saya jadi berpikir bahwa hidup ini aneh, unik. pria yang kaya bisa menjadi miskin karena wanita. 10 tahun yang lalu, duit segitu tidak sedikit. sekarang pun duit segitu juga tidak sedikit. duit segitu bisa beli rumah lumayan besar di pinggir kota. kadang hidup ini kejam, wanita kejam dan pria buta karena cinta. apapun dilakukan demi orang yang dia cinta, kekuatan ny sebagai laki laki hilang karena wanita. pria menjadi lemah karena wanita.

Rencana Tuhan Selalu Indah

Mungkin ini bukan untuk semua orang, tapi ketika kita bimbang dan ragu. Ceritakan kepada Tuhan di dalam doa, dengan penuh keyakinan dan kepercayaan. Karena Tuhan itu ada dan Dia mendengar. Saat masih kecil saya sering diusir oleh orang tua sendiri, saya selalu berdoa supaya bisa punya rumah di usia muda, dan usia 19 thn saya nikah, pindah ke aussie dan punya rumah di aussie. Di saat mau pindah ke aussie, saya tidak punya uang sedikitpun. Cuma dikasih $100 oleh ibu. Cukup berapa lama $100 untuk hidup disini? Saya cuma SMA. Saya hanya berdoa dan berusaha, tak lama kemudian tiba2 saya dapet kerja di salon dengan gaji kecil, dibawah upah. Tak lama kemudian saya dapet kerja di hotel dapet gaji di atas standard nasional. boss hotel ini baik banget, dia gak ngebolehin saya kerja di salon itu lagi karena bayaran nya rendah dan dia naikin jam kerja saya jadi saya dapet gaji lebih besar. Sampai sekarang saya masih kerja di hotel itu. Kemudian saya coba belajar dan dapet qualifikasi, ada keraguan saat di akhir dapet qualifikasi karena banyak yang gak dapet kerja tapi saya minggu itu terima qualifikasi, minggu itu juga saya dapet kerja. Namun pekerjaan nya berat, tapi saya tetap berusaha yang terbaik. Hingga akhir nya sekarang dapet pekerjaan yang lebih baik, gaji lebih baik dan pekerjaan ini permanent. Tapi aneh nya kok pekerjaan permanent saya ini, Kamis, jumat, sabtu, minggu sedangkan di hotel saya kerja permanent Senin, Selasa, Rabu. Kok seperti sudah di atur oleh Tuhan. Padahal saya gak bilang ke tempat kerja ini mau minta hari kamis, jumat, sabtu dan minggu permanent dari jam 2 pm - 10 pm. Di hotel saya kerja senin, selasa dan rabu emang udah dari lama banget dan Itu permanent pagi 8 am - 1 pm. Di dalam doa saya hanya minta yang terbaik menurut Tuhan. Ternyata Tuhan ini mewujudkan nya melalui manager. Mereka kok ngatur nya pas banget. Selama saya disini, saya g pernah kelaperan, kekurangan apapun. Padahal jika di ingat, saya hanya punya ijazah sma dan saya cuma bawa $100 kesini. Justru sekarang kok saya malah punya mobil, rumah, tabungan, saham, pekerjaan. Apapun yang terjadi selalu saya bawa di dalam doa. Jalani seperti air mengalir, serahkan kekhawatiran dan kecemasan kepada Tuhan. Karena Dia melihat semua perkara di dunia ini dan Dia tidak mungkin membiarkan kita kekurangan, jika kita mau berusaha dan berdoa. Jika burung aja Dia pelihara, bunga aja dikasih kecantikan, apalagi kita umat nya. Semua nya yang Tuhan kasih pun bukan milik saya untuk selama nya. Itu semua titipan, tapi sekali lagi, kita harus jalani hidup ini tanpa ketakutan atau kecemasan. Karena Tuhan itu melihat dan mendengar, Dia memelihara kita. Banyak hal menakjubkan di hidup saya dan saya kadang merasa aneh sendiri. Karena saya suka berpikir 'kok bisa ya' hal yang sulit untuk di pikirkan dengan akal sehat. Yuk semangat lakukan yang terbaik dan yang terpenting jangan ngoyo, harus berserah pada Tuhan. Karena terkadang yang terjadi saat ini sulit di mengerti tetapi di akhir kita akan mengerti bahwa Tuhan sudah mempersiapkan rencana yang indah.

Alam bebas bukan untuk ku

Baca2 orang Indonesia yang tinggal di selandia baru dan hidup di alam bebas. Mau duit harus panen sayuran dulu kemudian di jual ke pasar baru deh dapet duit. Mau dapet daging harus berburu dulu. Waduh tidak terbayang betapa keras nya hidup kalo seperti itu. Harus bangun pagi pagi buat bercocok tanam, jualan ke pasar. Pekerjaan kebanyakan diluar ruangan, kalo cuaca hangat mungkin saya akan bahagia. Lah kalo cuaca lagi dingin begini, bisa masuk angin atau rematik kebanyakan kena dingin. Apalagi saya orang nya gak tahan dingin, pake baju berlapis lapis, tapi muka tetep kedinginan dan ujung nya jadi demam. Daya tahan tubuh saya akhir2 ini emang jelek banget. Tiap abis shift overnight, pulang ke rumah langsung demam dan terpaksa saya harus ijin sehari sakit. Mungkin sehari atau dua hari hidup begitu saya seneng, tapi kalo hidup begitu menjadi rutinitas mungkin bukan untuk saya. Paternakan aja udah jarang saya tengok karena sibuk disini. Males nya kalo ke paternakan itu dingin nya gak tahan, walaupun rumah disana ada AC buat heating pas musim dingin dan cooling pas musim panas, tetep yah gak tahan disana. Karena harus ke luar rumah dan banyak kerjaan di luar rumah. Itu yang bikin saya gak kuat. Hal lain yang saya khawatirkan itu kulit saya sensitive, gampang melepuh dan gatel2. Kerja di luar rumah kadang ada serangga, keringetan dan kotor dan ini masalah saya selama di paternakan, kulit pada gatel sementara kerjaan di luar rumah harus di kerjain. Saya gak bisa ngebayangin hidup dari bercocok tanam. Temen aja ngajakin jalan2 pake caravan, tapi Ed emang gak suka caravan atau kemping karena tidak nyaman. Lebih suka nginep di bnb, motel atau hotel. Simpel, gak usah bikin tenda atau nyari parkiran caravan. Selesai liburan tinggak bungkus baju kotor, dan sampe rumah cuma nyuci baju kotor aja. Kalo kemping kan selesai kemping harus bongkar tenda, sampe rumah harus beres2 perlengkapan bekas masak, tidur, baju kotor. Apalagi caravan, selesai liburan harus bersihin caravan, buang air toilet nya, bersihin bekas masak dan tidur. Capek banget ya. Kita suka nya praktis aja, selesai liburan, istrihata di rumah atau balik kerja. Emang sih hidup di alam seperti itu lebih murah, nanem sendiri, ternak sendiri. Liburan nya kemping atau naik caravan hemat biaya hotel. Tapi ribet nya itu gak tahan hehe.. Tapi seperti nya setiap orang punya pilihan nya sendiri dan pertimbangan nya sendiri ya. Apapun pikihan nya yang terpenting kita menikmati hidup ini.

