I got a job !

So yeah, one week after i graduated. Straight away got a job. I am pretty happy. What a great start. I was promoting my self as a fresh graduate. I applied in many aged care and hacc agency. Then suddenly, yesterday morning i got a call for interview and the agency gave me a job. So last night i started working. The rates also better than aged care. What's better than do what i love, in the same time i got money.  The whole plan just changed. We suppoused to go to the farm this Thursday, but we decided to delay it untill tonight. At the moment i don't have a car, so hubby going to help me with travel untill next month. I am going to buy a car next month, then i can drive wherever i want. I was a bit worried before because i thought it will be difficult to get the job in this industry. I was thinking if i don't get the job asap, people will put questions mark on me. Such as why you been graduated from long time but you not working, did you do fatal mistake, etc. even yesterday, when they interviewed me, they were asking where i did my placement, etc. so i had to tell that my placement place full staff at the moment but i keep coming to have a chat with residents, etc. so well done, i got a job and experience, later on it will be easier for me to looking for work at an other place once i got experience. I am a bit nervous, as i don't have a lot of experience, but i still learning new things, keep coming to aged care where i did my placement and have a discussion with staff over there if i am a bit confused with my job at hacc. I got a job for public holidays, so it's great. Today and tomorrow as well before i go to Sydney, then after i back from Sydney, i will have meeting with new client, agency going to put me with new client. That job going to be over night, that's not a sleep night ! That's active night where i have to look after him while he is a sleep, monitoring his respiration system, sleep pattern, movement, also medications in the early morning. I need something to keep my eyes and brain on ! Some soft drink? Lolies? I don't like coffee. I need some sugar to keep me active. Tonight, after i finish work at 9 pm, we will go to the farm (yes 4 hours drive). We will arrive at 1 am, then wake up on Saturday morning, pack up the stuff at the shed, leaving the farm at 2 or 3 pm, arrive at Melbourne at 6 or 7 pm then i go to work again. Back home, pack up for trip to Sydney then wake up at 5 am on Sunday morning, go to southern cross station, then train leave Melbourne at 7 or 8 am. So hopefully i will be fine. Have a great easter everyone !

Planning to go to sydney

So we are going to Sydney for couple of days next week. I just bought the ticket few days ago. We will go there by train (XPT) from southern cross station melbourne and go straight to Sydney centre. It will be challenging for us, i am pretty sure our knee going to be stiff. They got cafe, toilet, and any other things for us in the train. So hopefully, we can have a walk in the train. Then i also booked accomodation few days ago, we are going to stay at hotel on side of Sydney Harbour. I really hope to have a nice view from our room. This trip just happen suddenly. We were talking about this trip before, but hubby always busy working. So when i had free time infront of my computer, i did research about this things and i found discounted train ticket and accomodation. I booked them (i didn't pay straight away) then when hubby came back home, we had discussions. Hubby agreed with the date and trip. So he paid the ticket to the post office and paid the accomodation by credit card. During our trip there, the weather going to be wet. So i will prepare some rain coat, umbrella, waterproof shoes or thongs, also some jumpers. Booking the train ticket was so easy without any dramas, i went to XPT website, then i booked the ticket. I booked the hotel from booking.com it was fantastic, we got 45% discount at 4.5 star hotel on the side of sydney harbour. So really looking forward for romantic gateway with hubby. Accomodation sent us some guide/things to do in Sydney, about what's on in Sydney, place to eat in Sydney (we have an option from cheap and tasty up to expensive one) I am not really interested to see opera house. I want to see some occasionals event which happen in Sydney. Hubby really excited about this trip as this trip going to be his first interstate trip by train. He always travel by plane to an other state. We hope to see beautiful view from the train, any kangaroos jumping, highcountry view, etc. so for the trip, we will depart on Sunday morning, arrive at Sydney on Suday night. Then we will be leaving Sydney on Wednesday night, arrive at Melbourne on Thursday morning. So yeah, i remember few years back, at the end of March Ed went to my country for special visit, he stayed at my home town, and that night was memorable for us, i can not tell in here because a lot of private stuff involved. I am pretty sure, this shortbreak trip going to refresh, renew, our marriage life. So schooo holiday start next week, and we going to taking advantage of that holiday. Hope i can write soon about the trip.