Rumah sederhana sesuai kebutuhan

Setiap menuju tempat kerja, saya suka lewat jalan pintas. Jalan pintas yang saya pakai ini, di kelilingi mansion. Ada yang seperti rumah barbie, rumah gaya prancis, rumah kuno dan megah, ada pula yang hanya kelihatan pagar, rumah nya jauh dari jalan dan di tutupi pagar tinggi dan tanaman. Tamu yang datang harus pencet bell dulu dan biasa nya bisa komunikasi dengan orang di dalam lewat bell di luar. Ternyata salah satu client saya tinggal disana dan hari ini saya berkesempatan masuk ke rumah nya. Taman nya di belakang sangat luas dengan rumput yang cantik dan bisa di pakai untuk main golf. Jumlah kamar tidur ny lebih dari 4. Padahal dia cuma tinggal sendiri dan usia nya hampir 90 tahun. Mau masuk rumah dia harus muter lewat pagar belakang dan semua ny di kunci rapat dan jendela di tutupi gorden. Saya harus teriak teriak sambil ketok2 pintu karena si ibu di dalem gak denger. Ternyata dia ada perasaan khawatir karena dulu maling pernah masuk. Wah saya jadi gak kebayang tinggal di rumah besar sendirian di usia hampir 90 tahun. Urusan bersih2 dia ada pembantu. Tukang kebun datang tiap di panggil. Dia makan dari catering yang di desain oleh dietician yang dikirim dari melbourne. Ada juga yang nganterin dia shopping tiap minggu. Si ibu ini seperti nya orang berpangkat dan penuh wibawa, walaupun sudah tua. Tas nya pun hermes dan di taro di wheely walker 4 roda nya yang dia dorong2 kemana pun dia pergi. Seperti nya dia sangat cemas kalau ada pencuri jadi tas nya selalu dia bawa kemana mana sampai ke dapur dan kamar mandi pun di bawa. Di usia yang tak lagi muda pasti ada perasaan cemas untuk kehilangan perhiasan yang penuh sejarah entah itu cuma sekedar cincin tunangan yang udah gak muat di jari, mungkin itu yang membuat dia cemas. Ini hal yang sangat menarik bagi saya, kamar tidur nya luas dengan dapur, kulkas, tv, sofa, dan kamar mandi di dalam nya. Di luar kamar nya pun ada kamar lain dan dapur dan kamar mandi lain tapi seperti nya jarang di sentuh karena semua nya serba ada di kamar tidur nya. Jadi dia lebih sering di kamar tidur nya dan keluar shopping sama assisten nya. Tadi malam pun saya iseng2 cari mansion yang di jual, ada mansion bekas penyanyi amerika, harga nya jika di rupiahkan 60 milliar atau 6 juta dollar. Tapi kok yang ada di pikiran saya, takut ada hantu atau maling kalo saya lagi sendirian pas Ed lagi keluar kota. Apalagi sekarang tiap minggu Ed keluar kota. Oleh sebab itu, saya gak mau mimpi tinggal di mansion deh takut nanti jadi kenyataan hahaha serem tinggal di rumah besar dan mewah sendirian. Takut ada valak wkwkwk

Positif nya Indonesia

Seperti nya Indonesia selalu di ceritakan yang negatif2 padahal Indonesia gak se-negatif itu. Banyak hal yang bikin kangen tentang Indonesia :

1. Pedagang kaki lima

Ini kangen nya udah tingkat dewa. Makan bakso, mie ayam, batagor, nasi uduk, nasi kucing di pinggir jalan sambil liat lalu lintas rame2 bareng saudara atau temen. Ini hiburan murah luar biasa dan dapet bonus makanan dan kebahagiaan.

2. Aku rindu warteg

Entah kenapa makanan warteg itu selalu mengugah selera. Walaupun sederhana bahkan kadang cuma nasi, kikil, usus ayam, mie goreng. saya merasa lebih enak makanan warteg ketimbang fine dining? Atau lidah ini udah terbiasa micin dan garam?

3. Ojek bang, kiri bang

Kangen sama ojek. Mau pergi2 tinggal ke pangkalan ojek, gak perlu nunggu taxi. Dan kalo naik angkot kalo mau berenti tinggal ketok2 atap angkot nya atau bilang kiri bang. Kalo disini, harus berenti di halte dan pencet tombol merah di bis. Kalo kelewatan kudu jalan kaki sendiri. Karena gak ada ojek.

4. Pedagang keliling, tukang jahit keliling, tukang sol sepatu keliling, apapun di kelilingin.

Indonesia itu surga buat orang yang males keluar rumah. Mau beli sembako ada tukang sembako keliling, beli sayur pun begitu, mau jajan bakso pun ada tukang bakso keliling, sampe tukang jahit dan sol sepatu pun ada keliling. Sedangkan disini? Harus keluar rumah, jauh pula harus naik mobil. Udah gitu harga nya mahal.

5. Salon murah meriah

Salon di Indonesia itu banyak yang murah meriah. Sedangkan disini, gak ada yang semurah salon di Indonesia. Ini nih yang bikin saya kangen sama Indonesia. Udah salon nya murah, biasa nya deket salon ada pedagang makanan dan bisa makan di salon. Kadang salon kasih minuman gratis entah itu teh botol atau fanta merah.

6. Jakarta tak pernah tidur

Iya tengah malem pun di Jakarta masih ada toko yang buka, entah toko baju, toko kelontong, toko makanan, warung kopi, dll. Sedangkan disini, toko paling lama buka sampe jam 10 malem, itu pun paling  hanya hari Jumat dan hanya sedikit yang buka. Selebih nya mereka tutup jam 4-6 sore. Jadi kezel mau belanja tapi toko nya tutup.

7. Cuaca hangat

Banyak orang barat yang pindah ke Indonesia karena faktor ini. Kalo Ed itu ada pengecualian dia emang manusia kutub. Dia lebih suka cuaca dingin. Tapi saya rindu cuaca hangat apalagi di musim dingin begini.

8. Keindahan alam nya

Ini nih hal yang paling penting kalo ke Indonesia, jalan2 ke daerah yang jarang turis biasa nya lebih indah dan lebih bersih. Pas di Bali saya ke pantai yang jarang turis, pokok nya sepi banget dan kebanyakan masyarakat lokal. Deket pantai ada yang jual sate babi dan kita makan sate babi di pinggir pantai. Duh enak banget lagi tuh sate, murah pula,  pantai nya bersih dan sepi turis. Kapan2 mau kesana lagi dah cari ibu2 yang jual sate itu. Kita makan sampe nambah 3-4 kali.

Sebenernya masih banyak lagi positif nya Indonesia yang saya rindukan. Tapi cukup sampai disini.

Apa socmed yg lagi ngetrend saat ini??

Socmed yang saya pakai saat ini hanya facebook dan instagram. Saya lebih sering pake facabook, sementara saya jarang upload dan buka instagram. Saya emang kurang update urusan satu ini. Tapi saya suka stalking socmed orang lain di waktu luang wkwk.. Hal yang paling sering saya stalking itu ask.fm karena semua kekepoan saya terjawab disana. Menurut kalian, apa socmed yang lagi ngetrend saat ini? Kirim jawaban nya ke succchhh33@gmail.com thanks...

Asuransi Ambulance Victoria (AV)

Tau gak penting nya asuransi AV? Kalo dalam keadaan darurat, kita tinggal telpon 000 dan kita dapet bantuan paramedics dan biaya nya di cover oleh AV insurance. Kalau tanpa AV insurance, ongkos panggil paramedics bisa mencapai 1000 AUD atau lebih. Minggu kemarin saya sakit bulanan dan bener2 panik karena di rumah sendirian, udah susah napas sampe nelpon paramedics. Tapi karena adik nya Ed tau kalo nelpon paramedics biaya nya mahal kalo gak punya AV insurance sementara private insurance kadang gak cover biaya tsb. Jadi langsung aja Ed suruh saya batalin dan dia buru2 pulang ke rumah bawa obat. Sebenernya emang nyawa saya tidak terancam saat itu tapi saya panik karena perut keram dan jadi susah napas karena panik. Setelah Ed pulang bawa obat, setengah jam kemudian gak terasa sakit dan saya bisa napas normal lagi. Jadi sejak itu Ed suruh saya daftar AV insurance. Ternyata biaya nya cuma 43.xx AUD setahun. Murah kan? Lebih murah dari biaya asuransi pribadi sebulan. Jadi aja sekalian saya daftarin Ed. karena Ed kan sering ke tempat terpencil, kalo suatu saat dia kecelakaan disana (amit2) dan harus di bawa ke rumah sakit besar di Melbourne pakai air ambulance (helikopter ambulance), semua nya di cover AV insurance. Jadi saran saya, kalo kalian mau liburan ke Melbourne atau Victoria atau kalian tinggal disini. Segera daftar AV Insurance. AV insurance ini asuransi khusus jasa ambulans di Victoria/Melbourne. Entah itu dalam situasi darurat atau saat butuh bantuan paramedics walaupun situasi belum darurat. Semua yang berhubungan dengan ambulance di Victoria ini mereka cover. Untuk family juga ada cuma 87.xx AUD setahun. Saya kemarin daftar yang family buat saya dan Ed, kalo ada anak juga bisa di masukin di family.

Orang tua tdk sll benar

Saya agak gimanaaaa gitu akhir2 ini. Lagi kesel sama orang tua sendiri. Masalah nya saya kan udah berkeluarga tapi mereka masih mau ikut campur urusan saya dan Ed. ya urusan keuangan, pendidikan, dll. Sampe ke arah mengancam. Padahal saya tidak merepotkan mereka sama sekali. Saya disini hidup bahagia. Nyebelin aja kalo mereka ikut campur urusan saya dan Ed sampe memaksa dan mengancam. Saya pingin nya urusan saya dan Ed itu pribadi dan terpisah dari mereka. Puji Tuhan dech saya tinggal jauh dari mereka. Saya gak mau jadi anak durhaka tapi tiap anak punya pikiran nya masing2 dan orang tua gak selalu benar. Dia akhir, anak juga yang menangung resiko atau menikmati kebahagiaan. Yoweslah, saya diemin aja semua nya. Saya tidak pernah mencampuri fanancial mereka atau kehidupan pribadi mereka sampai memaksa dan mengancam. Pokok ny tidak perlu saya umbar detail nya disini, tapi saya dan Ed jadi curiga apa maksud ini semua? Padahal mereka disana masih ada 3 anak. Kenapa mereka sibuk mencampuri urusan pribadi saya sedangkan disana ada 3 anak yg harus mereka urus? Saya sampai gak habis pikir terhadap mereka, mengancam anak sendiri jika tidak mau mengikuti kemauan mereka ckckck... Awal nya bln July sama mau mudik tp gagal karena masalah ini. Karena saya gak tau apa maksud mereka mengancam saya hanya karena saya blm sarjana sementara duit saya jauh lebih banyak dari mereka yg sarjana. Jadi saya merasa benar2 tidak aman untuk pulang sendiri, jadi nunggu Ed libur baru pulang kesana bareng Ed. tapi Ed juga udah muak sama mereka, tentang kelakuan mereka sebelum2 nya di tambah kejadian yang kemarin ini. Bener2 gak habis pikir saya sama orang tua yang mencampuri urusan anak sampai memaksa dan mengancam.

Kelanjutan karir saya

Jd kmrn saya rapat dengan bbrp manager. Rapat tentang sistem kerja dan sistem di fasilitas yg menurut saya, ini tantangan baru buat saya. Ya lihat hasil ny minggu depan. Agak galau sih sebener nya. Saat ini kan saya masih kerja di perusahaan yg lama, anak perusahaan. Saya gak jadi pindah ke main company. Saya kan mau pindah ke perusahaan lain yg lagi ngembangin perusahaan nya. Kalo saya berhasil aka di terima di perusahaan yg lagi ngembangin ini, minggu dpn saya dpt informasi lagi dari mereka untuk medical check up dan tanda tangan perjanjian kerja lalu awal July (2 minggu lagi?) penerimaan tugas/jabatan secara resmi. Jadi bener2 binggung. Rencana saya kalo di terima di perusahaan ini,saya mau liat dulu perjanjian kerja ny bagaimana. Jika cocok, saya mau keluar dari tempat kerja saat ini. Inti nya saya lagi galau tentang ke depan nya gimana wkwkwk..

Perkembangan berikut nya : setelah saya nulis ini tadi, tiba2 saya dpt telepon buat medical check up dan saya di tanya kapan saya free minggu depan. Saya sll free di hari kamis. Jadi aja saya bilang ke mbak2 nya hari kamis dan jam berapa aja boleh. Jd di suruh dateng jam 10. Dan ini health provider yang di tunjuk oleh perusahaan. Seperti nya di bayar oleh perusahaan karena tertulis debtor nya perusahaan. Kemudian saya dpt email konfirmasi dan saya forward ke Ed buat di print di kantor dia. Jadi kita lihat apa yang akan terjadi stlh medical check up. Tapi seperti nya saya sudah di tahap yang lumayan jauh.

Perkembangan hari ini : tiba2 saya di telpon untuk ganti jadwal medical assesment lebih awal karena hari kamis minggu ini udah harus penandatanganan perjanjian kerja. Jadi saya harus medical assesment hari ini atau besok. Kita lihat aja perkembangan berikut nya bagaimana. Sementara ini saya nunggu call dari manager karena perubahan jadwal harus dilakukan oleh perusahaan. Rasa nya bener2 galau seperti nunggu pengumuman kelulusan. Saya udah cancel bbrp client dari tempat kerja saat ini. Biar shift saya udah di isi oleh staff lain sebelum saya keluar.

Berikut nya : ternyata hari Kamis kemarin saya gak dapet email apapun. Tapi saya cuma pasarah sama yang kuasa. Baru hari ini pihak mereka nelpon saya tentang offer dan kemudian mereka kirim email ke saya dan saya harus ngisi aplikasi lagi dan apes nya butuh beberapa dokument untuk di print, di scan dan di upload ke mereka dan di rumah saya gak ada printer maupun scanner. Komplen ke Ed, malah di ceramahin mau di taro di mana printer nya karena kamar tamu udah penuh dokuments dan baju2 saya. Sementara perpustakaan umum udah tutup. Jadi besok saya harus bangun pagi, bawa dokument yang udah saya siapin, nyetir ke perpustakaan umum, menerjang dingin ny winter. Udah gitu? Ah sudahlah.. Biarkan waktu yang menjawab hasil perjuangan saya, apakah ini akan meningkatkan kehidupan saya atau meningkatkan kesabaran saya. Yuk berjuang, apapun hasil nya yang penting kita udah melakukan yang terbaik.

Updated and closing : setelah perjuangan panjang ini, akhir nya saya resmi di terima kerja permanent oleh mereka, sejak 3 minggu lalu. Saat ini saya sedang pindah kerja lagi ke pemerintah. Tapi belum tau bagaimana kedepan nya, hanya bisa berserah sama Tuhan. 😊