Never walk away, always go to the end

I learnt a lot from my relationship with my husband. Heaps of people around us not agree about our relationship. As we have huge age different. But what are we looking in relationship? I am looking for hapiness, a man who going to lead me in to success by motivate me, support me, encourage me to go ahead, also a man who always protect me and spoiled me, treat me like a princess. I got all of these from him. He always support me and keep my mind positive. It was not easy to finish my year 12, as hundreds of students bullied me. I was up set, withdrawn my self from the society, i just wanted to stay at home, i didn't want to go to school, i was scared, embarassed, worry, every negative things was in my head. My dad was not support me at all, he was not agree with my relationship, my mom just told me to be patient. Then i woke up next morning, i went to the chapel, i had a private meeting with the principal about what i have to do ( i have close relationship with principal ) my husband was in aussie and i was overseas. Students coordinator was not really support me, teachers was gossiping about me. So yes, my husband told me 'keep going and don't ever let them to put you down, show them that you not scared, you not affected by what they did ' even my heart was crying, i kept go to school and smiling and pretending that nothing going on. What i learnt from that experience that no one can stop me unless i stop by my self. On my way to reach my goal in aussie, also not smooth at all. With a bit of bum, but i enjoy it. It makes me stronger. It is just like climbing the mountain, before you climb the mountain you need map, climbing gear, probably guide, a food and water, tent, torch, any other gear to take you to the highest part of that mountain. I prepared those things (my mental, educations, good relations with people who already in this industry) so now i just have to go ahead and keep climbing. If i am tired, i could have a break in the middle, then continue again. It is amazing to enjoy every moment in life, never say that you are unlucky. Always say how lucky you are, always remember beautifull memories which you spent with families and friends. There are always people who hate you, try to stop you, try to put you down. But remember, you are the boss of your self not them. Probably one day you become their boss if you could get higher level of education and higher work position. Always be nice to everyone, even they hurt you, or you have better education and work position, because you just never know. It is better to put your self on safety than put your self on danger. If you keep nice, more people will love you, support you, keep you away from nasty peope or traps. If you being nasty in purpose, more people will hate you, once they hate you, you never know what some sort of weapons or traps they going to do to you.

Greek yoghurt and oats

I could become a scientist or beautician, if you know how good i am in making beauty products made by natural ingredients from the fridge and cup board in the kitchen. So after a while, i getting sick with beauty products from the shop. Well i try to reduce the amount of beauty products from the shops as they are full of chemical, i mean i am looking for organic stuff for my young skin. I try to look after my skin, as health is part of my investment. So why i not save the money and use whatever i have in the kitchen for beauty treatment? As you know that the price of beauty products from the shops they not so cheap. So i could save the pennies for my finance investment. This home made face mask really easy to make, cheap, also could reduce the wrinkles as it really moisture my skin. Usually after i use face mask from the shop, i should spray special water (water imported from France specially made for skin) or use some face moisturiser. As i can feel that my skin so tight. So yeah, i done this experiment on my skin and i can see the result. This things also can be use for all over the body, as a face mask or scrub. Whatever you want, this is very beneficial to the skin. After done this treatment, you don't need any moisturiser or spray special water. So it's pretty good to be use at night (before sleep) so you don't have to use any night cream at all. I would love to share my beauty receipe to you :

Material :

3 spoon of plain greek yoghurt or any yoghurt you could get cheaply or free

1 handful of oats (any cheap oats)

Method :

1. Put the oats in blender or any food processing, probably you could use mortar and pestle to make it become powder.

2. Put that powdery oats to the yoghurt. Stir them well (use spoon, fork, or any cutlery)

3. Leave them for 15 minutes.

How to use :

1. Clean the face with warm water or wipe the face with warm towel.

2. Tide back all hair, as this mask going to be sticky.

3. Apply this mask use finger or mask brush.

4. Leave it till dry.

5. Once it is dry, clean the face with warm water or wipe it with wet warm towel, untill no mask left. Then wash the face with cold water.

Tips : use warm water to open the pores and clean the pores, always use cold water at the end to close the pores.

You can use this things as many as you want. I used to put honey, but obviously i hate when honey stick on my skin. Also don't forget to drink enough water, and healthy lifestyle. Since i do this things, i not use any face moisturiser unless when i am going out during the day, always put sunscreen on and no powder or foundation at all. Let your skin to breath and keep them free and healthy.