Birthday Ed

Apa yang terjadi di hari ulang tahun Ed? Sehari sebelum nya saya bikin chiffon cake dan entah kenapa kok jadi nya bantet? Niat nya mau di hias pake cream, tapi udah keburu males duluan. Saya udah beli cream nya dan masih di kulkas belum di pake. Bolu ny udah hampir habis. Hari itu saya dan Ed kerja, mau masak juga males karena sama2 capek. Mau ngasih kado juga binggung karena barang nya udah banyak. Jadi saya cuma kasih mentah nya aja buat dia, bebas mau beli apa terserah dia. Kemudian kita ke Thai resto deket rumah, gak deket juga sih beda suburb. Sekitar 30 menit naik mobil. Kita ke Sorrento. Lokasi Thai resto nya terpencil tapi rasa nya juara. Awal nya saya mikir mau ke pub di sekitar Mornington, tapi kok bawaan nya males ke arah sana. Mau cari resto sekitar Rosebud juga kok kayak nya gak ada yg istimewa. Jadilah kita ke Sorrento. Karena saya pikir, kalo gak ada resto asia yg lain, mungkin kita makan di chopstix sorrento aja. Eh saya googling dan nemu Thai resto. Kita makan enteree, 2 mains, dan dessert. Pokok nya puas banget lah, saya nyesel banget kekenyangan jadi gak bisa habisin pad thai seafood nya. Kemudian saya kasih ucapan selamat, dan harapan dia cuma semoga tahun depan bisa pensiun dini hehe.. Ed juga pingin nya tahun depan setelah pensiun bisa travelling keliling dunia dan program bayi tabung. Jadi saya mikir, kalo program bayi tabung tahun depan terus jalan2 keluar negeri nya bawa bayi kan repot juga ya. Mulai deh dari sekarang cari pesawat yang paling enak buat berpergian bareng infants. Padahal bikin nya juga belom tapi repot ny udah duluan. Ed juga agak sedih karena dia makin tua wkwkwk.. Kayak nya tua itu pasti ya, dan semua orang pasti tua.. Tapi dia jadi berpikir kalo dia meninggal bagaimana karena saya masih muda wkwkwk. Gak ikhlas dia kalo saya nikah lagi. Padahal saya gak mau nikah lagi, cukup sekali menikah dan setelah itu mau bebas sendiri. Tapi dia jadi gak sabar buat pensiun dan punya anak karena udah semakin tua wkwk.. Jadi kesimpulan nya ultah Ed di rayain sederhana wkwk..

hidup tak terduga, jalani saja dengan ikhlas

kadang sesuatu luar biasa datang ke hidup saya tanpa di duga, begitupun sebalik nya, sesuatu yang di duga akan datang justru tak datang dan bikin kecewa. maka nya jangan banyak berharap wkwkwk... jadi awal nya saya mau pindah ke main company tempat saya kerja karena saat ini saya kerja di anak perusahaan nya. sudah di tahap interview, meeting dengan atasan, dll. namun akhir nya saya bertahan di anak perusahaan nya. lucu kan? itulah hidup, tak di duga dan tak disangka. sudah haru bahagia lalu gagal dan kecewa. mereka gak batalin atau menolak saya sebenenarnya. disisi lain, saya memang kurang suka dengan clients yang mereka kasih karena rata2 paraplegic dari TAC clients. saya pingin nya focus di aged care, tapi berhubung belum dapet client yang saya mau, jadi sementara ini saya kerja begini dulu aja. saya pun masih berusaha melamar kerja kemana mana, tetiba hari ini dapet telepon. gak mau berharap banyaklah yah, tapi seperti nya ini perusahaan yang nanganin lansia untuk companion. nah ini nih yang saya cari, jalan2 ke mall, ngopi, shopping, jalan2 bareng client dan enak nya di gaji. jadi saya masih harus nunggu email mereka, tadi sih cuma phone interview aja, interview face to face nya hari kamis minggu depan, jadi kita lihat aja gimana. saya kerjain yang ada di depan mata, pokok nya tawaran kerja pun saya ambil aja, tidak saya tolak kecuali ada urusan lain. di telpon sih di janjiin nya kerja untuk lansia yang tinggal di komplek lansia atau apartement khusus lansia untuk accompany mereka dan membangun relasi dengan mereka. jadi lihat nanti aja, karena saya suka banget sama lansia apalagi mereka yang dementia. saya kurang suka TAC clients karena rata2 mereka masih muda dan tiba2 kecelakaan lalu jadi cacat seumur hidup jadi nya mental mereka bener2 tergangu dan ganguan mental ini kadang di tumpahin ke carer. saya ngerti sih mereka gak bahagia karena tiba2 jadi cacat, tapi di satu sisi, saya gak bisa berbuat apa2. jadi saya lihat aja bagaimana nanti, karena main company masih nunggu international police check saya tapi ini udah 3 minggu an, dan saya berharap mereka membatalkan lamaran saya dan perusahaan yang nelpon saya tadi ini, saya berharap mereka akan menerima saya. tapi enathlah, biarkan waktu yang menjawab....

Sombong nya istri WNA

Seperti nya orang sombong gak istri wna aja, istri wni yang gak mapan pun kadang sombong. Tapi seperti ny sombong tidak nya seseorang bukan berdasarkan suami nya, ras/suku nya tapi berdasarkan orang nya. Saya mau bahas istri wna yg sombong dan ujung2 nya nge bully orang lain. Bukan saya sih yg di bully tapi orang lain. Agak risih juga kalo liat orang nge bully di grup kawin campur. Yang seharus nya berisi informasi saling membantu sesama pelaku kawin campur, tapi kok ujung ny malah saling bully, saling hina, dan menyombongkan diri masing2. Tindakan istri wna membully calon istri wna atau sesama istri wna ini bukan hanya sekali atau dua kali tetapi lebih sering. Tapi yang suka nge bully ini kalo saya check facebook nya sih hidup nya biasa aja (kebanyakan loh ya). Apalagi jika ada sesuatu tentang duit, pasti deh postingan itu ramai sekali. Entah kirim duit, terima duit, dll. Tapi seru juga sih kalo di baca tentang kirim duit ke indonesia, mereka pakai aneh2. Kalau saya sih gak mau repot, dan kirim duit nya juga setahun sekali jadi nya langsung aja dari rekening saya ke rekening ibu di indo. Pernah sih mencoba hemat (coba pakai yang murah), tapi kok malah repot dan bikin saya binggung. Kalo Ed dulu selalu pakai western union yang cepet nyampe nya. Tapi istri wna ini pakai nya macam2 dan memang saya lihat ongkos nya lebih murah, tapi ribet nya juga gak ketinggalan. Istri wna ini juga banyak yang bangga sekali menikahi wna (kebanyakan sih yang begini, baru nikah sama wna) bukan pasangan tua seperti saya dan Ed yang romantis nya udah hilang di telan bumi. Pas saya tanya suami nya wn mana (maklum saya orang indonesia dan saya kepo karena dia sombong sekali) dan dia pun dengan bangga bilang suami nya dari us, lalu temen nya dari aussie, bla bla bla. Yaaa gitu deh, suami saya mah dari mana atuh, dari planet lain yang gak dikenal di bumi, banyak loh yang menghina negara Ed karena itu negara berkembang dan ujung2 merendahkan saya. Sebenernya Ed tuh gak jelas negara nya mana, lahir di Poland, kerja di Turki dan Itali, jajan permen di Jerman Barat, akhir nya pindah kemari. Gak semua orang poland itu susah kan ya?? Sama hal nya Indonesia negara berkembang, gak semua orang Indonesia itu susah kan ya?? Tapi ya begitulah orang kita, suami saya orang poland tapi tinggal di aussie dan saya rasa biasa saja. Beda dengan yang suami nya dari amrik, sekalipun gak tinggal amrik tapi sombong nya luar biasa. Judul nya suami dia dari amrik. Saya agak gimanaaaa gitu sama orang seperti itu. Banyak juga sih orang Indonesia disini yang kalo ngomong itu tinggi sekali, melebihi tinggi badan nya. Baru 1-2 tahun disini pun ngomong nya udah politik, ekonomi, apalah saya gak ngerti. Saya emang gak tertarik sama politik disini. Saya tertarik membangun karir dan meraih pendidikan. Bahkan saya pernah makan di resto Indonesia dan ada grup Indonesia makan disitu juga dan mereka ngomongin pajak dengan suara keras. Seperti nya orang lokal gak sebegitu nya deh, orang lokal mengeluh tentang tinggi nya pajak. Kadang yang baru datang justru melebihi orang lokal nya. Kebiasaan orang Indonesia kalau makan seperti boss itu pun tetap terjadi di resto Indonesia disini. Arti nya setelah makan gak beberes bantuin pelayan nya. Minimal abisin makanan nya dan piring/mangkuk nya di tumpuk dan jangan banyak nyampah tissue di masukin ke mangkok yang masih ada sisa kuah makanan, kan keliatan jijik. Berbeda jika ke restaurant fast food, harus bersihin meja nya sendiri.  Saya lebih suka konsep bersihin bekas makanan nya sendiri setelah selesai makan, karena jika saya sebagai pelayan,saya merasa di hargai jika tamu meninggalkan meja dalam keadaan rapi (piring/mangkuk di tumpuk), tidak banyak sisa makanan, dan tidak banyak sampah. tapi itulah orang kita, terbiasa di manja dan dioerlakukan seperti boss akhir nya ya begitu wkwkwk..

Akhir nya punya mobil sendiri

Hari Rabu minggu kemarin, akhir nya gue lolos tes mengemudi. Agak dag dig juga, karena itu test pertama dan gak yakin bakal lolos pas pertama. Karena kebanyakan pada ngulang tes nya. Gue berusaha nyetir dengan baik dan benar di depan tester nya. Akhir nya gue langsung lolos hari itu juga. Kemudian Ed langsung beli mobil buat gue. Awal nya mau mobil ina itu (banyak lah mau nya) akhir nya pilihan nya jatuh pada Honda Jazz putih susu. Awal nya kan mau mini cooper, VW jetta, toyota yaris, atau honda accord. Tapi setelah pikir ini itu, akhir nya di beliin nya Honda Jazz. Hari Rabu lulus ujian, hari Itu juga Ed bayar mobil nya, hari Kamis mobil siap, tapi karena lain hal, akhir nya mobil nya di jemput hari Jumat. Ed beli mobil seperti beli apaan tau, denger gue lulus langsung nelpon dealer mobil dan langsung di bayar lunas hari itu juga, awal nya kan pikir2 mau ambil kredit gitu, tapi ya puji Tuhan uang nya cukup jadi gak kredit. Registrasi di vicroads, nama dll, di urus dealer. Sebelum jemput mobil udah nelpon asuransi dulu, pas mobil keluar dari dealer langsung masuk asuransi. Asuransi di bayar Ed yang comprehensive buat setahun, dan juga road assistant termasuk towing kalo mobil nya mogok. Ed bener2 cemas lebay gimanaa gitu. Padahal kan gue bisa jadi tukang bengkel darurat kalo terpaksa huehue.. Jadi aja sejak hari Jumat nih kaki gatel, pengen jalan2 mulu. Hari Sabtu di pake ke gereja. Ya gitulah bolak balik ke supermarket mulu, kalo g supermarket ya ke bunnings nyari yg gak ada. Rasa nya lega udah ada mobil jadi kalo apa2 bisa pergi sendiri. Mobil ini lebih gampang daripada mobil Ed. soal nya mobil ini kecil, mobil Ed kan besar. Dia pakai ford falcon. Body nya panjang. Tapi enak nya mobil Ed itu 6 cylinder jadi kalo masuk freeway bisa langsung gas full dan langsung cepet. kalo mobil ini kan 4 cylinder, jadi nya kalo masuk freeway pas di gas full pun rasa nya kayak naik sepeda.

I got partime job and I am happy !

What is the most important? Enjoying the job or counting how much you earn? I perfer enjoying the job. I don't like pressure or doing things i don't like. I don't really care anout how much money i got. I could earn better money but I do this job because i really love it. Doing this job is like doing hobby. Sometimes I felt tired and can't wait to go home then the next day I am really happy to back again. This is just partime job. I still got sick leave, annual leave, insurance, super, etc. but this job is hourly rate. I got wages not salary. Even this job is permanent job. I don't really care if they laugh at me because of my job. I laugh at them because they are too busy counting the money, it signs that they feel insecure finnancially, then they worry about money. Why they feel insecure? Maybe because they don't have a job, only their husband working, not enough money in their account, not enough money to impressed other people, etc. so laugh at me just to make them feel better. I am glad if they feel better after laugh at me. I don't have to be worry about what they worry about. Because for me, money coming and going, today i am wealthy and tomorrow i could be bankrupt. The most important is I been enjoying my life. If next day i am suffer of illness, i knew how does it feel about enjoying life as healthy people. Because once I get sick, money just nothing.

Bolu buat Ed

Dari awal emang niat nya kalo udah punya mobil sendiri mau sering2 belanja ke safeway. Jadilah sejak kemarin ke safeway mulu. Hari ini ke safeway lagi beli daging buat masak semur. Kemudian beli cake mix. Kebetulan lagi diskon, cuma $2. Jadi aja dengan $2 menjadi cake seloyang. Di cake mix nya ada icing, jadilah icing nya saya bikin kreativ. Semoga Ed doyan hahaha.. Ini bikin nya cuma telor, susu, mentega, cake mix lalu di aduk2 dan panggang. Gak pake takeran pula karena gak punya takeran.

Inilah hasil nya, karena agak gimanaaaa gituu jadi nya saya nama in 'Horrible Choco Cake' mungkin lebih bagus di nama in 'Disasters choco love cake for horrible husband' menurut kalian bagus nya dinamain apa? Awful? Disaster? horrible? Tipsy baker? dan sekarang lagi nunggu orang nya pulang karena dia dari luar kota dan dia gak tau kalo saya bikin cake begini.

Waktu berjalan begitu cepat !

Rasa nya baru kemarin saya bersusah payah kesini, baru kemarin saya masih berjalan kaki ke sekolah, dan sibuk mempersiapkan ujian. Dan sekarang semua nya sudah berubah total, mereka yang dulu masih berseragam sekolah kini sudah tumbuh dewasa, sebagian sudah bekerja, sebagian masih study, bahkan sebagian sudah menikah. Tak heran banyak orang yang bahagia kala menunggu reunian, mengenang masa itu, masa di mana sibuk belajar sambil sesekali bermain cinta. Mengenang masa itu dimana saya memulai cinta pertama, menabur senyum bahagia karena cinta pertama, dan akhir nya berlabuh di hati pria eropa yang tiba2 saja datang di hidup ini tanpa rencana namun membawa perubahan sangat besar di hidup saya. Itulah hidup, tak terasa usia saya akan menjadi 22 tahun. Ingat awal kami bertemu, saya pun belum memiliki KTP saat itu. Dibawa ke negara nya di usia 19 dan ternyata kami bertahan, entah sampai kapan kami bertahan tapi sejauh ini kami masih bahagia untuk bersama. Dalam 5 tahun ke depan, pasti ada banyak undangan pernikahan dari teman sekolah dan mereka bukan lagi pelajar, mereka akan menjadi istri dan ibu. Saya sedih, mengapa hidup secepat ini. Inilah hidup, yang terpenting menikmati setiap perubahan.