Devonshire tea without scone please

Once upon a time, there was a Polish man just landed from Itali in Australia. He went with his friends to the garden show, they ordered devonshire tea. On their mind, devonshire tea is just a cup of tea. But the tea girl not just came with tea, she also came with scone filled with cream and jam. Then he said to the tea girl 'we not order this cake, this must be wrong order' tea girl was confused. Polish man kept saying 'we only order devonshire tea' oh well, it was so memorable for my husband. He just told me this story few weeks ago. First time i went for devonshire tea, i also confused why they gave us scone. My husband told me that it's part of the package. Devonshire tea means tea with scone, cream and jam. I think devonshire tea only popular in Australia. In europe that was not popular in that time, but possibly that idea of tea with scone came from England as many people in Australia came from England. I just realized how good that idea of tea with scone, it so nice and enjoyable. While we can have a cuppa, eat sweet snacks and have a chat in the same time. Back in my country, we also love to have cuppa (of course sweet one without milk) and a bit of cake or savoury snack even eat rice with cuppa. Do you love devonshire tea? When first time did you have it? I would love to hear your stories ❤️❤️

Graduation Day

So i graduated today. We had a party, yes they gave us a lot of pizza. Everyone also bring their own plate. This is not a big graduate like uni. But quiet an archivement for me to finish this things. We had a lot of pictures taken, we been together for 6 months. I will miss the place, the class, class mate, also our fabulous trainer. Oh well, i will have a meeting with the trainer on Friday. So i just have to finish my placement book, case study and more hours on placememt to give me more confidence in the future. Few students already got a job from their placement place, and some still doing placement and I am still don't know what to do. My class mate told me to looking for work straight away, not to waste my time. But again, i am scared to involve in job straight away if i not sure what to do. Well i know what to do, but i could do mistake if i do things unsupervised. Anyone could make mistake, even doctor still can make mistake or malpractice. But today so memorable for me. We were wearing graduation hat things. It was funny. I brought thai curry from the shop, an other indian class mate brought basmati rice cook with spices ( it was sooo yummy ), she also brought spring rolls, an other aussie class mate brought spinach and fetta quiche, an other brought few liters of soft drinks, an other brought apple crumble and custard, an other brought rolled chocolate cake with cream, also don't forget heaps of pizza from the training provider. So i was pretty full, my tummy filled with indian rice, spring rolls, pizza, coke, lemonade, quiche, apple crumble, also choc cake with heaps of creme. We had a lot of chat and stories to tell and share. Tomorrow i should check the their page because they will post our pics over there and hopefully i look all right.

Graduation Day

So i graduated today. We had a party, yes they gave us a lot of pizza. Everyone also bring their own plate. This is not a big graduate like uni. But quiet an archivement for me to finish this things. We had a lot of pictures taken, we been together for 6 months. I will miss the place, the class, class mate, also our fabulous trainer. Oh well, i will have a meeting with the trainer on Friday. So i just have to finish my placement book, case study and more hours on placememt to give me more confidence in the future. Few students already got a job from their placement place, and some still doing placement and I am still don't know what to do. My class mate told me to looking for work straight away, not to waste my time. But again, i am scared to involve in job straight away if i not sure what to do. Well i know what to do, but i could do mistake if i do things unsupervised. Anyone could make mistake, even doctor still can make mistake or malpractice. But today so memorable for me. We were wearing graduation hat things. It was funny. I brought thai curry from the shop, an other indian class mate brought basmati rice cook with spices ( it was sooo yummy ), she also brought spring rolls, an other aussie class mate brought spinach and fetta quiche, an other brought few liters of soft drinks, an other brought apple crumble and custard, an other brought rolled chocolate cake with cream, also don't forget heaps of pizza from the training provider. So i was pretty full, my tummy filled with indian rice, spring rolls, pizza, coke, lemonade, quiche, apple crumble, also choc cake with heaps of creme. We had a lot of chat and stories to tell and share. Tomorrow i should check the their page because they will post our pics over there and hopefully i look all right.

How my parents tought me

I used to study at private catholic school since kindergarten up to year 12 in the same school. So i always surrounded by same friends, same enviroment, same people, same standard. Now it is really affect me, i hate to start new things in new enviroment, with new people, with different policy and procedures. Then my parents always told me to be number one, when i was at elementary school i didn't have passion to be number one, i could not careless. But when i started high school, it was year 7. I had a compassion to be number one, i was study hard, woke up at 3 or 4 am to preparing the test. Now, i love study. I prefer to study than working. I feel more satisfied when i get higher level of education than get better money. I feel i am on the better class when i get higher level of education. Luckly i got a good husband with good money, how lucky i am. I don't have to be worry about money, i can follow my dreams and do my study. I am quiet dissapointed than i am almost 22 y.o and i am not a bachelor or post graduate. I feel like i am looser, useless, unvaluable, etc. so my goal is when i turn 30, i should become somethin important ( i mean get an important job ) i know that people will look at me like an idiot. Of course they will look at me like an idiot, because i just migrated to Australia around 2.5 years ago, my english still not perfect, and i finished my year 12 in my country. I believe if we have courage and compassion to learn, we will reach our education goal. It is not the matter of lucky or unlucky, it's the matter of study hard. Study and practice make it perfect. Some young Australian, they have a chance to study with help from goverment funds, but why not all of them become a bachelor, postgradute, etc? Some of them, not even reach year 12. So if people look at me like an idiot with a big dream, they should think again.