Memutuskan pindah ke negara lain

Pindah ke negara lain itu bukan urusan mudah, ada banyak dokuments dan syarat yang harus di penuhi, dan semua nya butuh dana. Setelah dokuments, syarat dan dana terpenuhi, berikut nya adalah memantapkan hati ! Ini hal yang rumit, karena bukan hati kamu aja yang harus di mantapkan tapi juga hati orang tua. Tapi tenang aja, gue udah pernah di situasi ini kok ! Pergi meninggalkan keluarga di usia 19 th, bukan untuk study atau berlibur, tapi untuk menikah menikah, pindah nya pun bukan ke kota lain atau kabupaten lain, pindah nya ke negara lain, melintasi samudra, dan beberapa jam di pesawat. Perjalanan panjang ini udah gue lewatin dan ternyata ada pelangi setelah hujan. Perasaan cemas, khawatir, binggung, tak yakin, dan lain nya tentang masa depan pasti ada, curiga dan khawatir tentang suami masa depan pasti juga ada, perasaan takut bikin malu keluarga kalo akhir nya harus pulang karena gagal membina rumah tangga juga ada. Tapi yang menjadi fokus gue saat itu, gue cinta sama Ed, semua perjuangan panjang Ed demi membawa gue kemari, dan semua keseriusan cinta Ed. itu yang mengalahkan segala nya dan akhir nya gue disini. Gue agak kasihan sama Ed, dia udah berkorban mati2an demi gue disini, bukan hanya materi tapi juga support secara emosional. Mengorbankan waktu, tenaga dan emosi demi gue, apa iya gue setega itu memutuskan dia hanya karena kekhawatiran gue. Kecemasan ortu gue terbayar saat Ed ngundang ortu gue buat liburan dan tinggal di rumah kita. Setelah itu ortu gue sangat berubah total. Pertama ibu gue lalu ibu gue mempengaruhi bapak gue dan akhir nya kedua nya bahagia atas keputusan gue buat menetap disini. Setelah gue pindah kesini, banyak lika liku yang gue dan Ed hadapin, kita beda budaya, beda bahasa, beda kepercayaan (Ed gak punya agama dan gue beragama), beda makanan, dan cuaca disini berbeda dengan cuaca di Indo. Otomatis perasaan kangen rumah itu ada, kangen masakan ibu, kangen suasana rumah, dll. Pernah terpikir untuk kembali ke Indo karena gue putus harapan untuk belajar bahasa sini, tapi akhir nya dengan dukungan dari Ed, akhirnya gue berhasil belajar bahasa inggris sendiri lewat tv, koran dan radio. Hingga akhir nya sekarang gue selesai study dan kerja. Itu udah gue lewatin, bertengkar, adu mulut dengan Ed, dan beda kebiasaan, dll itu udah tinggal kenangan. Gue dan Ed sekarang lebih tolerant satu sama lain. Menerima orang yang berbeda untuk tinggal serumah itu gak mudah, butuh proses, ada pertengkaran batin dan fisik, namun di akhir always acceptance. Ini merupakan bagian dari proses perubahan di kehidupan.

Our new family member !

So yesterday we got new family member, his name is sammy. I called it Sammy. He is very hard worker, he loves vacumming around my house, going under the bed, and go back to his home if he feels tired, i love him so much. Yesterday he cleaned  the whole house, then this morning he started work again even i still on the bed. So when i woke up, the floors will be clean. I am glad to have him here. This was part if my dream to stop cleaning the house and let someone or robot to clean the house. Yesterday Ed bought me a robotic vacum cleaner. So this lazy wife can lying on the bed and sammy clean the house. Sammy hates cords, so make sure all cords not laying on the floors especially if it is thin cords because it could make him stuck. He could walk from carpet to hard floors, in my living room i have carpet and hard floors, and sammy could go up to the carpet then go down to the hard floors by him self. So having sammy at home not just clean your house, it also save your time and energy, especially for busy couple like me an my husband. I work for almost 50 hours/week and my husband work for almost 45 hours/week. What we want when come back home is to sit, relax, and enjoy quality time. Not cleaning the house or being stressed because house dirty. I don't have to be worry about recharge him because he will back to his home (where he do recharging) by him self once the job done and he feel tired. He could run without stopping for over an hour, it took him 2-3 hours to fully recharge. He does not need a bag to collect dirt, he got dirt container. When it's full, me or my husband could easily empty that without any drama. So next is we need flying sammy to clean all the horizontal surface (tables, chairs, etc) around the house. We look forward to see it Samsung !

Count your bless and be grateful!

People looked at me and get jelous, just because i am young, living in civilised country, got respected job, got houses, husband, lot of money, etc. they are old, still got mortgage to pay, still have to work hard, not enough money and they just not happy with them self. The truth is, they been in my age, they were enjoying their young age with friends, etc, and i am losing that chance, i can't having fun at the club, traveling with girlfriends, have giggles with family and friends and i not worry about it because this is my choice to be here and work hard. Those people already half of the century or over and they still alive and healthy, and still have a chance to enjoying this beautiful world. And i am just 21 (going to be 22 in July) and i don't know whether i will still healthy and alive to live for half of century. I don't even know whether i will be wealthy or poor when i get into their age. As i said before, money coming and going, life is up and down. Even i try to preserve money, but anything can happen. Anything can happen to my life, i could get hit by car when i walking, or trees fall on me, or whatever who drive me to become disabled or die. So what's better things i can do to make my life more pleasant except be grateful for what i got and enjoy what's today, forgive about yesterday, and let tomorrow be as it is. Even i try so hard to make tomorrow a better day, but if i can't just can't. Not going to be stressful about that, it will pass anyway and become a history. When i getting old, i could be living under the bridge, feeling cold in winter, husband will pass away, i will be lonely, living by my self, etc. so be grateful that you been living for that long and your day almost finish. Because i don't know how long i have to fight for life, my journey could be long way or short way which means that my life not long as you are. So what's better than be grateful of what you have, count your age as a bless !

Bekerja karena pilihan

Sayah gemasss sekali kalo denger 'orang kaya mah gak usah kerja' apakah kerja itu karena miskin? Tuh banyak pengganguran gak kerja, di gaji pemerintah. Penghasilan saya seminggu sama dengan penghasilan mereka sebulan. Sayah kerja karena saya suka kerja. Apalagi kalo liat wanita2 indo yg nikah dengan pria barat, awal ny kerja, gara2 nikah sama org barat langsung resign. Banyak juga sih yg gara2 nikah sama orang lokal langsung resign juga. Yah hidup itu pilihan dan masing2 orang punya jalan nya sendiri. Kalo saya pribadi sih sekaya apapun suami saya, saya harus kerja, harus mandiri, punya harga diri di mata keluarga suami, di mata suami, dan di keluarga saya. Sama2 cari nafkah, urus rumah sama2. Banyak loh wanita2 indo yg saya kenal disini hanya mengharapkan uang dari suami. Diem2 ngumpulin sisa uang belanja demi dikirim ke keluarga di indo. Menurut saya hal ini nggak banget ! Bukan hanya orang indo aja sih yg begini, orang philipina juga banyak yg seperti orang kita. Saya masih bisa memaklumi jika wanita tidak bekerja karena ada bayi. Tapi kalo anak udah 2 atau 3 tahun ke atas dan bilang gak kerja karena ada anak, duhh kasihan anak nya di jadikan alasan. Lagian kerja kan gak harus terpisah dari anak dan keluar rumah. Bisa juga kerja online di rumah bersama anak. Nah hari ini kita ada argument dengan Ed karena saya terlalu sibuk kerja. Dan pilihan saya buat Ed yaitu cari wanita lain yang siap duduk manja di rumah, nurut kata suami, mengandalkan uang dari suami,atau bertahan dengan saya, wanita yang sibuk kerja, tidak nurut kata suami, tidak nuntut apapun dari dia. Bisa dibilang kalo saya itu susah di atur dan punya ambisi untuk maju. Dan Ed pun akhir ny mikir dan memilih bertahan dengan saya. Kadang binggung juga sih sama wanita2 tidak bekerja dan merasa aman karena suami kerja. Gak kebayang jika suami nya meninggal atau selingkuh bagaimana nasib dia dan anak nya nanti. Disisi lain, saya membiasakan Ed untuk hidup mandiri jika suatu saat saya gak ada. Ed terbiasa buat jemur baju, masak, nyuci piring, bersihin kaca, belanja bulanan, etc. jadi sebenarnya Ed bisa hidup tanpa saya dan saya bisa hidup tanpa Ed. tapi kita bersama karena pilihan bukan karena  paksaan.

I am sick of them !

I do love this blog, as i can tell whatever in my heart and brain without someone distrub me. So now i am really frustrated about people around me. I am on process to study at uni. My options, either nursing and midwifery or faculty of medicine. I want to get there, not because i want prestige or make good money. I want to get there because i want to have good skill so i can be useful to other people. Too many smart people but their goal just prestige and money, all about them self. And i am really sick of this. I want people who are physically or mentally sick to get good treatment from good doctor or nurse who do the job because of the goodness of their heart. Too many people have high qualifications but not so many of them have a good heart. Bless them ! Anyway, my husband not really supportive about my study at uni. First he knews that it takes time, and he already planned to retire by the end of 2017. He doesn't want me to be busy with study and working, he wants me to give all attention to him. I am too young to just spending time with husband, i still have long life ahead of me. So he try to be nasty by try to shut me down. He already complaining about me busy working. I knew that i don't need to work,  he got enough money for me untill i die, we got houses, farm, etc. but again ! What i want is fullfilled life, not fullfilled pocket with heaps of money. Because money coming and going. But good skills with good heart will stay forever with me. He will laugh if I say about good heart. For him, i don't have a good heart. Whatever i did for him just not enough. So he said that i won't study at uni because i got broken english. I got broken english but i got spirit to study hard. What's the point of born in english speaking country and english speaking family, but don't have spirit for study? Prefer to have drugs and alcohol, instead of study. I not asking much from him, i just want him to not judge about my ability to study just because of my english not perfect. God bless him ! Living in foreign country, where i have to fight by my self, family and friends wasn't really supportive at all before i moved here. They were laughing at me when i told them that i want to move to here once i finished year 12. But you know what? I moved here before i graduated ! A soon as i knew that i already passed all exams, I straight away came here. So i made it and now i laugh at them LOL. Now just an other stage that i want to go ahead with a bit of bumps from husband and people around me. But will see what happen next ! 

Stop bullshitting !

I acknowledge that the job which i am doing (a carer), everyone could become a carer if they are caring about other people. You don't have to be extremely smart or have high intellectual. That's also not really important job, that's not about someone could die to live without carer because their family or friends who care about them and have enough time to look after them could became their carer. But carer could take a very important role in someone life, mainly for those who being forgotten by their families, they need warm feeling of care and love, that's when carer take important role in someone else life, when carer developed some emotional bonds with their client (without crossing the boundaries). In my opinion, why some carers feel like they are VIP, when i said that carers more like baby sitting but the different is we look after adult or elderly, then they feel offended, then try to attack me with what ever knowledge they got from their experience as a carer, which sometimes just over the top. In my opinion, why i have to do job which suppouse to be done by nurse or doctor? Just because they are longer than me in this industry so they could taking nurse or doctor roles? It's pretty silly what they did, it also cross the boundaries, don't get me wrong, i am not going to say that carers don't have enough knowledge to decided what to do to the health issues of the client, but that's not carer job ! We learn only about personal needs, we just study for 6 months. I don't know in detail or specific things about body, how medications could work, how medications could affect someone, what going to happen next, etc. i not touch clients wounds, even it just replacing the dressing, etc. I would ask them to call nurse or i call nurse. Never taking risk of someone else life. Yesterday i work for an elderly woman who just came back from hospital and became paraplegic, she got pressure wound, and yesterday the dressing a bit came off. Some carer could just leave it, but i ask her to call nurse. I knew that i could just leave it, she won't realise anyway. But if i just leave it, i am worry that she could get infection. With a bit if drama yesterday, as she and her husband got really anxious, up set, and worried what going to happen, as i ask them to call nurse, so it was not smooth yesterday. Even i knew that i could make it smooth by not telling them anything about that. Oh, other who feel that they have enough experience then could probably decided to replace the dressing by them self, then i don't know what going to happen next. If you are carer and you feel VIP, that's fine but please remember that you get paid for your caring skill, don't pretend to be a nurse or doctor, unless you done your study.

Paid to be healthy and paid to sit and watch

I work in few places with different role. Overnight i work as a personal carer it's 8 hours work and my job just watching my client a sleep, check his urine bag, catheter, his body temperature, feed him with breakfast, and observe him if anything change or strange. so it's not a work out work, mainly just sitting in his room and watch tv (at the same time, watching him) and ridiculously i got paid for that. Then i finish that work at 7 am in the morning, then 8.30 am to 2 pm i work at the golf course, that's my work out time. When i will running around, be quick for the guess, be witty with the things i am doing, lifting and pushing stuff, and running from one place to an other place, at the same time i got paid. That's why i don't want to drop any job because they keep me alive and healthy. I have a sleep at 3 pm till 6 or 7 pm at home, woke up for dinner then sleep again till 10 pm, then go to work by 10.30 pm. I reall enjoy working, it keep me busy and i feel useful as well.

Superfoods

Health is part of my investment. Due to work commitment, sometimes i work for 12 hours/day, over night, also physical work. I don't want to refuse work from my employer as i want to show my strong work commitment, even they knew that i got strong commitment. I try to eat a lot of fruit and vegies but i feel that's not enough. So i decided to have some vitamins or superfoods. I used to have spirulina capsules or colostrum capsules when i was in my country, but since i moved to here, i just could not be bothered to have any vitamins. I got few bottles of vitamins, but i always busy and forgot to have them untill they are expired. I also got few alergics or bad reactions to few vitamins. So i decided to not have any of them. I always vomit everytime i took calcium magnesium in capsules, i also got alergic reaction if my body got too much protein. So i have to watch out what kind of food or diet i take, cause it could my skin itcy and burn. For the last few months, i feel really weak, powerless, shaking during working, so my workmate told me to eat a lot of spinach to get a lot of iron to make me stronger. But with my hectic life, i don't even have time to eat breakfast, or do cooking all time. So i think, the best way for me is if i could take superfoods in capsules. Last Friday, we went to the chemist and i decided to bought spirulina. Great source of iron, protein, beta carotene, also a bit of calcium. I don't want to mix up these things with other superfoods. At the moment, i just taking spirulina. Once this one finish, i am going to change to other vitamins, then back again to spirulina then change again. I also control my diet (how much protein i take) now because i am taking this things.

Easy peasy stir fry vermicelli

In my opinion vermicelli more healthy than noodle. So last night i cook 15 minutes ready stir fry vermicelli.

Material :

Vermicelli

Sliced chicken fillet (or tofu)

Few eggs

chopped cabbage (any vegies)

2 tbs of fish sauce

A bit of salt and peper

1 tbs of sweet soy sauce

2 tbs of oil

Steps :

1. Soaked vermicelli in water and while waiting, we could prepare other ingredients

2. Cut chicken fillet (cubed or slice), chopped cabbage or any vegies. Wash all together.

3. Put 2 tbs of oil to the pan or wok or pot. Heat the oil, put the eggs.

4. Wait untill the eggs half cooked, then smashed the eggs like scrambled, put vegies and chicken then stir. Wait untill all cooked. Then put fish sauce, sweet soy sauce, salt and peper. Mix/ stir all together.

5. Drain vermicelli from the water, mix together with chicken and vegies, cook and stir together untill all cooked.

6. Dinner ready !

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Even if i am sick, i will try to avoid pills. I hate pills, i am really concerns about looking after my health. I try to feed my self and my husband with fresh food ( we avoid marinated meat from shop, and frozen stuff). Hubby loves pizza, marinated meat, frozen veggies, etc. i feel scared when i think about what is inside those stuff. I try to change his lifestyle. I work in disability and aged care industry. So many people got terminal illness. Which in my stupid opinion (i call it stupid opinion because my husband never listen to my opinion, also you don't need higher degree to understand this), that must be something wrong with their lifestyle, food, also environment. I don't think that illness just suddenly came from the sky just because bad luck (my husband believed in this). You know why the whole family could get same illness from time to time? In my opinion that must be because they got same food, same lifestyle, same environment. Who going to reject food ready on the table or food ready to eat cooked or prepared by mum? Who going to woke up early and have a run or excercise by them self? Unless mum or dad have a run in the morning and kids have run with them. Who going to decided that their environment not good for their health then decided to move to new place? No one, unless mum or dad decided, if mum or dad not decided to move, they have to live like that for over 15 years, untill they understand or realise and able to support them self to live independently. My husband's ex wife got terminal illness, so it's a bit sensitive to talk about this with him, as he believes that his ex wife was looking after her health very well but she just got it because bad luck and untill now, they still love to go to pizza shop, go to kfc or maccas. So yeah, don't blame me if i say that it must be something wrong with what you put to your body. But again, people who have terminal illness, mainly they don't want to fight against their illness, they just let it go and happen, Full stop ! They like 'oh well i got it, i don't care what i put to my body now, i will die anyway, it won't heal, it's too late to back to healthy lifestyle, etc' like my workmate they always having cigarettes and always saying like ' too late to stop, no point to have healthy food' at the end they say 'we will die anyway'. I look after my health not because i want to live forever. I just want to be healthy and die in smooth way without being sick for many years, without having life limitations for many years, etc. i just want to be independent and healthy untill almost the very end of my life. One of my dream is to die when i sleep. Just suddenly die, not because i sick, but because i have to die.