Deciding where to go

On my way to success, i have to walk passing intersection. Deciding where i should turn, left or right. It is a hard decision as it is going to affect my life either now or later. So i have to be mindful to decide which way i want to go.  So the choices are go ahead with my trainer, become a visitor at my previous placement place as i really love the residents, or looking for job in my area. It is not easy, i am really worried and anxious. Some people said 'don't waste your time, you should apply for job asap', my trainer said 'you can work at my place' my placement place not said anything. Oh well, obviously my previous placement place got heaps of PCA, my trainer place just too far from home, and i still not confidence to looking for job in my area. So what should i do? Any advice? I am on intersection, i should pick which way i want to go. I don't want to ask any job from my previous placement place as it is not a nice feeling for me and management if i really showing that i want a job, because i want to keep visiting residents everyweek. While in an other hand, i need professional experience in aged care industry as i want to go ahead with my goal to get the highest qualifications in aged care industry, in the same time i want to develop my network so in the future i will have more power to make a big difference in elderly life. So what I suppose to do? I will not stop visiting my second nana and pop at my previous placement place, they are my family now. I been develop some bonds with them. I don't want to start develop some bonds again with other residents at an other aged care. So i am really struggling in pick which way. I think better i wait untill i finish my study around this week. Then i can decide.

They touch my heart, just like first love

I would say that my first time to went to aged care, helping them with dressing, shower, feeding, walking together, have a chat with them, those things are irreplacable, i love them, they touch my heart. on Friday, i went to an other aged care to do an other training, i don't have any strong feeling of love at all to the place and residents at that other aged care. My heart still at my first aged care where i started my placement. A lot of memories, a lot of history which i will never forget, a lot of laugh and chat. Oh God, i miss them. If you ever know the feeling of first love, it is like that. Second love, third love, fourth love, etc not as memorable as first love. I really hope to see them again, to have a chat again, to have a laugh again, have a kiss and hug again, have a tears again, hold their hands again, sit next to them again. I had bad memory with the staff and managment, as they not really support me at all. I was agitated, i was confused, i was struggling to learn. But i love the residents. It is the feeling which i never forget, the feeling of love, feeling of something which make sad but at the same time i feel warm. I don't know how to explain it, but it is something which touching my heart. When resident had a cry, i try to make her calm down, remind her about her bless, how lucky she is to live in that aged care, surounded by people who care about her. I miss that place, i want to be back as a visitor.

I went to see the dentist

My tooth was chipped around 2 weeks ago. It happen when i was cleaning my teeth use tooth pick then suddenly half of one of my tooth came off. I was up set and cry all night, thought that i would lose my tooth. I am too young to lose my tooth. Anyway, i went to see the dentist yesterday. After dissapointed with my previous dentist, i moved to an other dentist. My previous dentist is public dentist (bulk billing) but i paid full price because i don't have concession and my husband not under pension from centre link. So yeah, good lesson for me to not to go to bulk billing dentist. So i went to private dentist yesterday, they got 6 dentist, it is more like dentist group. Where i can pick which dentist i want, because it was my first time to be there, so i told the reception that i don't have any preferation and just pick the good one for me. They put me with good dentist. I forgot the name of the dentist, she looks like from china, but i know that she finished her study at Adelaide University in 2009. So she pretty new, but she is very gentle. She did injection which affect my lower lip, my tounge and around that tooth. I could not eat for 2-3 hours because of my tounge so weak, i could not swallow food and talk. My husband was happy because i was not very talkative for 2-3 hours yesterday. Then after that i got a toothache on that spot where she did the job, then now i don't have any toothache in the morning when i woke up. So i am very happy with her, she did such a great job. She thought my infection already went to the nerves, she gave me option to do treatment which will cost me a fortune, so she tried to do filling to my chipped tooth, now i don't have any problem at all. Finger cross, hopefully that tooth will be fine. I am not going to spend $1200 for one chipped tooth. So yeah, i spent $250 yesterday, she did X-Ray, check and filling for that money. I am going to come back in the next few weeks to do an other filling. One of my tooth got a hole in that, that hole since last year. My previous dentist did the filling but the filling came off. What a waste of money. So i am going to see my new dentist again in the next few weeks to do the job on my teeth again. So everything just change, before i was scared to see chinese dentist, you know why? When i think about acupunture, i thought that i will get acupunture if i see any chinese dentist or chinese doctor. Oh God, i am scared of needle, i don't want any teeth acupunture.