Trip to Sydney

We travel to Sydney by train (day trip, around 12 hours), they got toilet and cafe onboard, we bought lunch from the cafe. We arrived at late evening, almost night. I am really surprised how busy they are. We were walking from the station to the hotel. It's not so far, we stay on the side of Darling Harbour, so it's good. So close to attractions, restaurants, shops, etc.

Above : view from our window. It looks like a game in SimCity LOL. The busiest city in Australia.

On the first day, we just walked around darling harbour, having dinner at Thai Restaurant, oh yes, we were so spoiled over there, we ate seafood tom yum, seafood pad thai, also sticky rice with coconut milk and durian. Then we went back to our hotel and relax at our room. Woke up the next day, went for breakfast at our hotel, they got $15/pp for buffet  breakfast (chicken sausage, hash browns, beacon, boiled eggs, scrambled egg, pancakes, rice porridge, oats porridge, mixed fruits, mixed muffins, juices, coffee, tea, etc). After that we walked to Opera House and Harbour Bridge, as usual as a tourist, we always get lost! First i felt a bit strange why not so many people, the road so quiet, only building made out of big rock around. Finally we arrived at Sydney Opera. So many tourists, we didn't watch any opera, we just went there to see the building, end up with sitting on the step, following what other tourists doing. Then we went to see Royal Botanical Garden. I love it! With so many sculptures and fountains. It's really interesting those sculptures. Their palm garden just feel like back to my country, i felt like i am in tropical place, i saw banana trees too with pink bananas.

Pink bananas, just wonder how does it tastes. smell like banana but taste like flowers, or smell like sweet flowers and taste like banana. We also went to their fernery, so tranquil to sit and relax over there. Then we walked to see Harbour Bridge, i was about to climb but hubby got phobia of height. And to climb that bridge, the price a bit pricey (aroud $250-$270) i can not remember exactly, I understand that those things are for insurance, company, tour guide, and safety equipment. So we just walked along the bridge. Then we went back to our hotel, having lunch at japanese restaurant, bought some sushi and ala carte. Slept till next day, we couldn't even be bothered to eat dinner. Next day we went to westfield shopping centre. Which i just realized how close our hotel to the big shopping centre, having breakfast at Japanese restaurant then had a walk to see big fountain near Cathedral, had a sit, watching people coming and going, then walked again to botanical garden to see Mrs Macquaire's chair. Walked back to the hotel, had a sleep. Woke up in the morning, had breakfast at Chinese restaurant, had some pork buns, fried prawn wonton and wonton soup. Then we went to observatory deck then i had sky walk, it's just walking on the glass, on the top of highest building in Sydney, i could see many things around the building during sky walk, i could see airport, Royal botanical garden, opera house, anzac bridge, harbour bridge, blue mountain, botany bay, etc from that building. I got few pictures that i was jumping on the glass LOL.

I got a job !

So yeah, one week after i graduated. Straight away got a job. I am pretty happy. What a great start. I was promoting my self as a fresh graduate. I applied in many aged care and hacc agency. Then suddenly, yesterday morning i got a call for interview and the agency gave me a job. So last night i started working. The rates also better than aged care. What's better than do what i love, in the same time i got money.  The whole plan just changed. We suppoused to go to the farm this Thursday, but we decided to delay it untill tonight. At the moment i don't have a car, so hubby going to help me with travel untill next month. I am going to buy a car next month, then i can drive wherever i want. I was a bit worried before because i thought it will be difficult to get the job in this industry. I was thinking if i don't get the job asap, people will put questions mark on me. Such as why you been graduated from long time but you not working, did you do fatal mistake, etc. even yesterday, when they interviewed me, they were asking where i did my placement, etc. so i had to tell that my placement place full staff at the moment but i keep coming to have a chat with residents, etc. so well done, i got a job and experience, later on it will be easier for me to looking for work at an other place once i got experience. I am a bit nervous, as i don't have a lot of experience, but i still learning new things, keep coming to aged care where i did my placement and have a discussion with staff over there if i am a bit confused with my job at hacc. I got a job for public holidays, so it's great. Today and tomorrow as well before i go to Sydney, then after i back from Sydney, i will have meeting with new client, agency going to put me with new client. That job going to be over night, that's not a sleep night ! That's active night where i have to look after him while he is a sleep, monitoring his respiration system, sleep pattern, movement, also medications in the early morning. I need something to keep my eyes and brain on ! Some soft drink? Lolies? I don't like coffee. I need some sugar to keep me active. Tonight, after i finish work at 9 pm, we will go to the farm (yes 4 hours drive). We will arrive at 1 am, then wake up on Saturday morning, pack up the stuff at the shed, leaving the farm at 2 or 3 pm, arrive at Melbourne at 6 or 7 pm then i go to work again. Back home, pack up for trip to Sydney then wake up at 5 am on Sunday morning, go to southern cross station, then train leave Melbourne at 7 or 8 am. So hopefully i will be fine. Have a great easter everyone !

Planning to go to sydney

So we are going to Sydney for couple of days next week. I just bought the ticket few days ago. We will go there by train (XPT) from southern cross station melbourne and go straight to Sydney centre. It will be challenging for us, i am pretty sure our knee going to be stiff. They got cafe, toilet, and any other things for us in the train. So hopefully, we can have a walk in the train. Then i also booked accomodation few days ago, we are going to stay at hotel on side of Sydney Harbour. I really hope to have a nice view from our room. This trip just happen suddenly. We were talking about this trip before, but hubby always busy working. So when i had free time infront of my computer, i did research about this things and i found discounted train ticket and accomodation. I booked them (i didn't pay straight away) then when hubby came back home, we had discussions. Hubby agreed with the date and trip. So he paid the ticket to the post office and paid the accomodation by credit card. During our trip there, the weather going to be wet. So i will prepare some rain coat, umbrella, waterproof shoes or thongs, also some jumpers. Booking the train ticket was so easy without any dramas, i went to XPT website, then i booked the ticket. I booked the hotel from booking.com it was fantastic, we got 45% discount at 4.5 star hotel on the side of sydney harbour. So really looking forward for romantic gateway with hubby. Accomodation sent us some guide/things to do in Sydney, about what's on in Sydney, place to eat in Sydney (we have an option from cheap and tasty up to expensive one) I am not really interested to see opera house. I want to see some occasionals event which happen in Sydney. Hubby really excited about this trip as this trip going to be his first interstate trip by train. He always travel by plane to an other state. We hope to see beautiful view from the train, any kangaroos jumping, highcountry view, etc. so for the trip, we will depart on Sunday morning, arrive at Sydney on Suday night. Then we will be leaving Sydney on Wednesday night, arrive at Melbourne on Thursday morning. So yeah, i remember few years back, at the end of March Ed went to my country for special visit, he stayed at my home town, and that night was memorable for us, i can not tell in here because a lot of private stuff involved. I am pretty sure, this shortbreak trip going to refresh, renew, our marriage life. So schooo holiday start next week, and we going to taking advantage of that holiday. Hope i can write soon about the trip.