I love public shower and public toilet

I love summer, you know why? It means i can go to the beach and have shower at public shower or do wee wee or open my bowel at public toilet. I love to have a swim at the beach then have a long shower at public shower. Of course i use thongs when i go to the toilet or having shower. I don't have to be worry about water, taking advantage of public facility. I love having shower, back in my country i always having long shower. But in here, water too expensive. I have to be quick and i can not enjoy my shower. I wish there are many public shower open for public for all season with cold and hot water system. Sometimes i think, why i not having shower at truckie place? There are many truckie place along the road on my way to north east Victoria where my farm over there. But i feel unsafe to have shower at truckie place when it almost mid night. My husband does not like to have shower at public place even i give him shampoo and soap, he prefers to have shower at home. Well, i never been at male toilet. But women toilet just so nice, odourless, and clean. That's why i am very happy to have shower at public toilet.

What are they looking in life?

I am really confused when elderly worried about money. They should worry about their health, their friends gone, where they will go once they pass away. But again, they always worry about family sell their house, family sell their stuff, they always worry about money. Even the carers told to resident that i get into this industry because i want money. Let me tell you that i just 21 y.o. I got husband who support me, i got house, i got holiday house, i got some investments which giving me passive income, half of my husband passive income go to me monthly. Money which come to me everymonth is enough for me. I am not buying expensive stuff even i can afford that. I can not be bothred about shopping luxury, going to expensive place, i been there and i know that all of those just waste of money and temporary happiness. I already found my true happiness without wasting money. I already found something which can fill my empty life. I already found the way how to make fullfilled life. I want fullfilled life, not money. I do voluntereer at opp shop, i got cheap stuff from opp shop. Good stuff with couple of dollar. Of course i not buying much because i don't need so much stuff and i want other people have a chance to buy good stuff. I am happy to do voluntary job at opp shop as i found many friends, i feel helping other people with love, and no work pressure at all. I get into aged care industry because i want to helping old people. Sharing my life with them. I have a bad english and that's fine, i just 2.5 years in here, i still have time to learn. I am not going to blame my self because i been here for 2.5 years then my english still bad. Many of them have dementia, i enjoy have a sit next to them, watching ants, watching the sky, have a laugh. While carer not prepared to sit next to them and enjoying the time with them. Carers always rushing, even when it is time to go home, they always going home straight away, they don't want to spare half hour or one hour to listen to resident, accompany with resident. They knew that some residents lonely, some residents have dementia and really confused. Anyway, people have their own bussiness, their own dream. My dream is to be a sunshine in old people life.

I love you and your dementia

When come to aged care industry, stop thinking to make money out of elderly with dementia. It is the most disgusting things to come to aged care industry only for money. You should come to aged care industry because you care, you love them and you want to look after them to make their life more pleasant and improve their quality of life. I can not understand why people who do not have caring personality work at aged care. The answer must be becase of money. Oh well, money is the most nasty things. Not to show off, that i am young, healty, have a lot of time, my husband support me finnancially. I would like to spend my time with people who old, lonely, sick, and poor. Their smile and happy face make me feel rich. I can not buy those feelings with money. Their appreciation really made my day. Sometimes their behaviour a bit challenging for me but i really enjoy it. They are just sooo cute like a child when they are angry even sometimes make me cry. Their behaviour sometimes make me up set, but most of the time they make me laugh. I just love them, i do not understand why i love them. I can not describe those feeling. It is something which touch my heart. I enjoy sit next to them, even i do not understand what they were talking about. Our gesture that we enjoy each other is the most important thing. As long as they are happy, i am happy. I just want to be close to them, no matter who they are, what are they talking about, what is they life story. The feeling, something which can not explain verbally is the most important things. I hate when carer judgje them based on their dementia like whatever go wrong with their behaviour is their dementia fault.